March/April BFP's who's going for it!! NEW LADIES COME JOIN IN!!

[mowat]

Hi everybody! Nice to see a few posts today.

I've been feeling really positive this cycle, but then yesterday I started feeling really sick. Still felt bad today---sort of like the flu. For some reason I checked my calendar and realized for the past few months around this time (cd18, 5dpo) I've felt horrible. So I guess my feeling bad isn't really a positive symptom. Oh well, I guess you never know.
Trying to stay positive.

 

[ESwemba84]

I'm still here. TTC and my hormones being out of balance have had me stressed out, so I took a break from BandB. I used the cheapo opks this cycle, and it did turn positive for about 3 days, and my temps went up 2 days ago, so hopefully I ovulated this cycle. I guess we shall see what happens. FF says 3 DPO, so I guess I'm in the 2 week wait.

 

[nevergivingup]

Hi ladies!!!

YAYYY some action is on the board!! A quick pop in bc DH is fussing that I need to be studyn arrgh

Lpjkp: What an adorably handsome cute fellow you have!!! And how lucky you are to have gotten a 4D, my DH gave me the be patient lecture...booo. So I'll have to wait to D-day to see him. So I'm sure you and DH went bk and forth ab who Baby Jenson looks like.... And I know exactly how you feel ab the getting to 24 wks and never could've imagined it. I'm the same way til this day, everyday I am so grateful bc of what we went through. CONGRATS LPJKP on your bundle of joy!

Bamagurl: Hello ma'am!! Ooohhh you're getting a 4D too?!! Ooo I hope you share your little princess with us too! I totally understand your busy schedule!

Garfie: O how I just you, your great personality and uplifting spirit brings warmth to my heart that life still does go on after you hit a wall. Garfie my Fingers are always and have always been crossed for you!! How your son doing?

Sweetz: Yayyyy Sweetz is bk!!! Def missed you ma'am!!! Sorry to hear ab the weight loss but I have everything crossed that he's ok in there he just wants to come a bit early if he decides to. I hope you're taking it easy and not putting to much strain on yourself. Hope your appt. goes well that's coming up and hope you feel better soon.

Mowat: hey don't feel bad, those bad feelings may be a beginning to something great...FX for you that good news will be coming soon!

Starry night: I think not knowing where you are really should help you relax so you don't have to much pressure on specific dates. The great thing ab that is you could possibly be pregnant any day and not know it bc of you not knowing the exact dates, or rather that's how I try to pull the positive out of it.

Babydoodle: sorry to hear an your loss. But yayyyy for TTC again, starting fresh!! I love that positivity, we def need more of that on here!! I'm sure you will get that BFP with that awesome attitude you have!!! GOOD LUCK AND BABY DUST Thrown your way!!

Pinkcasi: Hope you find happiness soon. We've all been where you're at.

Hi to HisGrace, I miss you!!

BayBeeEm: I'm going to inbox you soon, I haven't forgotten ab cha!!

Stork: Hope you're relaxing, bc we're def missing ya!

Lisalee; I'm going to inbox you soon as well!

Mackjess: Where have you ran off too?? Hope to hear from you soon

Hi to all the ladies that's MIA I know life is busy for a lot of us.

AFM: Im officially 33 wks today! Wohoo!! We have 7 more weeks until his arrival, it just seems so surreal and yet I'm soooo grateful bc God has blessed me and DH again. Have a Great Day ladies!!!

 

[Starry Night]

Woke up and my preggo signs have vanished. I kinda expected them to but it's still disappointing as they built to the point where I felt convinced. I was really hoping it would be my turn to catch straight away. All my friends talk about how they catch instantly or even while using prevention, how they didn't want to be pregnant, etc. For once, I think a girl who is actually TTC should be able to catch first try.

I mean, I know I'm not out yet. It's possible I was getting really intense ov signs and now they stopped because I have ovulated and am now just in my tww. I remember that happened shortly after DS was born.

I am still going to test next Tuesday like I had originally planned. We'll see what happens.

 

[meggiemay93]

Hi ladies sorry been MIA. I've still been on here praying for all of you just not posting. I've been having a hard time because it's been a year now and haven't gotten pregnant. So I've been thinking that since i got pregnant in the first month of trying then miscarried and now its been a year that I just won't be able to get pregnant again. So I did so google searches and found some success stories after a year of trying and I'm ready to get back to trying again.

