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[newlywedtzh]

For the first time the anxietys been kicking in. I think it's because we started to tell family, etc. everyone being so excited means the pressure of everything being okay gets high. Been using the Doppler like every day. I always find it but today it wasn't as loud which made me worry more.

Also I met with my new office (I'm choosing to deliver at a birth center 1 hr away bc insurance covers it - i do not want a hospital birth this time (or ever again if I can help it) but homebirth was all out of pocket. Well I was feeling confident about the decision but had my first meeting with one of the midwives through the birth center. And it felt exactly the same as an OB, not very personal,completely rushed, already doubting my ability to have an all natural birth. Except I was in the car for over 2 hours to go there while being nauseas. I left so disappointed. Maybe that's adding to ththe anxiety. Homebirth with midwives is what I really want, I just can't commit to draining our savings with me staying at home and a new baby on the way but I don't want any regrets. Ay Yi Yi

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Squig, that's disappointing, especially when you were so ready to deliver. Hoping that they were able to fit you in yesterday and that you're holding that precious bundle in your arms right now.

Madrid, it really does sound as though the sonographer made a mistake. Your baby couldn't have lost that much leg length in two weeks -- I bet your little one will be born gorgeous and perfect. I'm so glad your DH has been able to put it in perspective for you.

Newly, I find that all of those early consultant appointments are rushed whether doc or midwife. Stick to your guns on your natural delivery, and when the time comes I'm sure they'll work with you so you can have the birth you want. I've always had midwife led, natural deliveries, and they really have been calm and perfect. I'm sorry you won't have the homebirth you'd prefer, but you're right that using your savings to have time with the baby afterwards makes more sense.

Squig, thanks for the V-day wishes. I spent it in a very scary way, with a trip to L&D with a threatened early delivery. I lost some mucus plug and was having regular contractions -- calmed down now, I'm very glad to say. My cervix is shortened but doesn't seem to be opening and the fibronectin test to see if I'm about to go into labour was negative. I'm home again after two days, but on strict bedrest.

Very terrifying. I'm not ready to bring these babies into the world at 24 weeks.

 

[floridamomma]

Squig- congrats again on the lo! I saw on your journal and glad you both are doing well.

Madrid- don't let them stress you too much. I hope all is well with the lo.

Newly- maybe give them another shot? Do they offer tours with the center? I would express your concerns at your next visit. I know from working in a gp's office sometimes you are rushed and you really don't realize it. I hope all goes better next visit.

Invitro- I'm glad everything worked out and the babies are snugged in tight. Rest as much as you can.

 

[wookie130]

InVivo- I'm so sorry you had such a scare! Please, please continue to rest, and do any and everything you can to make DH wait on you hand and foot. I know it's tough, and it's frustrating. But we need those little ones to keep cookin' for a great deal longer!

Squig- Like the others have said, I do hope you're holding your little one by now, and they were able to squeeze you in.

Newly- Like Florida said, perhaps give the birth center another chance...I'm sorry that you won't be having a homebirth, but money is so important also, particularly when you're taking time off to be with your little ones.

 

[Mitchi]

Sounds like you are all having a time of it right now.

Sending lots of hugs to all of you.

My baby is measuring way off the chart apparently. Passed the glucose tolerance test thankfully though. Have a proper growth scan on Monday so we'll see what the scan says. I feel humongous and still 10 weeks to go!

 

[Squig34]

Thanks ladies - I did get in on Friday morning & our rainbow girl Róise Isabelle was born at 11.15, weighing 5lb 7oz

 

[Squig34]

IVV, sorry you had such a scare. Hope the bed rest keeps those little babies cooking as long as possible.

 

[Sweetkat]

Hello ladies. Pregnant after 2 losses in a row (and have a DD who is nearly 3). Now 8&2 and absolutely terrified sth will go wrong.

My first loss was discovered at 9&3 with baby measuring 8&4. This was in November. Then had a second loss in March. Went for a reassurance scan at 6&5 and was told baby measuring 4-5 weeks. Miscarried at 8ish weeks.

Got pregnant first cycle after the March loss. Already had 3 scans. Baby was measuring 5&5 at 6&3, then 6&5 at 7 weeks and then 7&2 at 7&6. Weird that at one place they measure me 4 days behind but at a different centre measured 2 days behind.

I am absolutely terrified and thinking of going for another scan soon.

Good luck to all of us.

 

[InVivoVeritas]

A huge congratulations to you, Squig -- she's absolutely stunning! Welcome to the world baby Róise.

Mitchi, glad you passed the GTT, though you must be concerned about growing such a whopper! Sounds like you're doing everything right to give your not-so-little one everything he or she needs!!

Welcome, Sweetkat. Early pregnancy is a terrifying time, but hang in there. Sounds like your baby is growing at exactly the right rate, and your team are keeping a really good eye on you.

 

[floridamomma]

Congrats again squig!!!!

