I posted this in the ttc after loss forum but there is not very much action there so I decided to post here too.
I lost my son at about 21 week pregnant a few weeks ago. I have now had my first period but am an emotional mess. I grieve for what could have been and my heart aches. I have been diagnosed with postpartum depression and the doctor is a bit worried about me.
This has been a rough year. I get severe morning sickness from week 5 - 14 usually and therefore I have been little or distracted at work since may when I got pregnant. First I had bad nausea and vomiting, then few good weeks and then the horrible loss of our baby. I have returned to work but I have not until very recently been able to concentrate at all so I am not in a good place there.
Last time I met my doctor he adviced me to wait for some time ttc because of my mental health. He wants to put me on antidepressants (not to be taken when pregnant) and recommends at least 6 months up to year for me to get over the loss and establish myself in the world again, catch up on work and ect.. I get what he is thinking but the thought of becoming pregnant again is somehow the ray of hope I have been focusing on. I feel so empty when I think about letting it go for such a long time. Even though I have my two wonderful kids. But it is not good either to be doing badly at work, feeling depressed and also physically worse off than usual (I gained weight during the pregnancy I lost). My husbands wants another baby but also only wants what is best for me.
Sorry about the ramblings. I feel so lost and it is such a hard choice to decide to let got of ttc and go on medication. I feel like my baby is still waiting to join us and I will be prolonging that period. I also don´t get pregnant very easily, it took about 8 months to conceive my son.
Anyone got an advice or an opinion?
I lost my son at about 21 week pregnant a few weeks ago. I have now had my first period but am an emotional mess. I grieve for what could have been and my heart aches. I have been diagnosed with postpartum depression and the doctor is a bit worried about me.
This has been a rough year. I get severe morning sickness from week 5 - 14 usually and therefore I have been little or distracted at work since may when I got pregnant. First I had bad nausea and vomiting, then few good weeks and then the horrible loss of our baby. I have returned to work but I have not until very recently been able to concentrate at all so I am not in a good place there.
Last time I met my doctor he adviced me to wait for some time ttc because of my mental health. He wants to put me on antidepressants (not to be taken when pregnant) and recommends at least 6 months up to year for me to get over the loss and establish myself in the world again, catch up on work and ect.. I get what he is thinking but the thought of becoming pregnant again is somehow the ray of hope I have been focusing on. I feel so empty when I think about letting it go for such a long time. Even though I have my two wonderful kids. But it is not good either to be doing badly at work, feeling depressed and also physically worse off than usual (I gained weight during the pregnancy I lost). My husbands wants another baby but also only wants what is best for me.
Sorry about the ramblings. I feel so lost and it is such a hard choice to decide to let got of ttc and go on medication. I feel like my baby is still waiting to join us and I will be prolonging that period. I also don´t get pregnant very easily, it took about 8 months to conceive my son.
Anyone got an advice or an opinion?