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I moved back in with my parents when I found out I was pregnant with Lily and we'll probably be here until she starts school and I can afford a place of our own.
Moving back home was a culture shock but because I was working full-time, it wasn't too bad. Now that I'm home all day, I'm slowly losing it.
My dad retired a couple of years ago and so he's around the house all the time. And it's driving me insane - I feel like I never get to spend time alone with my daughter. It's his house so I can't say anything to him though. He's started to go out during the day now but the damage has already been done - I'm so irritated with him that even a morning of him being around has me on edge.
Lily's his first grandchild and he dotes on her which is great. But not so great when he stands over us watching me give her a bottle or keeps coming out to the kitchen when I'm giving her a bath so he can see. The first few weeks, I tried to compromise and I'd ask him to mind her while I had a shower and expressed etc. But every time I did, he'd tell everyone about it which annoyed me - he had her once for about two hours while I grabbed a nap and all the neighbours were told about it. I know I'm being paranoid and petty, but I don't want them thinking I'm palming my daughter off on my parents for hours every day. And now that myself and Lily are more used to each other, I prefer to leave her sleeping in her Moses basket while I grab a shower - it makes me feel more confident in my parenting ability not to have to ask someone to look after her. And giving him that time to look after her just seemed to encourage him to bother us even more.
He sulks and makes comments when he doesn't get enough time with her - but I prefer that she sleeps in her pram or Moses basket as much as possible and I prefer to give her bottles because she spits up and throws up when they're not done right. Which leaves the active periods - and she's so young now that there's only a couple of them a day. Call me selfish but those active periods, when she's grinning and playing make the other 20+ hours worth it and as I look after her full-time (and I grew her!), I think I'm entitled to enjoy them. And even during them, he'll sometimes come over to us and call her name and try and get her attention away from me. It really bothers me - there's so few periods where she's happy to look at me and interact with me and he tries to take those away.
I know I should just speak to him about it, but he's not the easiest person to speak to. I just wish he was more like my mother - she steps back and lets me do things my way and because she does, I find it much easier to let her take Lily for a while in the evenings after she's home from work and I make an effort to ensure that happens. I'm also more confident that she knows what she's doing - my dad will take Lily when she's nearly asleep and sit her up to try and make her smile at him. Of course, she starts crying because she's tired. I don't understand why he can't just make an effort to read her cues (and seriously, half-closed eyes and a droopy head are not hard to read).
Argh.
Not quite sure what I'm looking for here. And if you've made your way through all that, then well done and apologies for boring you. I think I just needed a rant.
Because part of me feels like I'm being a bitch but the other part just wants some space and some peace with my daughter.
If anyone else is living with their parents, please tell me you can relate to this...
Moving back home was a culture shock but because I was working full-time, it wasn't too bad. Now that I'm home all day, I'm slowly losing it.
My dad retired a couple of years ago and so he's around the house all the time. And it's driving me insane - I feel like I never get to spend time alone with my daughter. It's his house so I can't say anything to him though. He's started to go out during the day now but the damage has already been done - I'm so irritated with him that even a morning of him being around has me on edge.
Lily's his first grandchild and he dotes on her which is great. But not so great when he stands over us watching me give her a bottle or keeps coming out to the kitchen when I'm giving her a bath so he can see. The first few weeks, I tried to compromise and I'd ask him to mind her while I had a shower and expressed etc. But every time I did, he'd tell everyone about it which annoyed me - he had her once for about two hours while I grabbed a nap and all the neighbours were told about it. I know I'm being paranoid and petty, but I don't want them thinking I'm palming my daughter off on my parents for hours every day. And now that myself and Lily are more used to each other, I prefer to leave her sleeping in her Moses basket while I grab a shower - it makes me feel more confident in my parenting ability not to have to ask someone to look after her. And giving him that time to look after her just seemed to encourage him to bother us even more.
He sulks and makes comments when he doesn't get enough time with her - but I prefer that she sleeps in her pram or Moses basket as much as possible and I prefer to give her bottles because she spits up and throws up when they're not done right. Which leaves the active periods - and she's so young now that there's only a couple of them a day. Call me selfish but those active periods, when she's grinning and playing make the other 20+ hours worth it and as I look after her full-time (and I grew her!), I think I'm entitled to enjoy them. And even during them, he'll sometimes come over to us and call her name and try and get her attention away from me. It really bothers me - there's so few periods where she's happy to look at me and interact with me and he tries to take those away.
I know I should just speak to him about it, but he's not the easiest person to speak to. I just wish he was more like my mother - she steps back and lets me do things my way and because she does, I find it much easier to let her take Lily for a while in the evenings after she's home from work and I make an effort to ensure that happens. I'm also more confident that she knows what she's doing - my dad will take Lily when she's nearly asleep and sit her up to try and make her smile at him. Of course, she starts crying because she's tired. I don't understand why he can't just make an effort to read her cues (and seriously, half-closed eyes and a droopy head are not hard to read).
Argh.
Not quite sure what I'm looking for here. And if you've made your way through all that, then well done and apologies for boring you. I think I just needed a rant.
Because part of me feels like I'm being a bitch but the other part just wants some space and some peace with my daughter.
If anyone else is living with their parents, please tell me you can relate to this...