Once AF comes I'm going to start consistently temping and I just started doing pilates today. I'm not overweight, but there are studies that show women who do about 5 hours of moderate exercise a week have a little bit better of a chance to get pregnant. But vigorous exercise can give you a little less of a chance of getting pregnant. I know nothing happens by chance and it's all in God's control but every little bit helps right?

 

[Pinkcasi]

AF came this morning Im really starting to feel really disheartened, I dont know how you managed to get to a year meggiemay, for me it's been 5 months and i just want to scream!
I've been going at it this month and nothing, my OH keeps saying dont stress about it and i just want to slap his face every time he does, I fell pregnant the 2nd month off the pill and i know i was really lucky but now people say Oh it happend once it'll happen again but what if it doesn't, what if that was my one chance, im 34 for gods sakes im not getting any younger, i know what my percentages are im not fooling myself, but my OH already has a child with someone else so he's alright, it's me there's something wrong with me, but the Dr's in UK wont do anything until we've been trying for year so i just have to wait it out.
I just want to cry.

 

[Carybear]

Hi Pink... I completely understand. I've been trying for over two years and the one BFP ended in a chemical. Seems like nothing changes...

Just keep believing and don't give up. I had a pity party last night and ended up going to bed at 6:30. Didn't help too much since I've now been awake since 1:30.

I guess we have two choices. We can either give up and feel miserable or let our hope be renewed and know that God has good plans for us.

I'm praying that this next month is your month! That you not only get a BFP but its a sticky bean too

 

[Pinkcasi]

Hi Pink... I completely understand. I've been trying for over two years and the one BFP ended in a chemical. Seems like nothing changes...

Just keep believing and don't give up. I had a pity party last night and ended up going to bed at 6:30. Didn't help too much since I've now been awake since 1:30.

I guess we have two choices. We can either give up and feel miserable or let our hope be renewed and know that God has good plans for us.

I'm praying that this next month is your month! That you not only get a BFP but its a sticky bean too

Thanks i know youre right and every month i say to my OH, well i dont want kids anyway, or lets just give up, blah blah but one om over the kick in the guts of AF coming again, i think ok lets get back on it, Im really mean to my OH as well because he has a son already he's 12 and he's a lovely lad but my OH doesn't get to see him much because of the job he has (hes a chef so does evenings and weekends) i say to my OH, 'well your ok aren't you you already have a son so if we cant have kids it doesn't matter to you'
I know it's cruel but i just get so upset, and he doesn't understand, you know that feeling you get when you find out your pregnant with your first child, it's like every birthday and xmas in that one moment you see that positive test, and knowing that i will never get that again, i will never be pregnant with my first baby again, the next time i get a + test (if ever) all i will feel is fear and anxiety, nobody seems to understand that.

 

[bamagurl]

That is completely understandable. I think we all have felt/feel that way. The innocence of first pregnancy joys is ripped away after a loss. For me it was I had a daughter then experienced a loss and this may sound witchy but I thought I already have a daughter that means nothing can go wrong...boy was I fooled! We lost our second baby at 12 weeks. Now no matter how many pregnancies there are afterwards the innocence and happiness of a bfp will be replaced with fear and worry. I am so sorry you are going through this and I pray & hope you both get your bfp soon!

 

[mackjess]

hi never, still lurking just posting a bit less. I was so low energy for most of December that I'm working longer hours to get caught up! luckily my boss has been very patient.

pink, you are so right about the innocence thing. I'd give anything to go back to being naive and enjoy this pregnancy. It'sworth all of the torture and stress. And it will happen for you. sorry they don't check for things till after a year of trying. I hope it doesn't take that long hun.

 

[MamaTex]

Garfie: You're not alone. We are with you here!!

mowhat: Hope you get to feeling better!So many people are coming down with the worst stomach blugs and colds this month!! Goodness

ESwemba84: Good luck!!

nevergivingup: 33 weeks!! Wow!! It has been wonderful to follow you on your baby journey. You are always so positive and encouraging. Now it is almost time to cross the finish line!!

Starry Night: You're not out until you're out. There is still hope!! I hope it will be your turn soon!!!

Sweetz33: Thinking of you and hoping for the best!!

meggiemay93: That wait is excruciating.It seems like you are always waiting on something. Waiting for a good time to DTD. Waiting to test. Waiting on your next appointment once you do get that BFP. GRRR!! I do agree that any little bit that you can do helps and exercising does your body good, whether or not you want to get pregnant. I can't wait for summer to come around so I can do something low impact like moving around in a pool. I admire any woman who goes all out doing stuff like pilates and gets in the gym. I am not that motivated, which is why I am overweight!!

