Spudtastic
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Hi everyone.
I just want a place to write how I feel. My girls are 4 and 1. I'm tired like most mum's. My 4 year old was the worst sleeper. She woke me up about 10 times a night, and up at 4am for the first two years. Now both are up early daily. And between the two girls I'm spoken up maybe 5 times a night. I also do everything for my girls. Clothes cook read play bath bedtime stories etc. I love my husband but he's away at the moment and there's no difference in what I do.
My eldest can not play by herself so she wants me to play as soon as she wakes up at 5am. I am not a good player. I hate ptetend play andlego and mum's and dad's. But I do play because Dd1 loves it. I can't leave the room without either girls crying for me. I can't even go to the toilet or open the back door to put something in the bin without my girls crying for me. I'm so tired.
Even though dh isn't here I am at my parents. They love my kids but don't really like to babysit. Last week I had a virus. I was very nauseus and had to run to the toilet alot. All I wanted was a lay down for half an hour.
My eldest is nearly 5 and I've had 4 nights (and therefore 4 lay ins) away from my beautiful girls. I love my girls so much but I would love an evening to just relax, followed by a night of unbroken sleep, followed by a lay in (even just reading a book with a cup of tea).
I know it's not forever but I really am looking forward to not being permanently exhausted.
How am I supposed to get a job when I get no sleep. I make stupid mistakes as it is because I'm tired. I used to be quite intelligent anf on to it but now I'm just a frazzled wreck. I don't have time to take care of myself. If I'm lucky I get a shower once a week. My only me time is eating so I've put on alot of weight. I don't feel like me any more. I love my girls and wouldn't change a thing but I feel like I'm a different person now and I don't like who I am.
I just want a place to write how I feel. My girls are 4 and 1. I'm tired like most mum's. My 4 year old was the worst sleeper. She woke me up about 10 times a night, and up at 4am for the first two years. Now both are up early daily. And between the two girls I'm spoken up maybe 5 times a night. I also do everything for my girls. Clothes cook read play bath bedtime stories etc. I love my husband but he's away at the moment and there's no difference in what I do.
My eldest can not play by herself so she wants me to play as soon as she wakes up at 5am. I am not a good player. I hate ptetend play andlego and mum's and dad's. But I do play because Dd1 loves it. I can't leave the room without either girls crying for me. I can't even go to the toilet or open the back door to put something in the bin without my girls crying for me. I'm so tired.
Even though dh isn't here I am at my parents. They love my kids but don't really like to babysit. Last week I had a virus. I was very nauseus and had to run to the toilet alot. All I wanted was a lay down for half an hour.
My eldest is nearly 5 and I've had 4 nights (and therefore 4 lay ins) away from my beautiful girls. I love my girls so much but I would love an evening to just relax, followed by a night of unbroken sleep, followed by a lay in (even just reading a book with a cup of tea).
I know it's not forever but I really am looking forward to not being permanently exhausted.
How am I supposed to get a job when I get no sleep. I make stupid mistakes as it is because I'm tired. I used to be quite intelligent anf on to it but now I'm just a frazzled wreck. I don't have time to take care of myself. If I'm lucky I get a shower once a week. My only me time is eating so I've put on alot of weight. I don't feel like me any more. I love my girls and wouldn't change a thing but I feel like I'm a different person now and I don't like who I am.