On the road again graduates

[Left wonderin]

Cary enjoy your cruise its so well deserved ! Relax , kick back and enjoy xxxxx

 

[skyesmom]

Carey!
i hear you on the anniversaries. those days are both so tough and also so beautiful in a way.

and great news about the cruise, you and your OH more than deserved it!!! i wish you the best time ever as Left said, kick back & relax...


...and regarding the symptom spotting.... wow!!! all that sounds really promising and exciting!! keep us posted pls!!!!

 

[Topanga053]

Hi everyone just checking in . Its turned super cold here can see my heating bill going up by the day !!! Lol... I can't wait for Christmas I LOVE it lights , trees etc . I'm really just a big kid !!!

How is everyone , work for me work is super busy balancing it all is quite a struggle !especially when it comes to dinners !

I'm so excited for Christmas this year too!! I love Christmas anyway, but for some reason, this year I'm extra excited!! It's taken all of my self-restraint not to put up our tree yet! Lol I've already done 90% of our shopping and the gifts are all wrapped already!

And I hear you, Left! Work has been crazy busy for me recently too. I've been working a lot of late nights (so LO is already sleeping when I get home) and logging some hours on the weekends. Thank goodness I love my job!!

Hi All...

November 12th passed with me much stronger than the year before. There will always be a part of me that wishes I had been able to meet my little one, but a bigger part knows that I will someday meet him. There were no tears, just a happy reassurance that he is in a better place. It's so hard to believe that it has been 2 years...

DH and I leave for a cruise on Monday! We have not had one vacation since our two-day honeymoon more than four years ago. I'm so excited!

Cary, I'm so glad to hear the anniversary was easier for you this year. And HOW EXCITING about your cruise!!! Where are you going and for how long?? We must be physic because DH and I just booked a cruise on Friday! We're going to the Western Caribbean for 7 days in February. You'll have to tell me all about it and tell me any secret tips and tricks!!!! Is this your first cruise?? It will be ours! We've talked about it for years, but this is the first year we've been able to do it.

 

[Topanga053]

Hi ladies! :wave:

It's been so quiet here!! How is everybody!??!?? Cary, how was the cruise??

Afm, nothing much to report. I'm about half-way through my 4th cycle since birth control. DH is back on the TTC bandwagon (for now lol), although I've had some cold feet this week.

One of my friends announced she's expecting again. This is her 3rd pregnancy in 3 years. She was pregnant with her first during my miscarriage, her second when I was pregnant, and now she's pregnant again. It's much easier since having LO, but I still cried when DH told me. She gets pregnant the FIRST MONTH they try EVERY TIME and always has pretty easy, healthy pregnancies. It's just crazy, when I'm here struggling with miscarriages and crazy cycles and it takes me almost a year to get pregnant (at least it did with LO. And we're on ~7 months/4 cycles since TTC this time, since my cycles are so long, but still! We've been TTC almost half a year again already!). She has already really hurt me with some of the things she's said during my loss and she STILL has not met LO. I'm still struggling to forgive her for a lot of stuff, and this newest pregnancy announcement just makes me that much more bitter and resentful. It's stupid and it shouldn't affect me this way, but it still does.

Missing all of you!!! xoxo

 

[Left wonderin]

Hi I miss you all too well I'm onto cycle 5 this month since we started ttc again . Oh have also swung from being on board to saying nope . Right now he is on board too but think he would be equally happy if it didn't happen . He is doing it to keep me happy lol... But I know will love LO if / when they arrive .

Had such a weird cycle . Spotting since 10dpo and still spotting now at cd8 ..... Mmmm who knows what's going on but I'm not giving up Sean is getting so big , crawling , pulling himself to standing .....

Cary how was the holiday ?? Red you still here ?? Would so love to hear from everyone xxx

 

[Left wonderin]

Skye , starry , red , anchor ???? I've just bawled reading back on the thread . And I was talking about ttc again 8 days after Sean arrived !!!!! Lol.....

Please come back and say hi

 

[Left wonderin]

And dear ray ray

 

[skyesmom]

i'm here!! ))))))))))

no big news from me though! (when i get that BFP, the BFP announcement board won't see it before i update THIS thread girls!... i think you'll know before some people in my real life will!)

first, Topanga and Left - thanks for reviving this thread! and so good to hear your LOs are doing well and that your OHs are back on the ttc train! i hope those BFPs rain soon on all of us!

