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Hi Ya.
I don't know where to begin. This is my first thread here this pregnancy as I've just been too scared to start one. The reason for my fear? Well over the past six years I have had sixteen first tri loses as well as a stillbirth at 24+3 (I'd had three children with me and a stillbirth at 36+6 before this too). So just being pregnant is scary for me.
I had an appointment with my professor booked before I knew I was pregnant for last Friday (I was 4+5/6) and because they wanted me to go a really high dose of blood thinning injections she scanned me. She told me that the sac was awful and unsavable, that there was no hope. Obviously I was gutted and cried, a lot. I stopped all meds (I was in anti malaria tablets, steroids, aspirin, pretnals, high dose folic acid, vitamin d supplements, as well as fragmin).
Later in the week I wanted to see if I would start bleeding soon, so did a pregnancy test and it was darker than any of my tests, ever! So doubt creeped back in and I started meds again.
I had to go for a scan a week after the last to completely rule out ectopic, if I had not started bleeding. I went for that yesterday and there in my womb was a perfect, symmetrical gestation sac, yolk sac and fetal pole, all bang on for size. I didn't see a hb (that's okay though as I was only 5+5/6 and didn't see one until almost seven weeks with my little girl who was born sleeping at 24+3). The sonographer said it all looked great.
I'm just completely overwhelmed by the emotions these past week has brought. I hope if anyone else thinks there Dr might be wrong, they follow their instincts.
I don't know where to begin. This is my first thread here this pregnancy as I've just been too scared to start one. The reason for my fear? Well over the past six years I have had sixteen first tri loses as well as a stillbirth at 24+3 (I'd had three children with me and a stillbirth at 36+6 before this too). So just being pregnant is scary for me.
I had an appointment with my professor booked before I knew I was pregnant for last Friday (I was 4+5/6) and because they wanted me to go a really high dose of blood thinning injections she scanned me. She told me that the sac was awful and unsavable, that there was no hope. Obviously I was gutted and cried, a lot. I stopped all meds (I was in anti malaria tablets, steroids, aspirin, pretnals, high dose folic acid, vitamin d supplements, as well as fragmin).
Later in the week I wanted to see if I would start bleeding soon, so did a pregnancy test and it was darker than any of my tests, ever! So doubt creeped back in and I started meds again.
I had to go for a scan a week after the last to completely rule out ectopic, if I had not started bleeding. I went for that yesterday and there in my womb was a perfect, symmetrical gestation sac, yolk sac and fetal pole, all bang on for size. I didn't see a hb (that's okay though as I was only 5+5/6 and didn't see one until almost seven weeks with my little girl who was born sleeping at 24+3). The sonographer said it all looked great.
I'm just completely overwhelmed by the emotions these past week has brought. I hope if anyone else thinks there Dr might be wrong, they follow their instincts.
You have been through so much to get here, I really hope you are pregnant with your rainbow baby 
you are one of my biggest cheerleaders. Love Ya xx
Still refusing to let it sink in and be happy :/ But then I suppose that's the norm? I'm glad things are looking good for u 
lay down as this makes a ninety degree angle easier and then do it as slowly as I can, the speed is the real issue IMO x