Sweetkat- I know it's hard to relax but you have to hon. You want to give your baby the calmest environment you can. Don't worry so much about being a couple of days behind. The baby is sooooo small at this point that it's easy for them to be off. Fx everything will continue to go well for you.

Mitchie- glad your GTT was negative. My daughters godparents had 9-10 + lbs babies and she was the healthiest thinnest woman I know!

 

[nessaw]

She's gorgeous squig-huge congratulations.x

Congrats and h and h 9 months sweet kat. X

 

[Sweetkat]

A huge congratulations to you, Squig -- she's absolutely stunning! Welcome to the world baby Róise.

Mitchi, glad you passed the GTT, though you must be concerned about growing such a whopper! Sounds like you're doing everything right to give your not-so-little one everything he or she needs!!

Welcome, Sweetkat. Early pregnancy is a terrifying time, but hang in there. Sounds like your baby is growing at exactly the right rate, and your team are keeping a really good eye on you.

Thank you and congratulations on getting to V-day. You must be so pleased. Hope all goes well and you don't have any more scares.

 

[Sweetkat]

Congrats again squig!!!!

Sweetkat- I know it's hard to relax but you have to hon. You want to give your baby the calmest environment you can. Don't worry so much about being a couple of days behind. The baby is sooooo small at this point that it's easy for them to be off. Fx everything will continue to go well for you.

Mitchie- glad your GTT was negative. My daughters godparents had 9-10 + lbs babies and she was the healthiest thinnest woman I know!

I don't know how I am going to make it to 12 weeks. Well I think I will have a scan at just over 11 weeks. Just to cut it down by a few days.

Well it's either 2 or 4 days depending on which measurement you go with and the latest scan was 4 days out but the Dr said all looks fine and come back at 11-12 weeks. Easy for her to say, hard to do

 

[floridamomma]

Congrats again squig!!!!

Sweetkat- I know it's hard to relax but you have to hon. You want to give your baby the calmest environment you can. Don't worry so much about being a couple of days behind. The baby is sooooo small at this point that it's easy for them to be off. Fx everything will continue to go well for you.

Mitchie- glad your GTT was negative. My daughters godparents had 9-10 + lbs babies and she was the healthiest thinnest woman I know!

I don't know how I am going to make it to 12 weeks. Well I think I will have a scan at just over 11 weeks. Just to cut it down by a few days.

Well it's either 2 or 4 days depending on which measurement you go with and the latest scan was 4 days out but the Dr said all looks fine and come back at 11-12 weeks. Easy for her to say, hard to do

It is! When you have scans set the waiting feels like forever. But you can speak positive thoughts about your baby and pregnancy into existent. If it's too far off can you book a reassurance scan?

 

[Madrid98]

Congrats squig! She's so gorgeous!!

Ivv that was probably such a scary couple of days. How are you coping with bed resting when you have other children?

Newly we don't get much of a choice here. Luckily I like the hospital that I go to and it's only about 10-15 mins drive from us. But the midwife I got this time hasn't been helpful at all. I've even cancelled a couple of appointments because I thought she was wasting my time. Hopefully things will improve for you though as you still have time.

Good luck sweetcat!

 

[wookie130]

Squig!!! How beautiful is she? Awww, I am so thrilled for you! Congratulations!

 

[blueblue]

IVV - sorry you had such a scare, I hope everything is ok now and you are resting up x

Madrid - the scans aren't that accurate on weight/measurements etc, they are usually a pound out on weight, hope everything will be ok for you x

Newly - sorry your midwife was rushing you and hope you are able to get the birth you want x

Mitchi - glad the GTT went well x

Welcome and good luck Sweetkat x

 

[newlywedtzh]

Congrats squig!!!! Please post here if you need any support as you enter newborn world!!

Ivv- how scary! I had a scare at about 29 weeks with DD. I made sure to drink plenty of water / stay or of the heat after that. Hopefully little one stays put!!

Kat- welcome we all know how terrifying early pregnancy is after losses- day by day and distraction !

Thanks for all the kind words- this appt. was at the OBs office and not the birth center. Hoping my next one at the birth center will be different. I'm hiring a doula so that should help. So anxious and blah. I am not a good pregnant woman, I feel like I may be one of those rare ones where I get a touch of depression actually. Trying to keep busy. I tried to find the hb yesterday and it took me close to 30 minutes. So scary. I'm still kind of shaken up by it! I'm thin and usually find the hb right away so i don't know what was going on last night. I'm regretting not saying I wanted the 12 week scan- 20 weeks sounds like a long time away to find out what's going on in there.

 

[newlywedtzh]

I just think it's strange that the anxiety is hitting me now when I should start to be feeling safe. With my DD I never felt completely at ease however.

 

[Madrid98]

Had another docs appointment today. She was also quite certain that the scan measurements were an error.

She's booked me for a sweep on Monday and induction on 20th June if things don't start before that. Eeeeek