I'm so sorry for your loss...your post made me cry as I know (as I'm sure lots of ladies here do also) what you are going through.
I mcd at 8 weeks not so long ago and it was such a rollercoaster from excitement of finding out your pregnant to the worry when something is going wrong then to the sadness and grief when you realise youve said good bye.
I dont think you ever fully recover emotionally to be honest it will be a part of your lifes story forever. I know I will always remember my first pregnancy for the good times and the bad.
I hope you can find the strength to recover and Im sure soon enough you will be celebrating a BFP again!