Numb....lost....I can't lose my baby :'(

[brandiw]

I went for my ultrasound on Tuesday, I am 17 weeks. What was supposed to be a happy, exciting moment turned horrible in about 10 seconds after they started looking. They found a fluid sac from baby's head to his/her bum, a sac around by the neck, and a sack in his/her tummy, all full of fluid. There was a good strong heartbeat. Right away I was told that it is very obvious Chromosomal abnormalities. I went to my doctor right away, and she looked at the report and said it is not good....IF baby were to go to term...he/she would have no quality of life whatsoever. Don't get me wrong, she said this in a very sympathetic way, not harsh like I made it sound. She then sent me immediately to a specialist. The specialist said the same thing. I got an amnio done....and it is 2 weeks or so until I get results. I will be almost 20 weeks once the results come in. So, I was told that there is a chance I will miscarry, and if not....we have to discuss the options. That makes me sick to my stomach to hear....I know exactly what they mean....terminate my pregnancy. I feel numb....I feel like my whole world has just been taken away from me, crushed after a 2 minute ultrasound. The thought of "terminating" is horrifying to me....he/she still has a heartbeat....and is still MY baby. I guess the amnio will make everything more clear....but as of right now....I am already grieving....I don't know how else to take all of this.

I had so much support here after my first loss...I was just hoping for someone who has heard of this before, or has experienced it.

Thank you

 

[Warby]

Oh no! How awful! I am so, so sorry.

 

[Jcliff]

I'm so sorry! Was that your first ultra sound??

 

[brandiw]

I'm so sorry! Was that your first ultra sound??

Yes, that was my first.

 

[mummyof3babas]

im soooooo sorry to hear this hun xx

 

[Physiomom]

I'm so sorry to hear about your U/S. I can understand how hard it is to wait for the amnio results. Thinking of you. Take care.

 

[keepholdingon]

Thinking of you Lots of love and positive thoughts being sent your way. Wish I could do more for you.

 

[sethsmummy]

sending you so much love hun!

I have seen before on here a lady post about something similar but with just the "sac" from head to bum. And i do remember people saying that they had a similar thing said but everything turned out ok. I hope for you it is the same. I cannot imagine how you are feeling right now. I wish you the best of luck with everything and i hope you have a lot of support around you right now when you need it xxxxx

 

[amjon]

You don't have to do anything. Even if something is wrong you can still continue with the pregnancy.

 

[GoldieLocs]

Keeping you and your little one in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[catfromaus]

Hope everything works out for you- it must be hard, but try and stay strong xx

 

[brandiw]

You don't have to do anything. Even if something is wrong you can still continue with the pregnancy.

I know that I don't "have" to do anything....it is all my choice. Terminating might be the doctors recommendation, depending of course on the results. The only way that would ever ever even consider that....is ONLY if my baby was in severe pain....which is a possibility As much as that kills me, and as much as the mommy instinct kicks in to protect my little one no matter what....that's where I can't be selfish...and would have to do what's best. I will make all decisions after the results, and of course after different opinions. Afterall, the only thing I want is for my little one to be ok...to know mommy loves him/her no matter what...and to never be in pain.

 

[brandiw]

Thank you everyone for your thoughts, prayers, and kind words. It means a lot to me

 

[Rafferty]

I am so heartbroken for you. I can't imagine the stress you are under. I hope you can trust God's plan for this sweet baby's life and truly believe that He loves this child even more than you do. He has a perfect plan for this life inside you even though it breaks our hearts that some of our babys will never make it into our arms. They are safe and out of pain in His. Many prayers for you.

 

[highhopes19]

I'm so sorry to hear this Hun .

My friend found out at a 20 week scan her little boy had fluid sacs on his head and neck. She was also also told the same as you, she went on to have her little boy.

I don't know the name of his condition he has, but he's doing really well considering what she was told he would be like when she pregnant.

He's a happy contented one year old, he's behind compared to the average baby when it comes to sitting, walking, crawling etc, he also has problems witht his sight.but he's getting there he's just learning to sit with cushions around him at the moment.

I can't imagine how hard it is for the drs to tell you that but just wanted to share my friends experience with you big hugs Hun xxxxxx

 

[kimbobaloo]

i cant begin to understand what you are going through i just wanted to let you know my thoughts are with you. With my first pregnancy i was given the worst case scenario after some test results and everything turned out perfectly fine!! i just hope its the same case for you!

 

[cherrylee]

Sending prayers.

 

[chattyB]

Thinking of you and praying for you both huni

 

[babyerin]

..I hope that the doctors can give you more hope and everything turns out ok for you.

 

[mpg1502]

Oh brandiw, you poor darling. My heart just aches for you. What a torturous wait for you. I know it must be almost impossibly hard to hang on to hope but please do. You sound like a lovely mummy and you will do your very best for your little baby whatever the outcome. Stay strong and we will all keep our fingers and toes crossed for you and your little baby.

Much love and hope

XxxxXxx