I feel so shit at the mo,
Money probs are getting me down, got a letter from the mortgage company today, they made a mistake with out monthly repayments so now we have to pay more each month. just want to sell the house and go bankrupt so solve it all.
I feel like i have nothing left for me in this town aswell now so moving is still very much in mind but not possible right now. when we sell the house we will sell to an invester and rent it off him/her.
I have been trying to arrange Coby;s first birthday party, most of our familys and friends live near London way, so we thought if we held his party at Jase's mums house in reading it would save everyone the money of having to travel up here so soon after xmas, plus his mums house is big enough to hold everyone. But my nan and dad have said they will not be coming coz they dont want to sit with jase's mum. I had to sit with my dads girlfriend who i HATE with a passion at my neices party, i didnt want to but i did it for my sister and neice, cant belive they wont do the same for me and Coby
PLus now the godparants have said they cant come either, so either im right to be upset coz none is making hte effort, or im expecting far to much of people. Im considering just cancling it and staying here for his birthday.
Plus, my baby urge has come back very strong, but there is no way we can try coz of our money sitation, plus im still bleeding.
And the bleeding is another thing getting me down, its been 50 + days now and im so drained, just want to over with.
Jase is working nights/evenings alot again lately and i really dont like sitting in on my own all the time.
meh, sorry, had a big whinge there, feeling very sorry for myself right now, should try to focas on the things i have got i guess, just hard right now, im really unhappy.
xx
Money probs are getting me down, got a letter from the mortgage company today, they made a mistake with out monthly repayments so now we have to pay more each month. just want to sell the house and go bankrupt so solve it all.
I feel like i have nothing left for me in this town aswell now so moving is still very much in mind but not possible right now. when we sell the house we will sell to an invester and rent it off him/her.
I have been trying to arrange Coby;s first birthday party, most of our familys and friends live near London way, so we thought if we held his party at Jase's mums house in reading it would save everyone the money of having to travel up here so soon after xmas, plus his mums house is big enough to hold everyone. But my nan and dad have said they will not be coming coz they dont want to sit with jase's mum. I had to sit with my dads girlfriend who i HATE with a passion at my neices party, i didnt want to but i did it for my sister and neice, cant belive they wont do the same for me and Coby

Plus, my baby urge has come back very strong, but there is no way we can try coz of our money sitation, plus im still bleeding.
And the bleeding is another thing getting me down, its been 50 + days now and im so drained, just want to over with.
Jase is working nights/evenings alot again lately and i really dont like sitting in on my own all the time.
meh, sorry, had a big whinge there, feeling very sorry for myself right now, should try to focas on the things i have got i guess, just hard right now, im really unhappy.
xx