Pinkcasi: Oh please don't cry!! I know how it is to try month after month. With my first pregnancy it took 6 months!! I thought that since everyone seemed to get pregnant at the drop of a hat, I should too!! Nope.....

It does get you down but just know that it will be your turn one day and when that day comes, please feel free to shout it from the roof tops. It just sucks that some women have to wait longer than others, when they want it so much more!!!! I was mad at my cousin for the longest time because she got pregnant without even trying and has gone on to have her second baby with no problems. To someone like her, having a baby is just something to accidentally do I guess...

And you won't ever be pregnant with your first baby and a subsequent pregnancy isn't as innocent as one where you have no idea about what to worry about, but I find that being pregnant after a loss gives you a deeper appreciation for life in general. It makes every bit of good news so much more special!!!

mackjess: Awesome that you have an understanding boss. Glad to see you!!

AFM: Yesterday I had to pick up cat crap. After the mauling of my one cat I have been keeping my other cat inside more. Well, it has been rainy and cold and the cat has not wanted to go outside to use the bathroom I guess so for the last few days it has been using the restroom inside. I found it yesterday morning. I started to clean but then got concerned I would expose myself to toxoplasmosis. I then phoned my OB and they told me to come in. I ended up not being able to get my blood drawn (too dehydrated) but discovered my blood pressure was too high so I am making changes to ensure it does not stay elevated!! The good thing about yesterday was I got to see the baby which seems to be doing fine. He or she was chilling on its back with a heart beat of 174!! So unreal!! I really did not think I would get this far. I know that is bad, but every appointment has been a shock for me. I am starting to find it hard to stay in my jeans. They get uncomfortable at times and I have to unbutton them. Unfortunately, I was fat before pregnancy and still look...fat lol. Oh well. I hope all of you ladies are doing ok.

To those TTC, hang in there. I haven't forgotten about you ladies and wish every day that you join the ranks of the with-child sooner than later!! To the pregnant ladies hope everything is progressing. They seem to be

 

[runnergrl]

That is completely understandable. I think we all have felt/feel that way. The innocence of first pregnancy joys is ripped away after a loss. For me it was I had a daughter then experienced a loss and this may sound witchy but I thought I already have a daughter that means nothing can go wrong...boy was I fooled! We lost our second baby at 12 weeks. Now no matter how many pregnancies there are afterwards the innocence and happiness of a bfp will be replaced with fear and worry. I am so sorry you are going through this and I pray & hope you both get your bfp soon!

Wow, our stories are so similar! I have a son, and suffered my loss after him at 12 weeks as well. I too, foolishly thought that nothing could go wrong. I have already had a baby, fell pregnant first month trying for the second, I was 31, and in good health. Even after my OB couldnt find the HB at 6 weeks and my progesterone came back super low and I was put on suppliments, I STILL thought nothing was wrong. Seeing the heartbeat at 8 weeks was probably the worst thing for me because that was my "reassurance." Making my loss at 12 weeks leaving me shocked and dumbfounded, not to mention devastated.

I completely understand everyone's pregnancy after a loss whether its your first or 5th being jaded. It is hard to get excited when you have lost a child. The worry and fear and just anxiety associated with it is almost too much to bear. I am so very happy I am pregnant and that everything looks good so far, but I am still so worried that something may go wrong. And I am not OK with just having my son. I am SO HAPPY I have him, please dont take that the wrong way, but I want another child. I wanted the baby I lost and I want this baby I am carrying now. So much that it hurts sometimes.

sorry for going off on that tangent. Felt good to get that off my chest though

 

[mowat]

I know what you guys mean about losing that innocence. I had a very easy time getting pregnant with my son (the first try) and when we decided we wanted to try for #2 I got pregnant the first try again. Unfortunately that ended in miscarriage. We haven't been trying that long again, but every time my AF arrives I can't help but wonder what's wrong. I know I shouldn't expect to get pregnant immediately, but I have before so it's very disheartening. Every time I see a pregnant person I can't help but think they don't know how lucky they are.

I'm still in the 2ww this month. Had horrible headache and sore stomach around 5-6dpo. Finally has gone away. Was starting to think I was out this month, but when I cried at work this morning I started getting hope back! Let me explain... I work at a hospital and I was putting away ER sheets from yesterday. We have sexual assault cases everyday, and I've gotten used to seeing that, but this was a young child. I just saw the diagnosis, the age, and I lost it. My coworker saw me and asked what was wrong. I just said "you don't want to know, don't look at the sheet". Hormones I guess.

