losing hope

[Cupcake81]

I'm not even really sure what to write, I just know I need to vent

I have a 2 year old girl, and have been TTC for 12 months. I'm on my 4th round of clomid (150mg, cd 5-9) and even though I'm only on cd 14 of this cycle, I just know it's not going to work. I'm not ovulating on my own, so I had to take provera before every round of clomid, just to induce my period.

Last cycle, on cd19 - I randomly got a period on my own. I thought "awesome! this means I ovulated on my own - yippie!" My dr just called and said I didn't ovulate. She basically said she's baffled and can't figure out what is going on with me and why I'm not ovulating.

I'm just struggling to keep hope that a second baby will ever happen for me.

 

[JB3]

Hi hun
Im sorry I have no constructive advise but I couldn't just read and run.

I have a 4 year old and have been TTC #2 for 20 months now so I know how frustrating it is.

Is your doctor a fertility specialist or a GP, if she is a GP I would defiantly be demanding referral to and FS.

Try to keep your chin up hun

 

[Cupcake81]

I'm just seeing my ob right now, but she said if this round of clomid doesn't work (which I'm pretty sure it wont) then she's going to put in a referral for me to be seen by a FS.

Thank you for your kind words and encouragment, it really helped This whole secondary infertility thing is the pits

 

[ashleyalw]

I have been ttc for 20 months and am on 3rd round of clomid. I also had 2 miscarriages in that time. I am to the point where I am losing hope also. I just had my fsh levels checked and they were slighlty elevated which can be why I am having problems concieving and also why I am not carrying to full term. Maybe have dr check your levels. Good luck!

 

[Round2]

Same boat here. Going on 17 months of TTC#2. I've had 2 MMC and 1 early MC. I've been to see a FS, high risk OB, Hemotologist, Rheumatologist..etc...etc...DD turns 4 years old next week, she asks me nearly every day when we can have a baby in our family.

It's so fustrating, but I know that we'll all get there. Our bodies have done it before...I KNOW that it will happen again. For me, the hardest part is letting go of the idea that my children will be close in age.

 

[purechaos109]

I know how hard it can be ttc#2! All the thoughts that run through your mind on a day to day basis is enough to make any one go crazy! The worst thought in the world is "how come I have #1 and didn't have an issue but now I am having issues conceiving #2"! There are no answers to our questions for the most part! Hopefully it will all work out soon!

 

[IrishGirl]

Yup hun im right there with you.We fell preg while i was on the pill.Our princess is now 7.Were TTC#2 for 5Years now.It gets really hard.Big hugs xoxox

 

[Gemmamumof2]

i caught for mine on pill accidents ..... now ttc #3 for 3 years.. seems now i reallly want another dont seem to happen.

maybe we should go back on pill and get pregnant

but dont lose hope, if you dont even try it deffinately wont happen when we try theres always hope... xxxx

to you all xx

 

[40yearoldmum]

Ive only just found this secondary infertility forum, I've always lurked in the over 35's. I'm 41 in may and have a 19 month old boy, Ive been trying for a year now with 2 miscarriages and investigations resulting in, no real chance on IVF with my AMH of 4.97 so just keeping going, in the two week cycles!! Feel like my life is flying by and standing still at times (waiting for witch!) I'm trying to let go of it all, but its easier said than done, don't want to prevent and draw a line under it just yet.

 

[crystal443]

I just found this forum as well ok here's my story, I just turned 36 not very long ago and I have a 14 DD and a 13 DS I went off of birth control to get pregnant with DD. It did however take about 18 months and a round of Clomid to get pregnant with her and one month and one round of Clomid with DS. Since then- nothing I have not been on birth control since before my 14 year old daughter and I have gone to fertility specialists and everything is normal. hubby is normal..there's no apparent reason for our issues We weren't trying the whole time but we weren't not trying either We got serious about trying about 2 years ago and did 6 rounds of Clomid with no BFP

We were told our only option is IVF which we'll be going ahead with around April. I'm glad we're soon going to go ahead but I am soooooo angry that we're having these issues. I was supposed to start IVF in January but was so frustrated with myself I decided to wait a few months and let it all sink in.

I did have two c sections which my FS keeps telling me is not the reason for not conceiving. I just keep thinking I've managed to do this twice why can I not do it one more time? I hope we all manage our BFP in 2011, I've got my fingers crossed for all of us!!!

By the way I was told we would have a fantastic chance of getting pregnant with IVF because our issue is with the sperm and egg meeting so just wanted to throw that in there

 

[crystal443]

40yearoldmum- Just wanted to say good luck hun !!You'll get your sticky bean don't give up!!

 

[Rainbow32]

we have been TTC for number 2 for 15m. i had some scar adhesions from my c section with my son who is nearly 3 so i had those removed and had lap/dye/hsg. im now on 3rd cycle since that operation and start clomid next cycle, i do ovulate but i have a luteal phase defect which i am on progesterone for, so hope is that clomid will help with that.

i try my hardest to be possitive, i try to be happy for all of my friends who are pregnant with second babies but its a struggle, a really hard struggle and at times i totally lose all hope and i dont know how to face it all.

i feel so guilty not giving my son a sibling. i dont understand why in 15m i have not even had a sniff of a BFP when we conceived our son month 1.

for me TTC number 2 has so many complicated pressures because your guilt is just terrible.

am just hoping clomid will help!

baby dust to us all