Today the MW came to see me, I guess it was a booking in appointment as such (but they do the majority of booking in the same day as the 1st scan) She was lovely (although she wouldnt enter the house unless Jazz was in the yard!) I spoke to her about my fears of another labour like Charlies, and said that I still get emotional as I cant remember alot of the birth, and that I blame myself for Charlie having such a difficult time, maybe if I hadnt had an epidural the cord wouldnt have wrapped so tightly around her neck and all the other daft theories I have developed over the last 18 months https://www.serendipityforum.co.uk/images/smiles/icon_rolleyes.gif Her solution straight away was a de-brief. Im really pleased. She is arranging for me to go through my notes with a consultant (I think) and to discuss all what happened, what didnt happen and why it happened. I think this will help me move on and be more positive about this labour. I think it is something I need to do. Any way my 1st scan is on the 3rd of September and I cant wait! Im still feeling really rough, and so tired I cant keep my eyes open, But Im sure It cant last forever?????? Surely??????