HBelcher33
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I had been spotting a little brown/dark red and some cramping. I called the dr's answering service (was after hours) and he said its probably my SCH resolving. I had a small one. 1cm. So i tried not to worry.
This was the weekend of the 19-20th. Monday morning i called the doctors office and they had me come in for an u/s. I went alone. Hubby was working. The u/s tech put the probe on my belly and started measuring. Baby was measuring 13w2d and she couldn't see the heart very well.
So she did a transvag u/s which i knew couldn't be good. She looked and looked no hb.
So i was taken into a room and another dr (not mine) talked to me. Then rushed me out the door.
I had to have a d & c soon he said. No other options were given to me. I was in shock so i hadn't knew what to say.
So i was anticipating a d & c the next day or the following. Then researching i decided what if i could deliver? I had d & c's before and they made me feel miserable. I was earlier on but still. So i called the drs office and they said i could if i wanted. I was rushed to get back with them about my surgery or what i was gonna do. Me and hubby couldn't decide We were rushed.
So went for the d & e that i later now regret. I asked the dr before the procedure (and i had another u/s that morning 2 days later to verify no hb once again AND get pics to keep) and asked about testing. He told me "yea, you prob won't get any answers" i asked about cremation "in the state of MI under 20 weeks you can't" later to find out this is NOT true. It was a nightmare. I wish i could've held my baby and delivered him/her at least. Instead of the brutal method that was done. If it weren't for a few friends checking on things my baby would've just been discarded. I woke up the next day at 4 am to check and decided to start calling and the hospital and say i want my baby to be cremated and tested or see if testing was done. So i had to keep going through pathology etc... and they kept saying" If we release the remains to you you know the baby isn't whole?" Yes dumby i know! Please don't remind me. I ended up calling a funeral home who agreed to pick the baby up for me so i wouldn't have to see the baby in that state. So now i wait.. for them to call me and tell me when the baby's ashes are ready and PRAY that i have some to bring home. Being that i was suppose to be 15w4d but baby was only measuring 13w2d at that time. I want something of my baby's to bring home. What a nightmare. And i have 5 other kids but it doesn't make it easy. I have 4 other angels in heaven but this is the hardest. I had felt movement and everything and had 2 recent perfect hb's and all.
This was the weekend of the 19-20th. Monday morning i called the doctors office and they had me come in for an u/s. I went alone. Hubby was working. The u/s tech put the probe on my belly and started measuring. Baby was measuring 13w2d and she couldn't see the heart very well.
So she did a transvag u/s which i knew couldn't be good. She looked and looked no hb.
So i was taken into a room and another dr (not mine) talked to me. Then rushed me out the door.
I had to have a d & c soon he said. No other options were given to me. I was in shock so i hadn't knew what to say.
So i was anticipating a d & c the next day or the following. Then researching i decided what if i could deliver? I had d & c's before and they made me feel miserable. I was earlier on but still. So i called the drs office and they said i could if i wanted. I was rushed to get back with them about my surgery or what i was gonna do. Me and hubby couldn't decide We were rushed.
So went for the d & e that i later now regret. I asked the dr before the procedure (and i had another u/s that morning 2 days later to verify no hb once again AND get pics to keep) and asked about testing. He told me "yea, you prob won't get any answers" i asked about cremation "in the state of MI under 20 weeks you can't" later to find out this is NOT true. It was a nightmare. I wish i could've held my baby and delivered him/her at least. Instead of the brutal method that was done. If it weren't for a few friends checking on things my baby would've just been discarded. I woke up the next day at 4 am to check and decided to start calling and the hospital and say i want my baby to be cremated and tested or see if testing was done. So i had to keep going through pathology etc... and they kept saying" If we release the remains to you you know the baby isn't whole?" Yes dumby i know! Please don't remind me. I ended up calling a funeral home who agreed to pick the baby up for me so i wouldn't have to see the baby in that state. So now i wait.. for them to call me and tell me when the baby's ashes are ready and PRAY that i have some to bring home. Being that i was suppose to be 15w4d but baby was only measuring 13w2d at that time. I want something of my baby's to bring home. What a nightmare. And i have 5 other kids but it doesn't make it easy. I have 4 other angels in heaven but this is the hardest. I had felt movement and everything and had 2 recent perfect hb's and all.