 

[ESwemba84]

Runner, I was 12 weeks when I had my MC after seeing the HB at 8 weeks. Being my first pregnancy I thought once you see the HB everything will go perfectly from there. I thought maybe I did something wrong to make the HB stop.

Pink, it's been 8 months and I still haven't gotten pregnant yet. My hormones are still imbalanced, and I get angry every time AF comes, and then I turn it into I'm never going to get pregnant. Which I know is probably not the case, but it just feels like it'll never happen.

AFM, 5 DPO today. Nothing new, except I'm taking my temp at the same time everyday, which is giving me more stable temps. I think I can actually see my low progesterone, as my temp only rises about .5-.6 degrees. Or, I could be totally wrong and that temp raise is perfectly normal. Ugh, I just don't know. When TTC the spectrum of "normal" is so wide. Anyway, got my fingers crossed for this cycle.

 

[Pinkcasi]

It's just not fair god damn! it sucks it all sucks, everything work, life, babies it sucks! I just feel like im doing something wrong and i dont know what it is, I cant manage to do what millions of teenagers do by accident every day, I cant do for my partner what his ex managed to do accidently while on the pill! what does that say about me?!
Im ranting and im sorry but im so emotional at the moment, cant stop bursting into tears, I feel like it's getting worse not better with every passing day my mental state is unraveling, i held it together after the miscarriage but i honestly feel lim losing my mind.

I try to be positive each month, 'this'll be the month' and every month AF comes and it's like being kicked in the stomach, why do we do it to ourselves, im so angry, and upset i just want to throw something!

 

[MamaTex]

It's just not fair god damn! it sucks it all sucks, everything work, life, babies it sucks! I just feel like im doing something wrong and i dont know what it is, I cant manage to do what millions of teenagers do by accident every day, I cant do for my partner what his ex managed to do accidently while on the pill! what does that say about me?!
Im ranting and im sorry but im so emotional at the moment, cant stop bursting into tears, I feel like it's getting worse not better with every passing day my mental state is unraveling, i held it together after the miscarriage but i honestly feel lim losing my mind.

I try to be positive each month, 'this'll be the month' and every month AF comes and it's like being kicked in the stomach, why do we do it to ourselves, im so angry, and upset i just want to throw something!

Don't be sorry. The worst thing you can do is compare yourself to other women. It is messed up how easily the least responsible people get pregnant without difficulty and women who imo are so much more deserving have to experience complications. I am not of the belief that one should remain positive at all times. That is not realistic and can be counterproductive. Your emotions are valid, even if they do consist of anger. The thing to do is to direct that anger towards something productive. Turn it into a brisk jog. Turn it into motivation to get something done at work. Turn it into a pampering session. You won't always be successful and sometimes you will get very down, but making an effort can make all the difference. It''s just not good to get consumed by anger. Ask me how I know

I still get mad and upset when I see other pregnant women in public. I don't know their histories but when I see them trotting around 3+ kids I just seethe!! I wonder how it is that they can pop out 3 or more and I am hanging on to the hope that I can keep one!! Why, when pregnant, would I feel this way? Haven't I arrived at where I want to be? My answer is no!! I am further along but I am not where I want to be. I want that baby in my arms and I am so scared, like runner, that even though things are going ok now, I won't make it past 12 weeks or I will get so far only to lose that baby.

Sorry for writing so much. I just really relate to how you feel. I know I sound so incredibly silly being pregnant and saying what I am saying, but please believe me when I say I have been where you are mentally and am actually still there!! People want me to be more excited and happy than I am. I feel glimmers of excitement, but I won't allow myself to feel it full force. Defense mechanism I guess...

 

[runnergrl]

I just really relate to how you feel. I know I sound so incredibly silly being pregnant and saying what I am saying, but please believe me when I say I have been where you are mentally and am actually still there!! People want me to be more excited and happy than I am. I feel glimmers of excitement, but I won't allow myself to feel it full force. Defense mechanism I guess...

EXACTLY!!!!

 

[Sweetz33]

Sooooo.....wellll.....ummmm...... on my way to celebration hospital to get medication to stop labor.... that's right folks, I'm already dialating. 33 weeks on Saturday....*sigh* they will be doing an ultrasound and checking EVERYTHING and doing all they can to stop labor for at least 2 more weeks.

 

[bamagurl]

Aww sweetz! Sending prayers & hugs your way! Baby Zander just wants to meet his mommy on his own time! Let us know how the ultrasound and everything goes! Did they say how much you were dilated?

 

[Sweetz33]

Only 1cm but since 2nd baby came at 34 weeks they aren't risking anything