Mummafrog
New FTM to baby girl
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Hiya lovelies,
I'm a very positive, calm person on the whole so don't get worried about me, but I've been having some really nasty thoughts about myself that I don't want to say out loud.
I'm very overweight but had a perfectly healthy pregnancy and home birth last time, I'm now pregnant again and even bigger this time but hopefully planning the same experience if all goes well.
But I've been so much sicker this time and the only things I've been able to eat are crap like cheese and bread and take outs and I was surviving on only drinking sprite for a while because water or vegetables made me instantly vomit. Thankfully the sickness is easing off and I'm going to cut out the fizz and slowly try to eat more and more veggies again. I eat very healthily normally and drink lots of water so it's made me feel like the worst mummy ever to be feeding the bean all this rubbish :'(
The other thing is last time I did lots of walking and light exercise and felt really proud of how well I was doing for the baby and this time every time I even try and tidy my living room I either start feeling sick or am sick and have to go back to bed!
I'm just sick of feeling fat, eating badly and lying in bed I feel so guilty and sure I'm going to get diabetes and not get my home birth and baby will be poorly and it's my fault etc etc..
I'm sorry I just needed to rant about my silly feelings, it made me cry to write it down. Love to you all xx
I'm a very positive, calm person on the whole so don't get worried about me, but I've been having some really nasty thoughts about myself that I don't want to say out loud.
I'm very overweight but had a perfectly healthy pregnancy and home birth last time, I'm now pregnant again and even bigger this time but hopefully planning the same experience if all goes well.
But I've been so much sicker this time and the only things I've been able to eat are crap like cheese and bread and take outs and I was surviving on only drinking sprite for a while because water or vegetables made me instantly vomit. Thankfully the sickness is easing off and I'm going to cut out the fizz and slowly try to eat more and more veggies again. I eat very healthily normally and drink lots of water so it's made me feel like the worst mummy ever to be feeding the bean all this rubbish :'(
The other thing is last time I did lots of walking and light exercise and felt really proud of how well I was doing for the baby and this time every time I even try and tidy my living room I either start feeling sick or am sick and have to go back to bed!
I'm just sick of feeling fat, eating badly and lying in bed I feel so guilty and sure I'm going to get diabetes and not get my home birth and baby will be poorly and it's my fault etc etc..
I'm sorry I just needed to rant about my silly feelings, it made me cry to write it down. Love to you all xx