March/April BFP's who's going for it!! NEW LADIES COME JOIN IN!!

[bamagurl]

Sweetz sending prayers your way for the new home loan & a healthy baby Xander! I can't believe he will be here so soon!!! Yay

 

[Pinkcasi]

Yay sweetz hoping for a healthy happy xander for you. and good luck with the house, it's all coming together girl!

as for me i was over at my sisters and we were talking and i mentioned that i should be 4 weeks off giving birth and she says 'are you not over that yet' im like oh gee thanks sis, am i just supposed to forget my child?! she has a daughter and i said 'remember how you felt when you found out your were pregnant then imagine when your 12 weeks that you lost her and tell me you would be over that in a few months' her response 'well i didn't know i was pregnant until way past 12 weeks', like that makes a difference.
apparently im just supposed to be totally over it now, move on and be 'normal'
Is she right? shouldi stop dwelling on this? should i forget about it and concentrate on other stuff? i just don't know anymore.

 

[bamagurl]

No I think you are completely entitled to still be thinking about it. I would have an 11 week old baby or older if he/she had been born early. It is completely normal to think about how old baby would be and what you would be doing right now with baby. I think it is just super hard for people who have never experienced a loss to understand fully what it is like to have lost a baby.

 

[Pinkcasi]

It just feels like that's what everyone thinks, everyone thinks 'well it wasn't really a baby so just get over it', maybe I should just try and forget it.
I thought that I was doing really well and that it's just because my due date is approaching but now I really don't know. See this is why I don't spend time with my sister she makes me doubt everything about everything, it confuses me!!!

 

[mackjess]

Pink - I only knew for 36 hours that I was pregnant, confirmed at the docs, before my m/c started. You don't get over it, not even when you get pregnant again. But that's OK. I loved my little bean and like to remember. It's probably hard for others that haven't been thru it to understand.

 

[Pinkcasi]

Really, not even when you get pregnant again? That's the only thing that keeps me going, I keep thinking that's the only thing that will make it ok if I get pregnant again.
I was ok with grieving but my sister saying that and how people act just makes me think that I must be the wrong one, thanks guys for validating my grief.

 

[mackjess]

Trust me, I'm over the moon that I'm pg again and it has definitely healed me. I still miss the first angel though, especially at appts. I can't help think how far along that pregnancy would be, what the gender would have been, etc.

 

[Sweetz33]

Mack I do the same. I think "wow...my angel would of been turning 8 months....but instead I am 8 months pregnant" It is a very strange thing to explain to people that have never been through it.

 

[Starry Night]

I definitely haven't forgotten my first angel even though I could not have had DS if I had kept her. This past December marked her 2nd birthday. I also think about his lost twin as DS is a visual reminder of how big he should be. You don't ever forget but the pain does get less and rainbows bring comfort. I feel like my next rainbow will help give me peace about my lost Sweet Pea (my latest angel). You never "get over it". I hate when people say that. grrr......

 

[meggiemay93]

Pink Your sis really does not understand. It's been a year since I lost my little one and it is still tough sometimes. You'll have your good days and your bad days. Someone who has never gone through what we have just won't understand, so don't worry about what other people say. It is normal to still be grieving.

 

[Pinkcasi]

Thanks guys that really does help, I just worried that i was holding onto it because i like being miserable or something, I think that's what people like my sister think sometimes.
Also last night my OH and i had a talk, i had suggested that everyone including him had just forgotten about it, he said that it's not forgotten and that he thinks about our baby every day and it upsets him but he doesn't like talking about it as he doesn't want to upset me, i said that im upset anyway so we may as well talk about it, I said that it feel like i have no one to talk to about it and that's why i have to talk to people on the internet rather than talking to the one person who went through it with me. Ithink it helped, we had a hug and i had a bit of a cry.
I feel better knowing that he's upset too, is that wrong? i was starting to resent him when i thought that he just didn't care, but now i know he's just trying to protect me i feel a bit guilty, Im constantly reminding him.

 

[meggiemay93]

I know how you feel about thinking your DH had forgotten, when he was just trying to protect you. My DH was the same way I think most guys are. They just don't handle things the same way women do. It's good that you two are starting to communicate more about this. It does take a little of the stress away.

 

[Pinkcasi]

I know how you feel about thinking your DH had forgotten, when he was just trying to protect you. My DH was the same way I think most guys are. They just don't handle things the same way women do. It's good that you two are starting to communicate more about this. It does take a little of the stress away.

