My little bean has grown wings

[KKSARAH]

I went for a scan last Thursday and saw little beans heart beating.

Went for another scan yesterday and little beans heart has stopped beating

I have to inform hospital today of my choice, I think for me I will have the D&C.
As I just cant face waiting to pass my little bean so close to christmas as I have 9 year old who is so excited about christmas and as av been bleeding for nearly 4 weeks, I just wont be able to cope with the waiting, as it could be a few weeks the doctor has told me, as I dont have any pain and it's only slight brown bleeding

Why is life so cruel, I know these's a reason for these things to happen to us, but thats no comfort

Thank You for reading, I do feel a little better for writing this.

I know one thing for sure we not going to give up, one day we will get to hold our baby made with pure LOVE

Sxx

 

[Waiting2bMommy]

Oh honey i'm so very sorry

 

[wishingonastar]

i'm so so sorry for your loss. your little bean will be missing you and waiting for you to join it someday
huge huge hug x x x

 

[misstrouble]

I am so so sorry that this has happened. Life is indeed cruel. Take care of yourself

 

[eclipse]

I'm so so sorry for your loss. I don't really know what to say.....you are right though, one day you WILL hold your baby made with pure love. I wish you the best. *hugs*

 

[celine]

im so sorry

 

[princess_t]

So sorry for your loss hun.

 

[Drazic<3]

Im so very sorry for your loss.
I wish i could take this hurt away, but as you say, you will have your baby. This will happen for you.

 

[srm0421]

I am so sorry for your loss. I am assuming it is classified as a missed MC and I had on in July of 2005 and tried to wait it out but after 2 weeks still only brown spotting, I was told the longer you wait the more you are at risk for an infection so I had the D&C, I do not know if you have ever had one before I never had and was scared but it was not bad at all. I will warn you that some people wake up from anastesia (sp?) and are very emotional. Since I had time before the D&C to sort out my feelings and this step was just a final closure step for me I was not emotional but did feel very empty. I do not recommend waiting because it is a pain of knowing your baby is there but not there and it was horrible every day, I could not even grieve because it was not over yet. Good luck with the D&C and I am glad you are optimistic about your future. 4 months later I got pregnant and gave birth to my son so while I was very nervous for 12 weeks into my healthy pregnancy all worked out fine without a hitch. so very sorry once again.

 

[impatient1]

I'm sorry for your loss hun. Wishing we could all do something to take away the hurt. Take care.

 

[Smiler]

So sorry for your loss I waited over 3 weeks for mine to happen naturally once we knew, and they were the hardest weeks of my life, knowing in your head that it was over, but your body still clinging on. I opted for ERPC in the end as I needed the closure of that stage and needed to start grieving. My thoughts are with you and your OH

 

[Chris77]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[cleckner04]

I am so sorry for your loss.

 

[morayo]

sorry for ur loss babes. dnt worry u will hold that love conceived baby very soon. chin up love!

 

[Misselle44]

((Hugs)) I am right there with you - almost the exact same thing happened to me (HB at 9 weeks, none at 13 weeks) and I too was worried about my 2 little girls not enjoying their Christmas. I feel for you.

In terms of your decision about the d&c, just something to consider: my doctor told me that the d&c resets the system faster so you can try again sooner in many cases. So, that is good. That really helped me feel good about my decision and I hope it helps you too.

We just have to hang on to hope.

 

[SJK]

I am so sorry , there are no words to help you at the minute but it will get better intime, if you ever need to talk just pm me xxx

 

[KKSARAH]

Thank You so much for all your messages, I had my D&C last Thursday and everything went fine, Still have alittle bleeding but no pain.

Me and OH are going to get a little wooden box to put the scan & a letter I wrote to little angel bean, and put them inside the box.
We have bought a angel for the christmas tree to remember little angel bean every christmas.(although it will always be in our thoughts)


Theses have been some of the most stressful few weeks of my life, there have been so many ups and downs.
I have shed a few tears with OH but we have to look forward now, and we will start trying again around 3 months time, this can only make our love stronger.

 

[tillymum]

so sorry for your loss

 

[JASMAK]

So sorry.