My Love

[LovelyLeonara]

The 'no longer pregnant' feeling is awful, but it does fade. Most of the time, I have come to terms with it now, 14 weeks later, although I do have moments where I think I feel a kick or find myself holding my stomach

Yes it's strange. Or even when it comes to food I find myself having that split second thought of oh i shouldn't drink or eat that as it might harm the baby! and baby adds on the tv

When i was in the ER in labor, there was a woman with her baby, and i can still hear the cries.......everytime i saw it, it broke my heart, it stilll does.

All my friends live in the UK. My ex lives in Australia and i am in America right now.......even after everything, after all he's said, i just want a hug from him...........so much

wow these up adn down moods, it feels neverending!!!!

 

[Hellylou]

I feel like that too. I still can't drink alcohol because of the meds I am on, but even when they finish, I don't think I can bring myself to do it yet. I quite liked avoiding a glass of wine because of the baby, and got used to not drinking. Now I'm not sure if I ever want to drink again.

I get those up and down feelings too, but every day I feel just a little stronger. I hope you do too.

 

[mdjoy]

So sorry to hear of your loss..

 

[LovelyLeonara]

Yes the alcohol consumption is a tricky one. I also spent so long without it and due to the meds afterwards, even longer! I know that they say drinking makes you forget but for me it only makes me think of things much more if anything!!!! and i just don't feel like it!

Has anyone else had any trouble sleeping since?? My sleeping around the 10th week completly changed, i wouldn't be able to sleep until about 3 or 4 in the morning and it has continued since then however i keep having nightmares now too

Which medication did they give you? did you also take a pill to expel any remaining i hate using htis word because it jsut feels to beliettle the poor soul but 'tissue'?? i think in effect its similar to teh abortion pill or perhaps it is the abortion pill

But your right, each day i feel that little bit stronger. The pain lessens butttt there is always something there which i don't think willl ever go away

I have lit a candle for her every sunday since she died. I am going to buy one that i can keep within my room so that i can do it once a week. I find it helps me