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I'm Chrissy, 19 and i'm here to explain my story...
In July 08 I met my ex fiance Jasper at a party my roomate was having. I had always had a thing for Asian guys and I had been instantly attracted to him. His personality was so funny and he seemed to be the life of the party. He was orginaly from IL and was in my area for business. In the 3 weeks he stayed i'd spent every day with him learning things about each other. We fell pretty fast My famly loved him as hes family seemed to like me as well...
4 months later we moved into my parents house after our apartment fell through. We where both working and I was planning to go to school. He had a stressful job so I thought when his attitude starting to change, He had a bit of a temper but I never thought he'd start to take it out on me. He started to be little me,his jealousy had set in long before but started to get worse each day. I was so blind to thinking he was the person I met the charming one not this mean someone.
2 months after moving in I found out I was pregnant we sort of knew before hand and when I told him he wanted an abortion-out of the question- so then when the doctor confirmed it he was oddly excited as I was the one crying. I was excited but worried, worried about our living situation and his mood swings. Then, I thought maybe this baby would change things.
Things where good for awhile and then after new years it started up again. I was put on bed rest because I had a bruise on my uterus and low progesterone but mostly I was to not lift because the bruise or do much of anything. But I was the one doing laundry, constantly cleaning up after him a grown adult! I would try to bring this up and he threatend to hit me. He started staying up playing video games, and then laving and staying over at his friends place. I thought to myself am I such a horrible person that he didnt even want to ,lay next to me the mother of his child? All I did was love him...
My Mother was convinced he was cheating and both my parents begged me to leave him but I couldn't bare the thought of my baby growing up without their father.
The spotting started Jan 07 2009 I called the OB on call and he told me just stay in bed the next 3 days and if it continues to come in. The next day it had gotten worse and I knew something was wrong I begged Jasper to go to the ER with me and my mom I finally got him to go with.
Soon as they put me in the room a student doctor walks and goes "so is the baby still in there" are you kidding? My mother was pissed and all I wanted to do was strangle him. Then I find out my OB never tested me for the RH factor so they drew my blood. Then came the u/s my mom had left to go to work and Jasper left to face this alone or should I say just me? He told me I ruined his night.
The U/s tech was taking an awlful long time to say anything so I asked "is everything okay?" and she told me she couldnt find a heartbeat.....
I was 14wks pregnant and had a missed miscarriage. They gave me the Rho-gam shot and told to follow up with my OB. I switched OB's to a nice and caring one. It finally hit me the night before my D&C Jasper left me home again to be with his friends while I grieved the loss of our child who was dead inside of me. how could I not have known my baby died 2 weeks before in me? Why me? Why my baby? They didnt deserve to die they never even had a chance to breathe the same air as me I was so excited to being a mother and it was ripped away. I cried the hole night knowing that in the morning it would all be gone as if I was never pregnant and they never where conceived
I wanted it to be a bad dream I wanted to wake up and still be pregnant and still feel hole and Jasper be caring and loving but I never woke up because this was reality. When I woke up after the D&C a Niurse was there and I started to cry I told her my baby was gone but she sweetly gave me a hug a told me that it was all okay and they would have a spiecal place in my heart and she kissed my forehead , I never got that nurses name but someday i'll have to thank her for her kind heart.
I named my baby Isabella Renee (renee after her God Mom my best friend Olivia) I released a balloon and a note out at my aunt and uncles for her.
Jasper promised to try again in six months if I was ready,He never lived up to that promise because he is a liar. I found out 2 weeks after losing bella he was cheating on me through out my pregnancy with a girl while living here and i'm sure he had with others too. I kicked him out after finding out and he lied to everyone making himself look better because he knew he did wrong. He told his parents I got an abortion and that he was moving in with buddies. No he was living under my familys home mooching off of us and lying.
He never owned his own house, it was his parents. The music he claimed to be his was that of Stephen Speaks. He never loved me or Isabella I was just a stepping stone along with my family. After all he put me through apart of me still loved him and felt sad for him because I knew he has problems. That girl and him hurt me pretty badly and I know she knew about me and she continued to stay...I feel bad for her.
It took me almost a year to get over him, even after I had met my wonderful sweet other half Andrew. But the difference between Andrew and Jasper is Andrew is caring, a heart of gold and paitent and has never lied to me about a single thing. He tells me i'm beautiful on a daily basis and holds me when I cry. He understood every emotion I went through and he still loves me without a doubt in his mind as I do him. I thank God everyday for him coming into my life because just when I had given up my Angel came in and held me up. God has played a huge role in this himself, He is the maker of all miricales. All that had happened did for a reason, God knew Isabella shouldn't grow up without her father because he knew what type of person Jasper is God needed her to help guide me through life. I will never regret not seeing her face or holding her because I will have that chance someday and she has taught me the greatest lesson in life and love.
I love her enough to let her go and I know shes here in my heart and that she always stay.
Andrew and I are so in love, and are plannin to get married next year and I couldn't be more happier. He is my soul mate and he has defiantly helped in putting that smile on my heart.I'm going to school for Nursing and he's in the Army. I guess i'm here for support and to mete ladies like me and ttc.
*Sorry this was soo long but it really helped writing it out*
Chrissy
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I'm Chrissy, 19 and i'm here to explain my story...
