LTTTC #1 - Support Group *Please share your story

[Myshelsong]

Happy happy mothers day to all the would be Moms on this thread and every where in the world. You deserve a beautiful day!

 

[Closure]

Hi,

I just joined.

I've been TTC for 3 years and 2 months.

I got my first BFP the week I got married. We were shocked as that was our first try but we were happy. I miscarried on honeymoon.

In the months that followed my normally regular cycle was thrown out of synch and this led to a diagnosis of Polycystic Ovaries.

I didn't take the Metformin I was prescribed for too long as hubby felt I was creating a issue in my head that didn't exist.

I got my next BFP 18 months after the first. I had implantation spotting and I had a lot of stretching sensations. I was over the moon to be pregnant but so worried it wouldn't last that I tested all. The. Time. And I also I had my first panic attack ever. One day whilst testing I got a reduced week result. I miscarried a few days later.

I don't know how I survived.

The year from that miscarriage was the worst. I think I was genuinely depressed. I'd cry most days in my car. I found it hard inwardly to deal with my good friend giving birth two months after my miscarriage but I kept this inside. When my two best friends got pregnant at the same time I shut down. I've broken those two friendships now. I want nothing to do with either of them really. Some of it's not baby related but if I'd not had to contend with the baby issue I might have held out for longer/forever.

So, in January this year I decided to turn my life around! 14 is my lucky number and I just couldn't have a year as destroying as 13 again!!!

I started a health kick (2 stone 2lb down) by cutting out caffeine and carbs mainly.

I also sought medical help for the first time (I'm on my second cycle of chlomid after test revealed I've stopped ovulating now) which meant overcoming my fear of needles. (Not overcoming - just having needles & embracing my meltdown really! Lol).

I have also started taking conception vitamins and inositol powder.

It's hubby's birthday this week and I am praying for a BFP that turns into a third time lucky!! I hope I've done enough to deserve it!! 😕

This year we also began looking into adoption. I want to proceed with that as soon as possible really. If the chlomid hasn't made me ovulate (or if we have to go through another miscarriage) we'll be giving up on a birth child and adopting a sibling group who need a loving family.

I will find out on the 19th if the chlomid has made me ovulate. I will be pregnancy testing on Wednesday morning this week with every fibre in my body willing the outcome to be what we want more than anything right now!

I look forward to being part of your community! I'm no longer shut away from the world - I'm ready to get help, change my life and embrace others! Thanks for having me! xxxx

 

[Myshelsong]

Hi closure I am sorry about your losses and my heart goes out to you.
I am glad that you can come around the corner and are feeling a bit better about your situation I completely understand the depression and angst this journey can take on oneself.

May you get your big fat positive soon

As for me last night in the house, movers coming in the morning and I may have finally got my first 0PK positive today so lots of loving for the next three nights no matter where we are!

 

[Myshelsong]

OMG LADIES I got my first positive OPK in over two years!
That's right it is bding time!

 

[flou]

Yay myshel for the positive opk! Get bding!

Hi Closure and I am so sorry for your losses. I to have been ttc for 3 years now and have had two losses. I can fully identify with how you felt after your losses. I hope you get your little one soon!

 

[Closure]

Thanks for the words of welcome! Great to read them now especially as I think I just started my period. (The sick side of my brain is trying to convince me that, as it's early and light, it could be spotting or something but the rational part of my head knows its another month of disappointment).

I really want it. And I felt like this could be the month as well as id been doing rely well with lifestyle changes and because it's hubby's birthday and he deserves this!! 😢

 

[flou]

closure. I hate it when the witch shows her face.

AF arrived for me last Sunday. I had my u/s scan today and all looks normal with my ovaries and uterus. So I guess we have just got to wait for our next FS appointment. It was really difficult having to wait in waiting room with all the pg ladies today. I just kept thinking I should be like that. Its hard to imagine if i hadn't had my second loss i would be about 7 months! At least everything looked normal and healthy.

 

[madtowngirl]

flou, it really sucks when we have to wait around with pregnant women. I hate when I go to my OB/GYN and out walks a woman who is about to pop. I want to be that woman so much.

 

[Swtpinkbabi]

OMG LADIES I got my first positive OPK in over two years!
That's right it is bding time!

Congrats, baby dust to you

 

[Swtpinkbabi]

Hi,

I just joined.

I've been TTC for 3 years and 2 months.

I got my first BFP the week I got married. We were shocked as that was our first try but we were happy. I miscarried on honeymoon.

In the months that followed my normally regular cycle was thrown out of synch and this led to a diagnosis of Polycystic Ovaries.

