More Disappointment

[JViti]

So, after getting my hopes up for this month, 2 clomid cycles, HCG, weekly blood work and ultrasounds, AF has reared her ugly head 2 days late!! I got soooo excited when she didnt show up the other day, I thought this was finally the month, but of course, the witch came. so now its been 19 TTC cycles...5 more until we call it quits....im really getting scared...I just started a new job and I cant take any time off yet for an IVF cycle, or to go to my weekly blood work and ultrasound appointments, so im gunna be naughty, and do the clomid myself this month. I mean, its always the same...day 3-7 and OPKs starting at day 10. I still have HCG at home, but idk if i want to do that without MD approval just in case IFYWIM. So, shooting for an April BFP for a January baby!!