In July 08 I met my ex fiance Jasper at a party my roomate was having. I had always had a thing for Asian guys and I had been instantly attracted to him. His personality was so funny and he seemed to be the life of the party. He was orginaly from IL and was in my area for business. In the 3 weeks he stayed i'd spent every day with him learning things about each other. We fell pretty fast My famly loved him as hes family seemed to like me as well...
4 months later we moved into my parents house after our apartment fell through. We where both working and I was planning to go to school. He had a stressful job so I thought when his attitude starting to change, He had a bit of a temper but I never thought he'd start to take it out on me. He started to be little me,his jealousy had set in long before but started to get worse each day. I was so blind to thinking he was the person I met the charming one not this mean someone.
2 months after moving in I found out I was pregnant we sort of knew before hand and when I told him he wanted an abortion-out of the question- so then when the doctor confirmed it he was oddly excited as I was the one crying. I was excited but worried, worried about our living situation and his mood swings. Then, I thought maybe this baby would change things.
Things where good for awhile and then after new years it started up again. I was put on bed rest because I had a bruise on my uterus and low progesterone but mostly I was to not lift because the bruise or do much of anything. But I was the one doing laundry, constantly cleaning up after him a grown adult! I would try to bring this up and he threatend to hit me. He started staying up playing video games, and then laving and staying over at his friends place. I thought to myself am I such a horrible person that he didnt even want to ,lay next to me the mother of his child? All I did was love him...
My Mother was convinced he was cheating and both my parents begged me to leave him but I couldn't bare the thought of my baby growing up without their father.
The spotting started Jan 07 2009 I called the OB on call and he told me just stay in bed the next 3 days and if it continues to come in. The next day it had gotten worse and I knew something was wrong I begged Jasper to go to the ER with me and my mom I finally got him to go with.
Soon as they put me in the room a student doctor walks and goes "so is the baby still in there" are you kidding? My mother was pissed and all I wanted to do was strangle him. Then I find out my OB never tested me for the RH factor so they drew my blood. Then came the u/s my mom had left to go to work and Jasper left to face this alone or should I say just me? He told me I ruined his night.
The U/s tech was taking an awlful long time to say anything so I asked "is everything okay?" and she told me she couldnt find a heartbeat.....
I was 14wks pregnant and had a missed miscarriage. They gave me the Rho-gam shot and told to follow up with my OB. I switched OB's to a nice and caring one. It finally hit me the night before my D&C Jasper left me home again to be with his friends while I grieved the loss of our child who was dead inside of me. how could I not have known my baby died 2 weeks before in me? Why me? Why my baby? They didnt deserve to die they never even had a chance to breathe the same air as me I was so excited to being a mother and it was ripped away. I cried the hole night knowing that in the morning it would all be gone as if I was never pregnant and they never where conceived
I wanted it to be a bad dream I wanted to wake up and still be pregnant and still feel hole and Jasper be caring and loving but I never woke up because this was reality. When I woke up after the D&C a Niurse was there and I started to cry I told her my baby was gone but she sweetly gave me a hug a told me that it was all okay and they would have a spiecal place in my heart and she kissed my forehead , I never got that nurses name but someday i'll have to thank her for her kind heart.
I named my baby Isabella Renee (renee after her God Mom my best friend Olivia) I released a balloon and a note out at my aunt and uncles for her.
Jasper promised to try again in six months if I was ready,He never lived up to that promise because he is a liar. I found out 2 weeks after losing bella he was cheating on me through out my pregnancy with a girl while living here and i'm sure he had with others too. I kicked him out after finding out and he lied to everyone making himself look better because he knew he did wrong. He told his parents I got an abortion and that he was moving in with buddies. No he was living under my familys home mooching off of us and lying.
He never owned his own house, it was his parents. The music he claimed to be his was that of Stephen Speaks. He never loved me or Isabella I was just a stepping stone along with my family. After all he put me through apart of me still loved him and felt sad for him because I knew he has problems. That girl and him hurt me pretty badly and I know she knew about me and she continued to stay...I feel bad for her.
It took me almost a year to get over him, even after I had met my wonderful sweet other half Andrew. But the difference between Andrew and Jasper is Andrew is caring, a heart of gold and paitent and has never lied to me about a single thing. He tells me i'm beautiful on a daily basis and holds me when I cry. He understood every emotion I went through and he still loves me without a doubt in his mind as I do him. I thank God everyday for him coming into my life because just when I had given up my Angel came in and held me up. God has played a huge role in this himself, He is the maker of all miricales. All that had happened did for a reason, God knew Isabella shouldn't grow up without her father because he knew what type of person Jasper is God needed her to help guide me through life. I will never regret not seeing her face or holding her because I will have that chance someday and she has taught me the greatest lesson in life and love.
I love her enough to let her go and I know shes here in my heart and that she always stay.
Andrew and I are so in love, and are plannin to get married next year and I couldn't be more happier. He is my soul mate and he has defiantly helped in putting that smile on my heart.I'm going to school for Nursing and he's in the Army. I guess i'm here for support and to mete ladies like me and ttc.
*Sorry this was soo long but it really helped writing it out*
ChrissyFEEL FREE TO AdD ME AS A FRIEND ON HERE
but thanks for taking the time to read and reply.
