emmerypemmery
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I just wanted to offer some hope to anyone out there who is suffering at the moment. I was blessed with a wonderful little girl, she really is the most amazing little person, so full of energy and spirit. When I found out I was pregnant again last year, it didn't really cross my mind that it would be anything but another little girl! A little copy of what I already had and loved, but my horror came when we had a scan and we were told 'its a boy'
She may have well said 'congratulations its a crocodile' I could not have been more shocked or appalled! I was gutted a boy? A penis? What?
I slipped into a dark place, I became sad when I saw little sisters playing together because I knew my daughter would never have that, I got cross in clothes shops because I loved all the girls clothes and though all the boys things were horrid! I honestly believed that if I knew my baby was going to be a boy I would not have bothered and I would have had an only child. Hormones played a part I am sure, but I was very miserable for a long time.
And then we decided on a name. Vincent. And suddenly he became real to me, I was about 8 months and finally started to come round to the idea!
And when he was born, I looked at him and I saw his little face and I knew him! He was my husband and my daughter and me all rolled into one! And it was then that I realised, of course he was a boy! He was always going to be a boy, he was my son!
He is 8 months now and he has really fitted into the family like he truly belongs and I know see that we were not complete without him. He was always supposed to join us
I now have the most amazing girl and amazing boy in all the world and I couldn't love them more! So there is hope for the terrible disappointment and feelings you have at gender scan time, boy, girl or crocodile, whoever comes out is part of who you are and all the excitement is yet to come!
She may have well said 'congratulations its a crocodile' I could not have been more shocked or appalled! I was gutted a boy? A penis? What?
I slipped into a dark place, I became sad when I saw little sisters playing together because I knew my daughter would never have that, I got cross in clothes shops because I loved all the girls clothes and though all the boys things were horrid! I honestly believed that if I knew my baby was going to be a boy I would not have bothered and I would have had an only child. Hormones played a part I am sure, but I was very miserable for a long time.
And then we decided on a name. Vincent. And suddenly he became real to me, I was about 8 months and finally started to come round to the idea!
And when he was born, I looked at him and I saw his little face and I knew him! He was my husband and my daughter and me all rolled into one! And it was then that I realised, of course he was a boy! He was always going to be a boy, he was my son!
He is 8 months now and he has really fitted into the family like he truly belongs and I know see that we were not complete without him. He was always supposed to join us
I now have the most amazing girl and amazing boy in all the world and I couldn't love them more! So there is hope for the terrible disappointment and feelings you have at gender scan time, boy, girl or crocodile, whoever comes out is part of who you are and all the excitement is yet to come!