Thank you so much for responding. I've read things that say 3 isn't too bad, or even normal. When the doctor told us, he said "the normal range ends at 3, and You're exactly at 3. You are at the cusp of where we worry." I was confused so i said "Okay so 3 is high but potentially normal or close to normal?" And he literally scoffed and said "3 is NOT normal." I asked what was and he said "One. 1.3, 1.6." With a really negative tone. They asked if i "even wanted the pictures still." As if this changed me loving my baby. I'm so pissed.
Anyway, doctor made it sound like three was a really really bad thing. That's what freaked us out the most. It was like they were literally handing us death sentence or something. I am getting bloods but I kind of put it off, honestly I think I'm doing it on purpose because I sort of don't want to know or I'm afraid of the results. I don't want to have to make decisions I want it just happen to be okay. Anyway I appreciate you answering I've been going crazy over this going in and out of being really optimistic and then suddenly down in the dumps and feel like it will not be okay at all. All I can think about. I can feel it moving around even as I speak and it's hard to think that there could be something wrong with it when it's dancing and seems so strong.
I've been analyzing my ultrasound pics, looking desperately for a nasal bone and any sign something is weird. they're not very good photos which annoys me bc it was a very long ultrasound and had lots of great photo ops. In most of the pics the baby doesn't even look the way it did normally.
Anyway... I am trying to remind myself 3 might be high but it's so close to ok, and people have had much worse outcomes of a scan than this.