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You guys see the thread about sore legs as a symptom, lol!
Ok...when my temp is high tomorrow, don't let me freak out...getting ready to hit the bottle, lol.
I am over all of this!
Which is it?
Is it pessimism when I think that another baby might not be in the picture?
Or am I being realistic?
I certaintly never thought that when I decided to ttc, I would come out on the other end without another pregnancy.
Why don't we ever mention that we might not have these babies that we want so much? Are we afraid to talk about it?
It's a cold hard fact, but nobody seems to bring it up. We talk about the disappointment of the monthly AF, but not the bleak truth, that it may never happen. Even my RE said to me when I was only 24, "The success rate for IUI is 15-20%. That means that for most people, they won't get pregnant." I was shocked, then so appreciative of the truth. I feel it can keep me grounded.
I recognize that it might not happen for me. Frankly, I'm tired of acting like we are all going to get what we want. That's not to say that I'm full of PMA, we know that I am not.
I just feel like we are side-stepping the reality. . . . .that it might not happen.
Maybe I am just a hater of false hope.
(This is posted after reading several of my subscribed threads where the previous posters are now pregnant.)
At least you didn't stick with the same pic as Sus. That was pretty confusing, lol.
Which is it?
Is it pessimism when I think that another baby might not be in the picture?
Or am I being realistic?
I certaintly never thought that when I decided to ttc, I would come out on the other end without another pregnancy.
Why don't we ever mention that we might not have these babies that we want so much? Are we afraid to talk about it?
It's a cold hard fact, but nobody seems to bring it up. We talk about the disappointment of the monthly AF, but not the bleak truth, that it may never happen. Even my RE said to me when I was only 24, "The success rate for IUI is 15-20%. That means that for most people, they won't get pregnant." I was shocked, then so appreciative of the truth. I feel it can keep me grounded.
I recognize that it might not happen for me. Frankly, I'm tired of acting like we are all going to get what we want. That's not to say that I'm full of PMA, we know that I am not.
I just feel like we are side-stepping the reality. . . . .that it might not happen.
Maybe I am just a hater of false hope.
(This is posted after reading several of my subscribed threads where the previous posters are now pregnant.)
I like to think reality is the happy medium somewhere between PMA and NMA. Knowing the reality of what I'm up against helps me have realistic expectations. I think the real danger in the blind optimism we see so often on here is it leaves us feeling even more like failures when it doesn't happen month after month, making us feel guilty, that maybe it would have happened if only I'd been more positive about it. BS! I already feel guilty about a sh*tload of other things - I don't need to add to that pile!
All the insistence we see on here (ie "You WILL have a baby!") doesn't help me one bit. The fact of the matter is that for some of us, it will not happen. Modern science can't fix everything. And not acknowledging that possibility leaves us unprepared to accept it if/when it comes.
I try not to squash out my hope when it comes along by immediately shooting it down with a negative thought, but likewise, I also don't squash out my despair when it pops up, either. It's there sometimes, whether we like it or not, so we might as well admit it.
Here's a really good blog post on the topic by a therapist who specializes in infertility counseling and who's been through it herself.
All that said, I really hope you get your little bean! First or third, they're all tiny miracles.
Wow. . . . . . just . . . . wow!
Not only do I agree with everything you've said, but that link is amazing!
Thank you so much for sharing it. It validated a lot of my feelings.
I will reread it often.
I think maybe we don´t talk about the possibility that it might not work out on here because we are all very gentle with one another. And so we should be, we only get a fraction of the story on here and don´t know enough to judge really. we also don´t know how fragile another person is and telling them give up no hope may be too much for them to bare. We all have enough people telling us it isn´t a good idea at our age, doctors, media, specialists, so we come on here for support. I have times when my PMA has run out and times when I can´t imagine ever holding my little one, but I can´t yet talk about what if with regards to never. I hope I never have to.
At least you didn't stick with the same pic as Sus. That was pretty confusing, lol.
Indigo!!! Did you have the same pic as me?
I whish I had seen it! It must have been very confusing
I am going to conceive twins this cycle! ...........
I am going to conceive twins this cycle! ...........
At least you didn't stick with the same pic as Sus. That was pretty confusing, lol.
Indigo!!! Did you have the same pic as me?
I whish I had seen it! It must have been very confusing
Yes...I didn't realize it until R pointed it out....but I thought it looked familiar.......