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[tcinks]

Happy new year, ladies! I'm so ready for a fresh start, to put 2015 behind and look forward to what 2016 has in store (hopefully lots of rainbow babies!)

 

[Uni tsi]

Happy New Years! I firmly believe 2016 will be a great year for all of us!!

*As I typed that last exclamation point, on the tv in the other room came a commercial and they were playing Lois Armstrong

The colors of the rainbow
So pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces
Of people goin' by
I see friends shakin' hands
Sayin', "How do you do?"
They're really sayin'
"I love you"
I hear babies cry, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

I ran into the other room to see why this song was suddenly playing, and it felt like such a good sign for all of us. I ended up bursting into tears when I got to the living room and my sweet H was so confused and kind of laughing that I'm such a sap now. Call me superstitious, but I really feel like this will be our lucky thread

 

[Uni tsi]

Ok so while watching tv this evening the same commercial with the song came on. And, seeing it I'm really almost embarrassed I was feeling so sappy earlier. I guess at least being weirdly superstitious and sappy is an improvement over what my mood has been the past couple months.

Now if only it were Tuesday already, so I could test. I'm starting to feel really antsy. I don't really feel any sort of symptoms, but then I didn't at all when I actually was pregnant so I can't take that to mean anything.

I still can't shake this feeling that 2016 is going to be the year all of us get our rainbows. It feels strange to feel so optimistic. It's an unfamiliar feeling. Or, maybe I'm just happy the holidays are over lol

 

[tcinks]

I think sappy is good Better to be hopeful and excited than worried and depressed. I go through waves but with this new year I'm trying to stay positive and hope for the best.

You're only 4 days away, you can do it! But also don't feel bad if you cave and test early

 

[Uni tsi]

Thank you for your kind words and encouragement. I'm glad you added that last part because I probably will cave lol

 

[Aayla]

Happy new year ladies!! I think this will be a great year.

Uni: nothing wrong with sappy. I get that way too. Good luck on your wait. I know it is hard. I have 9 more days to go but I have no money to spare for tests until next Friday so that will keep me from testing early. But I probably won't wait the 2 days lol. I know myself and will be grabbing a test on Friday morning.

 

[Uni tsi]

Thanks Aayla I am glad to be in good company.

Guess what I did first thing this morning when I woke up? If you guess I tested, you would not be wrong lol 7dpo is still too soon. Yesterday I could feign ignorance. Today I have no excuse. But at least I've found a reason to laugh at myself. I have one more frer left which I think I will give myself permission to try tomorrow because it says it might work at 8dpo. Then I'll switch to the digital ones. I don't even really expect to get a BFP this month so I'm not sure why I'm being so silly.

This is something I'm really going to have to get under control next month or I'll run out of money. But it feels good to indulge myself this month... thanks everyone for reassuring me this is a normal response. Before my loss, I had such a laid back attitude I only ever tested one time the day I missed AF and it was a BFP. So I almost wonder if I'm putting myself through this to get myself used to seeing BFNs

I hope everyone had a great morning and has a lovely day

 

[tcinks]

Haha oh Uni. If you could, I would suggest trying to save that last FRER until 10dpo. It is possible that it could detect at 8, but a lot more likely at 10

Fortunately for me I've run out of tests so can't keep obsessively using them If AF doesn't show Monday I may sneak out and get more.

 

[Uni tsi]

I will try to save it, but I can't make any promises!

 

[c beary83]

I tested today too uni. Obviously bfn. Feeling so out

I'm in the miserable and depressed phase.

 

[Uni tsi]

Awww cb sorry to hear that.

 

[tcinks]

I tested today too uni. Obviously bfn. Feeling so out

I'm in the miserable and depressed phase.

I'm sorry Seeing that always gets us down a little. What dpo are you?

