I lost my little boy in September and we still haven't started trying again. I'm trying to lose weight and my OB suggested, since I am only 29, that we wait a few months. I think I'm waiting too, for his due date to pass. I feel almost like getting pregnant before he'd have been born is like forgetting him, rolling over his memory maybe. In honesty I wanted to get pregnant again immediately. I am still a little sad because it seems like everyone who lost a baby around when I did is pregnant again and looking to the future. But, I keep reminding myself that I didn't make this decision lightly and my time will come. In the mean time I'm trying to get myself healthy, both physically and mentally. And putting my memory box for Silver together one small piece at a time. On his birthday, or what would have been his birthday, we plan to name a star after him and buy our son a telescope so that he can see his brother's star in the sky. That helps for now.
And if I do get pregnant again, I think I'll feel like Silver is watching over him or her. Still part of our lives in some small way.
And if I do get pregnant again, I think I'll feel like Silver is watching over him or her. Still part of our lives in some small way.