At around 21 weeks I was off work for 2 weeks with cervicitis due to stress at work and feeling worried about the pregnancy. When I was due back to work, I cried the whole Sunday night and made my Monday morning drag out as much as I could before going back to work.
When I walked into work I just wanted in the office for whoever opened up to come in and I just cried. I didn't want to come back just with the fear of the bleeding coming back so it was agreed (this was mid August) that i'd finish work that monring and use the rest of my holidays which would run to the end of August and then my maternity pay would start at the end of September when I get payed again.
Since being off I've calmed and relaxed a lot and not worrying about what work would say if I was off etc.
Over the last few weeks my hip and lower back was giving me pain and I told the midwife; she said it was sciatica and if I was still at work she'd have signed me off. So I'm grateful for finishing earlier because the sick pay wouldn't cover any form of bills!
I've fallen a few times too when I've been doing small jobs like taking the dirty washing downstairs my legs given way or been shopping got home and it gives way again..
So now everyday I'm finding mini things to keep me busy and I always ask OH before he goes to work what needs doing and he saying 'nothing just be lazy and enjoy it'. I feel soooooooo bad when he's doing a 12 hour shift all week and then comes home and I'm still in my pjs. Don't get me wrong I wash up etc have tea ready and a brew ready when he walks though the door but makes me feel guilty that I can't do the food shopping anymore or do the big chores like make space for peanuts room which needs doing. E.g. moving all my holiday clothes or the spare things we dump in there.
If OH finds out I've been into town and done a bit of food shopping he goes mad at me.
He says I need to relax now before peanut is here and its a circle of 'feeds, cleaning, washing, tea, small nap, feeds etc.. haha'