Okay so please dont go judging me cos thats not gonna help!! When I fell pregnant last time, it wasn't planned, however we knew we were unprotected, but I was under the impression that was fine, and if it happened it happened, because my boyfriend agreed he would be ready to try, but once I fell pregnant, he went really different, screamed at me to kill it, threatened me a few times, but after a few long chats, he calmed, and came round, and although he wasnt happy about it, he was willing to stand by me, and the further more I got into pregnancy, the more relaxed he became, then I had a sudden m/c at 6 weeks. I was devastated, but my boyfriend wasnt phazed at all, which upset me, but I expected it. However, since then, Ive watched the way he treats the animals and other children, hes brilliant, so soft and gentle, caring, wakes up all during the night just to make sure hes not squashing our new kitten in the bed! And as much as this DOES feel wrong to me, I might start going unprotected again, not taking the pill, leaving him under the impression I am still taking the pill, because I KNOW 110% that once he sees that bump grow, then holds his baby, he will regret the day he said kill it, Ive been with him nearly 3 years now and know him very well. Do you think this is something which you see as okay? I mean, to be honest, if worst came to worst (which im 90%) it wouldnt, Id go it alone, and if that child wanted to meet daddy one day, then I would let them go for it. My boyfriends family are very caring anyway, and would want everything to do with the baby. Im already worried I wont be able to carry again, but im determined to try, and this time, keep my head low until 13 weeks arrives. What do you all think?