 

[c beary83]

I'm only 8 or 9 so I guess there is still a chance but I'm just not feeling it this cycle

 

[Uni tsi]

You should definitely try again tomorrow, cb. You're not out yet The time I did get my BFP I didn't have any symptoms till after 8 weeks.

 

[Aayla]

9 dpo. If I had money I would be testing tomorrow. Lol I am having symptoms come and go. Some I control because I won't eat the food that makes me feel ill lol but new stuff crops up. Had an egg salad sandwich that tasted rancid first bite (there was nothing wrong with it). Had some cramping, twinges, amd pulling in my abdomen area. I am still 9 days from af being due so I don't think that is it. I usually cramp during af not before. So I am optimistic this may be something.

I am tempted to go buy a dollar store test. I know it will be negative because they aren't that sensitive and on my last bfp I didn't get a positive on a frer until 13dpo. But it may just scratch the poas itch.

 

[Uni tsi]

Aayla that's so exciting. I wish I could send you my last frer. It sounds like you could put it to much better use then me!

 

[tcinks]

Aayla I know what you mean, sometimes I stock up on those cheapies just so I don't have to feel bad when I test, even when I know there's no way nothing will show up

 

[tcinks]

I feel af coming on :/ I'm a little bummed but also relieved to be out of limbo and moving onto a new cycle.

I'm wondering if any of you ladies take extra vitamins or supplements that aid in ttc? Like raspberry leaf or vitex or anything like that?

 

[Uni tsi]

Sorry to hear that tcinks. Way to look on the bright side though! I'll have to practice that myself next week, me thinks.

I'm taking Rainbow Light prenatals. They have all the normal stuff and some extra goodies like raspberry leaf and probiotics. They're great cause the iron doesn't upset the stomach. I also take vegan DHA and some CoQ10 every day.

I might start drinking rrl tea again. I know it's great in the third trimester, but I'd forgotten it was good early on too. How's it help with ttc?

 

[kmpreston]

Hi ladies I would like to join you if that's ok? Here's a bit about me

I'm Kirsty, I'm 27 and live in the uk. DH and I got married in July 2014 and have been TTC ever since. My doctor and I had suspected that I had PCOS from the age of 20 but just ignored it and took the pill to avoid symptoms. I also have a history of problems with my cervix - it's tilted, it's a long way back and it's intermittently got abnormal cells. So I see a gynae regularly to be checked.

Once I came off the pill I had a couple of "normal" cycles but I always ovulated in cd20 or later. By Dec 2014 the pill was obviously out of my system. That cycle lasted 76 days and was followed by two exceptionally short anovulatory cycles.
April 2015 I was formally diagnosed with PCOS by ultrasound scan and blood tests - my hormone levels were way out of whack. Unfortunately that wasn't enough to get me referred to a specialist - we had to have been trying for a year.

We continued to TTC and I took soy isoflavones for four months to mimic clomid and try to make me ovulate. I had been temping since October and could see quickly that my cycles were improving, I was ovulating regularly (though still late between cd18-24), baby dancing on the right days but I still wasn't pregnant.

In July 2015 we finally got our referral through and things moved quite quickly - hsg to check my tubes were clear (they were), sperm analysis for DH (perfectly normal) and more blood tests (progesterone still iffy) so we were given clomid to start in sept.

Clomid has much improved my cycles - they are now 29 days, I definitely ovulate and in November I actually ovulated on CD 15 which seemed like a miracle. Even more so when I got my BFP on 11th December (10dpo). My lines gradually got darker over the next few days and the digital said 1-2 weeks when AF was due. All very promising. A week after my first BFP the frer I took was really nice and dark. And then I woke up the next morning to find I was bleeding. I went to the hospital where they confirmed it was a miscarriage at 4 weeks 5 days.

I'm currently CD16 based on when the bleeding started (though i should possibly base it on when hcg reached <5 in which case I'm currently cd14) and my OPKs are just about positive so I should ovulate in the next 3 days. This has been the longest 16 days of my life!