I didn't take the Metformin I was prescribed for too long as hubby felt I was creating a issue in my head that didn't exist.

I got my next BFP 18 months after the first. I had implantation spotting and I had a lot of stretching sensations. I was over the moon to be pregnant but so worried it wouldn't last that I tested all. The. Time. And I also I had my first panic attack ever. One day whilst testing I got a reduced week result. I miscarried a few days later.

I don't know how I survived.

The year from that miscarriage was the worst. I think I was genuinely depressed. I'd cry most days in my car. I found it hard inwardly to deal with my good friend giving birth two months after my miscarriage but I kept this inside. When my two best friends got pregnant at the same time I shut down. I've broken those two friendships now. I want nothing to do with either of them really. Some of it's not baby related but if I'd not had to contend with the baby issue I might have held out for longer/forever.

So, in January this year I decided to turn my life around! 14 is my lucky number and I just couldn't have a year as destroying as 13 again!!!

I started a health kick (2 stone 2lb down) by cutting out caffeine and carbs mainly.

I also sought medical help for the first time (I'm on my second cycle of chlomid after test revealed I've stopped ovulating now) which meant overcoming my fear of needles. (Not overcoming - just having needles & embracing my meltdown really! Lol).

I have also started taking conception vitamins and inositol powder.

It's hubby's birthday this week and I am praying for a BFP that turns into a third time lucky!! I hope I've done enough to deserve it!! 😕

This year we also began looking into adoption. I want to proceed with that as soon as possible really. If the chlomid hasn't made me ovulate (or if we have to go through another miscarriage) we'll be giving up on a birth child and adopting a sibling group who need a loving family.

I will find out on the 19th if the chlomid has made me ovulate. I will be pregnancy testing on Wednesday morning this week with every fibre in my body willing the outcome to be what we want more than anything right now!

I look forward to being part of your community! I'm no longer shut away from the world - I'm ready to get help, change my life and embrace others! Thanks for having me! xxxx

Hi Closure, your story reminds me of myself. I got to the point where I had to stop going to church because I would be bawling about a baby two rows away... I finally got myself together starting in January, changed my eating, started taking my Metformin again and lost about 30lbs. This got my blood sugar down, so my doc decided to try Femara. I joined this site and feel so much better having people who share our struggle to talk to. I hope you get BFP soon.

 

[Myshelsong]

Sorry about af ladies that is not fun at all.

Stress of the final move made us totally miss the O. Oh well we got it in three days before so we will see. Excited about finally being in ontario though.

 

[Swtpinkbabi]

Sorry about af ladies that is not fun at all.

Stress of the final move made us totally miss the O. Oh well we got it in three days before so we will see. Excited about finally being in ontario though.

Fingers crossed for you, congrats on finally getting moved.

 

[Closure]

About the pregnant people at the ultrasound......when I went in for scan to look at my ovaries a woman came out of another scanning room and was angry she was having another boy!? She was livid!?? I really wanted, as the only person alone (unprepared & naive) and not preggers, to wave at her and say "ER hello. You're an ungrateful cow".

 

[flou]

Sorry about af ladies that is not fun at all.

Stress of the final move made us totally miss the O. Oh well we got it in three days before so we will see. Excited about finally being in ontario though.

three days could be enough fxd! I hope you are settling in well to your new home. I hope the new start will include a baby for you.

 

[Closure]

So I went to get my blood test results today. And it worked! In so far as I did ovulate last month (I wasn't ovulating in February before chlomid prescribed apparently)! Still not preggers yet tho! The doctor said that basically I'm ovulating so I CAN get pregnant. It's just a game of chance now so keep taking the chlomid and get to it!!! Fingers crossed!!!!

 

[flou]

Fxd for you closure. I hope its your time soon!

 

[Myshelsong]

Hope this works for you closure, congrats on ovulating


Had a great long weekend with my family this weekend even saw my new cousins baby. He is so adorable I coukdnt be sad. She had a hard time getting pregnant and was in a few medications before the egg took so soooo happy for her and the little guy.

 

[flou]

That's great news about your cousin and her little one. It gives us all hope that we will get what we want.

AFM I think I'm now in the tww a little earlier than expected. Going to get a couple more days of bding just in case. Hoping to catch the egg! Hows everyone else?

 

[Myshelsong]

Finally made a house offer hopefully we will be able to be in the new house in the next two months. Living at my parents it's kind of difficult but it is nice to finally be back home and close to family.

Af due in a few days, hoping she stays away but pretty sure it is on the way as we only had one day before the positive OPK.

 

[Myshelsong]

Yup.... She has arrived.