It really does and i feel really good today, i think i had convinced myself that no one cared not even him and that i was in it all alone with no one to turn to so now i feel like we're in it together a bit more.
And i feel good because my favorite are coming back to the UK after 4 years and my OH says he will take me for my valentines gift (even though it's in April) im super excited but now trying to decide whether to do the Meet and greet with the band (OMG) & early entrance for £160 EACH, the early entrance so you get to hear the soundcheck for £99 each or the normal 'in with the commoners' for £41 each, he says he'll put £150 towards whichever one I want, (he got an unexpected £500 from his last employer, we weren't expecting it it's a bonus, dont get the wrong idea we're far from well off)
but now im thinking can i seriously justify spending all that money on one night out? but how good would it be?!?!?!?

I know this has nothing to do with babies or conceiving but im so torn!

 

[MamaTex]

Really, not even when you get pregnant again? That's the only thing that keeps me going, I keep thinking that's the only thing that will make it ok if I get pregnant again.
I was ok with grieving but my sister saying that and how people act just makes me think that I must be the wrong one, thanks guys for validating my grief.

Being pregnant again has helped me feel better, but I can't bring myself to bury my lost little one in my memory. I too think about how far along I would be and what I would be doing. My husband will listen when I talk to him about the miscarriage and the lost child, but he doesn't speak about it himself. He has told me he sees no point in living in the past. It really upset me to hear that. Other folks want me to be happier and excited than I am. They don't understand why I continue to dwell on the baby I lost, but they have not been through what we have been through and so I just chalk it up to them not understanding.

 

[nevergivingup]

Pinkcasi, you lucky girl you! How awesome is that to meet your fav band. I wouldn't be able to resist a meet & greet with my fav band but a sound check would do great too...decisions, decisions!!!

My DH falls in the boat of trying to be protective of my feelings. He said I need a shoulder to lean on so he can't be the one crying and having his emotions everywhere but he was sad ab it and wish it could've gone another way but it didn't so we just got to keep praying for our miracle baby....and that's what we did and 2 months later he blessed us yet again.

IBN (In baby news ) DH put the crib up this morning and its in his room. It's all white we're going to paint it brown though bc it was given to us by my Sister N Law. Hopefully I'll buy his dresser next week and his changing table. O went to doc yesterday HB is 151, I audio records it everytime I go and since my DH dosent go with me anymore to the doc bc he works I'll send it to him so he can listen to his son Heart Beating even while miles away.

 

[Sweetz33]

Hey ladies hope all is well!!

I was brought to L&D last night bc procardia was not stopping contractions. They said I was not having BH but the real deal. They put me on an IV and gave me terbutaline and vistaril. I am back home and have an appt with my OB on Monday. They are trying all they can to keep Xander in for 2 more weeks. Today I am so out of it. Still have pressure, but contractions have eased. Xander is healthy and has a good heartbeat. Me, I am just worn lol

 

[runnergrl]

Just wanted to share these pics of my rainbow baby with you all

https://i957.photobucket.com/albums/ae57/RUNNERGRL1/DB12D237-1AB9-4725-AB4F-8CE0AAFBE0FC-989-00000107FDD5293D.jpg

https://i957.photobucket.com/albums/ae57/RUNNERGRL1/0CD84F29-4EF6-46AF-B532-5E962099C648-989-000001080B04575E.jpg

It was such a relief to see baby up there wiggling all over after I couldn't find the heartbeat last night. And it was really difficult filling out paperwork that included information about my miscarriage. I was asked three times which number pregnancy this was and how many 'living' children I had. I know it's just their job to ask, but that seems so harsh and insensitive. It really made me miss my Ella..

 

[Starry Night]

Hang on, Xander!! It's almost time but you have to stay put just a leetle bit longer. Let your mommy get lots of rest before you arrive! We're all excited to meet you in TWO weeks.

never - ooh, have fun setting up your nursery! That is such an exciting part of preparing for the baby. It makes it seem so real.

pink - I'm so glad you have that talk with your DH. It really is so important to know that they're on our side.

AFM - I've decided to wait until next Thursday or Friday to take another test. Not really feeling pregnant after all those false signs around ovulation so am afraid I'm out. I know I'm not but it feels that way. Anyways, am in limbo as the hpt is more definitive than any signs or lack thereof.

 

[Starry Night]

Runner - great u/s! So great that little one is OK. And I know what you mean about answering the "number of pregnancies" and "living children" question. Once I do conceive my rainbow it will be my 4th pregnancy but so far I only have 1 living child to go with it. With all the spotting I had with my last pregnancy I kept getting sad looks from the nurses when I had to say "1 living child" after saying "3 pregnancies".

 

[Sweetz33]

Love the u/s!