Today is a ruff day for me. My mom is in surgery right now and we have all been told that she may not make it through it. I really feel like I can't breath until I get the call from my dad saying that she made it and that she will be my same ol' mom. See she works as a in home care taker and her client smokes, my mom is allergic to smoke. She gets polyps (sp?) and has had to have surgery every year because of this woman's smoking. Now the polyps are huge and putting pressure on her brain. They told her that not having them removed can be life threatening but so can this surgery. She can also end up blind on her right eye or end up as a vegetable. I would take either one of those over her losing her life. I would like to smack this woman that refuses to smoke outside because now I may lose my mommy today. I wanted to go with her today but she was worried about me being exposed to sick people while there with me being pregnant. I guess she is right but to be honest I just want to be with my mommy. I feel like a small child throwing a fit yelling "I want my mommy." So if you believe in god or any kind of a higher power please pray for my mom, I'm not ready to let her go!! I am so worried and sick to my tummy. I have been crying all day and praying as hard as I can. The fear of the unknown is really getting to me because my mom and I are very very close, we spend almost all of our time together. I really feel like I am going crazy right now.