KatBar
~Lucky mumma of 2 boys + girl on the way~
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I'm not sure why I'm even posting this, but I guess I just need to vent my feelings out somewhere...
My husband and I couldn't conceive naturally, due to his low morphology rate. This was and still is our only "known" issue. We were so extremely blessed to conceive our son on our first IVF cycle, and have quite a few day 6 embryos to freeze too. After all our misery watching all our friends conceive with ease (literally every single one of our couple friends are one hit wonders when it comes to having kids), we finally felt like things were looking up for us. We got our amazing son and we would hopefully have a much quicker and easier time conceiving number 2 by doing an FET.
Wrong! It just seems fate doesn't want the journey to pregnancy and children to be easy for us (& many others I know). After a miscarriage at 5 weeks and 3 days in December, we actually got pregnant naturally (I mean wow, we didn't even think that was remotely possible), only for it be a chemical pregnancy and start bleeding at 4 weeks and 4 days.
Que to the next FET in February, and things were looking up. I had a nice faint, but very clearly there, bfp at only 5 days past transfer. My first blood draw was 219 at 4 weeks and 2 days, and then 2190 at 5 weeks 2 days. It was a nice 50 hour doubling time, well within the expected 48-72 hour doubling timeframe.
Then at 6 weeks and 2 days it only goes up to 7600. This is a 93 hour doubling time. I'm immediately concerned, even though my nurse is blarzay about it (they look at ranges and completely ignore doubling times).
So I booked in a scan today (at 6 weeks and 3 days). It was a vaginal scan, and all that could be seen was the sac. She believes she may have seen the fetal pole (& measured what she thought was the fetal pole), but if it was the fetal pole, it was measuring a full week behind at 5 weeks and few days. There was no delectable heart beat or flickering. I had had a scan with my son at 5 weeks and 4 days, as my ovaries were very swollen from the fresh cycle, and there was a very obvious heart beat flickering away, so I'm very concerned that I should be an extra week ahead this time and see less (I had also got a positive test with my son at 5 days past transfer).
I'm now waiting to hear back from my IVF doctor on what he makes of the scan, but it's pretty much not looking good and I'm devastated to be back at square one again
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My husband and I couldn't conceive naturally, due to his low morphology rate. This was and still is our only "known" issue. We were so extremely blessed to conceive our son on our first IVF cycle, and have quite a few day 6 embryos to freeze too. After all our misery watching all our friends conceive with ease (literally every single one of our couple friends are one hit wonders when it comes to having kids), we finally felt like things were looking up for us. We got our amazing son and we would hopefully have a much quicker and easier time conceiving number 2 by doing an FET.
Wrong! It just seems fate doesn't want the journey to pregnancy and children to be easy for us (& many others I know). After a miscarriage at 5 weeks and 3 days in December, we actually got pregnant naturally (I mean wow, we didn't even think that was remotely possible), only for it be a chemical pregnancy and start bleeding at 4 weeks and 4 days.
Que to the next FET in February, and things were looking up. I had a nice faint, but very clearly there, bfp at only 5 days past transfer. My first blood draw was 219 at 4 weeks and 2 days, and then 2190 at 5 weeks 2 days. It was a nice 50 hour doubling time, well within the expected 48-72 hour doubling timeframe.
Then at 6 weeks and 2 days it only goes up to 7600. This is a 93 hour doubling time. I'm immediately concerned, even though my nurse is blarzay about it (they look at ranges and completely ignore doubling times).
So I booked in a scan today (at 6 weeks and 3 days). It was a vaginal scan, and all that could be seen was the sac. She believes she may have seen the fetal pole (& measured what she thought was the fetal pole), but if it was the fetal pole, it was measuring a full week behind at 5 weeks and few days. There was no delectable heart beat or flickering. I had had a scan with my son at 5 weeks and 4 days, as my ovaries were very swollen from the fresh cycle, and there was a very obvious heart beat flickering away, so I'm very concerned that I should be an extra week ahead this time and see less (I had also got a positive test with my son at 5 days past transfer).
I'm now waiting to hear back from my IVF doctor on what he makes of the scan, but it's pretty much not looking good and I'm devastated to be back at square one again
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Will you be having a follow up soon?
I hope you get good news on Monday
take all the time you need to recover and to grieve. Don't let anyone rush you. 
