My confession

[Faerie]

I am really really starting to resent TTCing. I'm fed-up of planning my whole life around it, I haven't visited my sister in Australia in 2 years because I was pregnant, or hoping to get pregnant. In fact everything in my life the last two years has been based around being or getting pregnant.
So I've gone bad, I'm drinking even though I'm in the 2ww and I'm flying to Canada even though my consultant said I can't fly longer than 1.5 hours whilst pregnant. I just don't care anymore. I still really want that baby but I feel like I've given all the emotions I can. I was told that once they removed my fallopian tube that would stop me miscarrying, but I've not fallen pregnant again yet to prove that theory - so unfair, before I could fall pregnant at the drop of the hat but they'd die because of the poison in my tube, and now no BFP for me. Ok it's only been 4 months so I should be rational. But I'm not.

Slight rant, slightly beer induced. I'm going to put some really loud music on and dance with my cat.

 

[yaya]

Oh hun, sending you lots of

Maybe it's a good thing to stop planning everything around ttc and just live in the moment for a while.

Dancing to loud music with yr cat sounds good to me!!

We have to live as well hun -- everything cannot be about ttc!



Yaya xx

 

[wannabmum]

I know how difficults this can b just wanted to let u know I'm hear for you.


xxxx

 

[Faerie]

Thanks girls. I guess it's got harder since we got married in March. Before no one except my parents and sisters knew we were TTC, but since we've got married it's suddenly everyone's right to ask. Grrrrrrrrr. Back off people.

 

[csmummu]

Im sorry its been so hard for you ... The girls are right you cant live your life around TTC.

Go visit your sister Why not xxx

 

[chefamy1122]

I think a nice visit with your sister would do some good. The stress of having a hard time TTC can really wear a person down, as many of us know firsthand!

 

[akcher]

Sounds like you are needing lots of It's so frustrating when it feels like nothing is happening.

 

[Millnsy]

Oh you poor thing! I know how you feel and I think you are right to get on with other things. I have been stuck in a job I don't like for at least the last year because I was waiting for the maternity package. I just thought stuff it a couple of months ago and I am starting a new job in September. Knowing our luck we will get the BFP straight away and my new employers will hate me but I don't care about that! Have a beer for me!

 

[Faerie]

Oh you poor thing! I know how you feel and I think you are right to get on with other things. I have been stuck in a job I don't like for at least the last year because I was waiting for the maternity package. I just thought stuff it a couple of months ago and I am starting a new job in September. Knowing our luck we will get the BFP straight away and my new employers will hate me but I don't care about that! Have a beer for me!

Yeah, I've quit my well paid job and I'm heading to the UK where I'll be paid half if I'm lucky, plus starting an evening course... I'm hoping that I'm cursing myself enough to get a BFP!!!

 

[tansey]

I'm defo up for temping fate hun - i'm going plan my wedding including a very fitted dress!

lol dancing with the cat (i'm going get one if no bfp this month!!!!)

 

[bonfloss]

Its perfectly normal to feel how you do. I have been the same for the last year, this time next year I might be preggers etc etc. The girls at work even had a bet on with me and another girl which I thought was funny, she now has a gorgeous 3 month old baby boy and I am not laughing now.

Try to keep your chin up.
xxx

 

[Faerie]

Its perfectly normal to feel how you do. I have been the same for the last year, this time next year I might be preggers etc etc. The girls at work even had a bet on with me and another girl which I thought was funny, she now has a gorgeous 3 month old baby boy and I am not laughing now.

Try to keep your chin up.
xxx

Aww, that sucks

It's funny, even though I'd been told from the age of 18 that I might not be able to have children I guess it just never really sunk in. When I had the first early mc I just thought "see, I can get pregnant" and it wasn't until the ectopic last September (after 4 confirmed and 1 suspected mc) that I started to realise it was going to be hard.