OH and I are looking for a nice new cosy home for us, so lots of late nights in bed googling cuddling and planning... it is actually very sweet times here.

we got the focus of the NTNP as it did good to our relationship and i think we're really NTNPing only now... by this i mean not thinking even in which part of the cycle we are each week.

we're also planning a nice family reunion for xmas, we're scattered all over the place so it's a good thing to meet all together.

Left, i think i'd totally bawl my eyes out too if i dare re-reading this thread! i remember that you talked about having another LO 8 days after Sean was born, lol.... THAT is crazy brave!

Rayray? Anchor? Carey? Starry? WOMEN!!! updates pls!

ps. Topanga, when did Lauren turn 10 months old???? time FLIES here!

 

[Topanga053]

Skye, I know what you mean. NTNP can be so much better for a relationship; so much less stress! I hope it happens soon for you!!! You deserve it so much! I'm so glad we'll be some of the first people you'll tell!!!!

Left, I'm on cycle 5 now too. AF Just came today. On CD28. WHAT??? I mean, here have been my cycles:

Cycle 1: 58 days
Cycle 2: ~70 days
Cycle 3: 48 days
Cycle 4: 27 days

That's crazy!! LOL I thought we were just getting to the fertile part of my cycle today and AF shows up!! I have NEVER had a 27 day cycle. even before LO my cycles were 31-33 days. I wasn't expecting AF for another month. After such long cycles, it feels like I JUST HAD a period! Lol! Anyway, on to cycle 5!

How about everyone else??? Starry? Cary? Red?? How are things??

 

[Topanga053]

PS- Skye, I know!! 10 months has flown. She's growing like a weed. She weighed 25 pounds last week. LOL she's a big girl!! My arms get tired holding her and weve got a long way before she's walking!!!

 

[skyesmom]

Girls! Happy 2015 to you all!!

and now a question...

i'm like 5 DAYS late on my period. of course i POASed already two days ago and it was a perfect, snow-white BFN.

the thing is, i don't feel pregnant at all and the only "symptom" that i had was brown spotting for two days 6-7 days ago a few days before my period was due. i had no implantation bleeding before.. but i had CRAZY implantation cramps with my last one, it was something i've never felt in my whole life, i was 100% sure i was pregnant already before it and got my beautiful BFP a week later.
with both my previous pregnancies, i just "knew" something was in there, can't really put that feelings into words, but it felt like i wasn't the only person living in my body and that someone was already with me. i have nothing like it this time around .

on top of all, i got a nasty cold at the beginning of this cycle and was prescribed antibiotics; i haven't had antibiotics prescribed since ages now, i think the last time i had them before this winter was like 7-8 years ago.

Do you think meds could have messed up my cycle? i'm also being already paranoid that if i'm pregnant now, the meds could have harmed the baby or the egg prior to conception and so on and so on. i'm not a big fan of pills and take them only when i really HAVE to.

and i haven't tested again because i'm tired of disappointments and BFNs and also another BFN but with no trace of period coming wouldn't convince me that i am not pregnant either.

sorry for the rant and a weird and inconclusive update. i just need someone to wait it out with me :/

the OH is being suuuuper sweet and supportive by the way, and he also takes care not to get our hopes up too much.

 

[Left wonderin]

Hi sky I'm so happy to hear from you and equally happy to wait it out with you the spotting sounds hopeful !! What day in your cycle are you now ?? Ooooh I know its disapointing to see a Bfn but I wouldn't be able to " not know" that would drive me crazy !!

 

[Topanga053]

Hi Skye! I think the meds could definitely be messing up your cycles. Or it could just be one of those things. But I think late cycles while TTC should be BANNED!! I hope the BFNs are wrong though and you're late because you're preggo! As far as "knowing" when you're pregnant, I don't know. I immediately "knew" with my first miscarriage that I was pregnant, but when I got pregnant with Lauren, I was convinced that I was NOT pregnant because I didn't "feel" pregnant at all!! Since I knew it the first time, I was sure I would have the same feeling the second time around, but nope! I just about died when the test was positive. So I wouldn't put all of your eggs in that basket!

