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[wishing4bub#3]

I feel so lost not sure how to feel. just wish i did feel something.

only a couple of friends knew we were prego no family but i wish i told no one. its hard when a friend wants to help but there is nothing they can do to help. i want to tell them to go away but i dont want to be on my own.

hubby is 100% sure he does not want to go through this gain but i am only 60% sure i am ready to give up. i feel like why me today.

i had a dream my grandad (died last year) he gave me a prezzie and said i had to cherish it forever then i have a m/c i hate him for it that dream was the reason why i tested

sorry just pissed off with the world today

 

[hopefulfor09]

Big hugs honey. You're entitled to feel angry. I can't 100% identify as I haven't MC but oddly enough I have had dreams about my grandad who says I am preggo and I test and I am not. And I feel angry at him. I can't give you any words of comfort, because I know there arent' any but don't give up sweetie. Anything worth having is worth fighting for. I am thinking of you. Big hugs. And it's okay to be pissed off with the world.
xxxx

 

[Shelby2007]

I can understand where you are coming from.. but also understand that I cherish my babies.. even if they are in heaven.. not that you dont.. and I will remember them forever.. because it was my first pregnancy.. and they were twin babies.

Hopefully you will get pg very soon.. and that will be your present! Good luck.

 

[rachjim98]

I hate dreams especially ones that come true. I had a dream that we went to the sonogram and they told us she was gone. This was around 11 weeks pregnant. After our 12 week scan I just thought OK it was just a bad dream...
Then we went in for our regular check up @17 weeks and they couldn't find her Heartbeat on the Doppler and I thought OK this is the dream. Well they did the scan and told me she was fine I even seen her and her little heart was beating she looked great.
3 weeks later we went in for the anatomy scan and that's where the dream came into reality she had no heartbeat.
All those weeks I thought it was just a terrible dream but it was real and I wish I had never had it.. Deep down I knew, was just hoping....

So sorry for your loss and being numb is only natural

My DH is also not wanting to go through this again and I am still struggling with rather or not I am willing to put my body and mind through this as well.
I have 2 older children 9 and 6. Some Days I do and some days I cant bear to think of going through it again. I feel like I had my 3rd child she just isn't with us everyday in the flesh but she is with us everyday in our hearts!

 

[Las78]

Hun, you have every right to feel pissed off with the world, I feel like that a lot at the minute - the smallest of things can set me off and I know I'm awful to live with right now but I guess it is part of dealing with it, which I suppose in a way is good because we are dealing with it.

I went to a fortune teller when I was 17, told me a lot of stuff. Said I would have a baby in October and then he couldn't see anything after that - I often wonder if it was the m/c he saw.

Sending you big hugs and hope tommorrow is a little better for you x