My IVF (ICSI) diary #2

[pixielou]

Hi FJL and hope all goes well!

 

[FJL]

Hey girls...well its only 4 days till my BETA now and i'm getting very nervous!

Symptoms have been all over the place, I know with being on crinone I can't read into any of them but its so hard!!! (.)(.) aren't that sore anymore though I did experience a single shooting pain this morning in right (.) woke up this morning with distinct AF cramps and wetness (sorry, sorry, TMI I know!!!) down south which is what always happens before visits me. Went to the loo and thankgod, no AF.

I shouldn't get AF anyway until I go off crinone but AF can still come before then.

I am trying to hold off POAS as much as I can, it is so hard!!! Tuesday which is my BT will be 16dpo (well, 16 days since egg collection) but i'm *thinking* that Sunday being 14dpo should show up a positve results if it is a BFP right?

Constant butterflies in my tummy thats for sure!

Thanks for all your well wishes girls

 

[miel]

you are so close now

 

[FJL]

I think AF is on her way https://forum.ivf.org.au/images/smiles/crybaby2.gif

I just went grocery shopping and intense AF pain hit my like a tonne of bricks. All day i've had a dull ache on my left side only so I started to get positive as thats what side Dr put embryo.

But...

I just got home and i've started spotting https://forum.ivf.org.au/images/smiles/crybaby2.gif

I predict AF will be in full force later tonight or early tomorrow.

 

[miel]

oh no i am so sorry so unfair

 

[MissAma]

Try and wait it out hon, you may have a late implanter on your hands. I had serious AF pains starting with 4dp3dt and onwards then they vanished, then I cramped again for two days when AF was due and it never came and so on. Fingers crossed that the pain was a good sign.

 

[FJL]

Well, i'm out, AF is definitely here. Just spoke to the nurse again and have to have BT tomorrow anyway. Then Dr is going to call me next week to schedule my op. F.uck I feel like shi.t I just went off my brain at poor DH because he's telling me not to be so negative, that the BT could come back positive...FFS, I know what its like to have a full flow period...after all this sh.it what the hell do I have to be positve about?

Oh, and i'm enjoying my 2nd glass of wine...

 

[Beckic]

Oh sweetheart I'm so so so so sorry.

I'm absolutely heartbroken for you.

you dont have to put a brave face on it and be positive for anyone - you are absolutely allowed to be sad and to grieve.

its so cruel to give you a bt anyway - do they want to effin rub it in?

bx x x x

 

[Sinead]

I don't know what to say honey, just want to send you the biggest hug.

 

[maz]

I'm so so sorry it hasn't worked this time.

 

[krissi]

Hun I am so sorry to hear your news, life is such a bitch sometimes xx

 

[hayz1981]

I'm so so sorry to hear it hasn't worked this time. Thinking of you hun.

 

[pixielou]

Soz, to hear this hun.

 

[MissAma]

I'm so very sorry hon.... The BT will help you move forward so it's a good idea.

Do you guys have frosties from this try?

 

[Helen_26]

I'm so sorry that it hasn't worked this time.

 

[waiting4u]

I am so sorry.

 

[strawberry199]

sending you a BIG hun..

 

[wannabmum]

I'm so sorry I have not bn on lately huni just had allot on, I'm really really sorry I know how u feel it hurts like hell and really nothing anyone can say just know we are here for you

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[akcher]

I am so sorry that this wasn't your cycle. I wish all the luck in the world for you next cycle. Extra , I hope you feel better soon.

 

[Mendy]

Oh, FJL....I'm so sorry!!!!