Hi everyone!
I am brand new to the forum and I'm SO glad I found a safe place to talk about these things with others that are sharing similar experiences. My husband and I decided to 'see what happens' in April and since then we've had no luck. This past week I started tracking my ovulation and can officially say we are TTC. I have purchased more than enough ovulation kits, even the newer one "inito" I saw ads for recently.
I have a much younger friend that recently got married a few months ago, I was in her wedding. Once my husband and I got engaged a few years ago, she began pushing her now husband to propose, and all the while I was understanding and happy for her honestly. She asked me to be a bridesmaid and I gladly accepted, although she made a lot of disparaging comments before the wedding, I assumed it was just her 'bridezilla' phase, addressed some of it with her, forgave, moved on.
Fast forward to after her wedding, she begins asking me almost weekly if my husband and I are trying yet. I told her we were 'going with the flow' and enjoying our first year of marriage. Last Friday while I was at work, she told me via text that she was pregnant. I told her how happy I was for her, apparently they were pregnant during the wedding, but didn't know. She then asked me if I was pregnant, to which I responded in the way I always had, we were 'going with the flow'. She responded by saying "everything happens for a reason", and my heart just sank. I tried to play it off with her and just said "yep", but it hurt. I found myself crying in my office, having trouble breathing, and ended up leaving early to go home and cry. It's not the first time she's made very disparaging/competitive comments to me, and I just had enough.
Ever since then I have been aggressively trying to figure out my ovulation schedule, hormones, eating habits, vitamins, scheduled baby making time, etc. and my anxiety is through the roof. I found out I was in peak on Monday, and Tuesday was ovulating, so we tried multiple times. Now I am seeing on my hormone tests that my progesterone seems low, while my estrogen seems high. Thank goodness I have an OB apt today, because I have seen so much info online about all these things I should do... and I'm overwhelmed and exhausted. I also don't want to have a baby like this, almost feeling like I need to catch up to this person that rubbed it in my face... but her getting pregnant so fast made me wonder what was wrong with me, and now I'm worried that there really IS something wrong.
Has anyone else experienced this? I want to be happy for my friend, but I am also so tired of her needing to put me down, put others down (including her husband). Is it just me being jealous? How do you guys handle all of this?! (lol)
Thanks for any support in advance
I am brand new to the forum and I'm SO glad I found a safe place to talk about these things with others that are sharing similar experiences. My husband and I decided to 'see what happens' in April and since then we've had no luck. This past week I started tracking my ovulation and can officially say we are TTC. I have purchased more than enough ovulation kits, even the newer one "inito" I saw ads for recently.
I have a much younger friend that recently got married a few months ago, I was in her wedding. Once my husband and I got engaged a few years ago, she began pushing her now husband to propose, and all the while I was understanding and happy for her honestly. She asked me to be a bridesmaid and I gladly accepted, although she made a lot of disparaging comments before the wedding, I assumed it was just her 'bridezilla' phase, addressed some of it with her, forgave, moved on.
Fast forward to after her wedding, she begins asking me almost weekly if my husband and I are trying yet. I told her we were 'going with the flow' and enjoying our first year of marriage. Last Friday while I was at work, she told me via text that she was pregnant. I told her how happy I was for her, apparently they were pregnant during the wedding, but didn't know. She then asked me if I was pregnant, to which I responded in the way I always had, we were 'going with the flow'. She responded by saying "everything happens for a reason", and my heart just sank. I tried to play it off with her and just said "yep", but it hurt. I found myself crying in my office, having trouble breathing, and ended up leaving early to go home and cry. It's not the first time she's made very disparaging/competitive comments to me, and I just had enough.
Ever since then I have been aggressively trying to figure out my ovulation schedule, hormones, eating habits, vitamins, scheduled baby making time, etc. and my anxiety is through the roof. I found out I was in peak on Monday, and Tuesday was ovulating, so we tried multiple times. Now I am seeing on my hormone tests that my progesterone seems low, while my estrogen seems high. Thank goodness I have an OB apt today, because I have seen so much info online about all these things I should do... and I'm overwhelmed and exhausted. I also don't want to have a baby like this, almost feeling like I need to catch up to this person that rubbed it in my face... but her getting pregnant so fast made me wonder what was wrong with me, and now I'm worried that there really IS something wrong.
Has anyone else experienced this? I want to be happy for my friend, but I am also so tired of her needing to put me down, put others down (including her husband). Is it just me being jealous? How do you guys handle all of this?! (lol)
Thanks for any support in advance