Left, you're on a break from TTC #2??? Did anything happen or you guys are just waiting? What's the scoop?

How is everyone else??? It's been so quiet here!!! Starry?? How's that beautiful baby girl? Is your PPD better now??

Cary? Red?

 

[Left wonderin]

Hi Topanga yup but an inforced break . Have been diagnosed with post partum thyroiditis . Mine is over active at the moment . On med which not safe ttc , also with levels out of wack effects fertility and v high rate of mc . So we are waiting . Have specialist appointment on 9 th of march so hoping for more news re time frame ect then xx

How are you doing ? Where is oh at re no 2 now !

 

[RedWylder]

*waves* I peak in every now and again to see what's up but often don't have the energy for writing all that needs to be said so I wind up saying nothing. LOL. Anyways, piper and I are doing great. She is 9 months old and is crawling and trying to pull up on everything. Love this munchkin. Know that I'm still rooting for Skye and Cary. I want so badly to come back on here and see some good news.

 

[skyesmom]

hey girls!

so nice to see this thread active again!

Left, that sucks! but at least they picked up on your condition and are treating it, i hope you get all clear for TTC again in march. thyroid is such a sensitive thing.

Topanga, how is your TTC #2 business going? is your OH still on board?

and Red - so great to hear from you and Piper again!! missed you girl! and thanks for rooting for us

and as for me, i ain't pregnant, the meds have messed up my cycle but tbh i'm a bit relieved i am not, as since we didn't get pregnant yet on the cycles when i was healthy, i'd rather skip getting pregnant on a cycle where i was full of meds, antibiotics especially. i'd driven myself nuts from worry and guilt if i were.

the AF got me properly so now all sleepy and super tired. OH is being a sweetheart though. and our relationship is blooming even without a baby and i am endlessly grateful for this. i never thought i'd be able to feel like this again but i am, and it is such a relief.

aaaand i really can't wait for the day to update this thread with another BFP news. honestly, i already thought of how i will announce it to you girls and already have a plan now all i need is a :BFP:

thank you all so much for your support and your friendship over these months... been over a year now!!

 

[Topanga053]

Hi girls! :wave:

Skye, SO SORRY to hear about AF! That sucks! Late periods are so, so cruel when you're TTC.

And Left- so sorry to hear about the delay in TTC #2! Tough news all around, ladies!

Red- Glad to hear you're doing well!!! We miss you!!

Afm, DH and I are both on board for TTC #2. We both still go back and forth a little bit sometimes, but I think we're pretty solidly on board now. I've been REALLLLY wanting #2 recently. I tested today and got a BFN. I was really sad about it. I think it's the first BFN I cried over since LO. I just really thought I was pregnant and was so excited thinking about it. No sign of AF yet, but my cycles are still all over the place, so who knows. Anyway, now it's just waiting to see if/when AF finally decides to show up. This is cycle 5, so apparently we're onwards and upwards to cycle 6!

 

[skyesmom]

oh Topanga!! the late cycles are SOOOOOOO cruel when you're TTC, i agree!!

and i so so hope that this will be a late BFP for you, instead of another whacky cycle!! those would be such good news!! keeping my fingers crossed for all of us girls!

 

[Topanga053]

oh Topanga!! the late cycles are SOOOOOOO cruel when you're TTC, i agree!!

and i so so hope that this will be a late BFP for you, instead of another whacky cycle!! those would be such good news!! keeping my fingers crossed for all of us girls!

Thanks!! I HATE not knowing when AF is going to come. Today is CD33 with no sign of her. (Last month was a 27 day cycle, but before that I've been anywhere from 40-70 days, WTF!?!?). It sucks because I have NO IDEA when/if I'm fertile (but still refuse to chart again), when I should test, or when AF might show up. And it's hard to know what to wear if you never know when you might start bleeding, you know?? I'm terrified of wearing light colored clothes anytime after CD31, just in case!!

 

[skyesmom]

gah i know that feeling. sometimes i feel she's just waiting for the day that i put the white skirt on and baaaam!!

fingers crossed for this cycle dear!! keep us posted!