No heartbeat, measuring 8 weeks. D&C set for tomorrow going to have another ultrasound done before just so I can't torcher myself with what if. Thank you ladies so much for your support during this difficult time and I will be taking a break from b&b for a few weeks so I will not be on to see your condolences but I thank you for them anyway. My midwife has referred me to a neonatal fetal maternal specialist of some sort who actually takes my insurance instead of an RE who doesn't so most of my testing should be paid for. I am having this baby tested too. I really hope you ladies will let me pull a fili and allow me to come back in a few weeks to update my results and to ask questions about this or that when it comes to the testing as you guys seem to have so much info.
As far as me and DH, instead of leaving we had a 4-5 hour conversation and I just basically felt like my thoughts, feelings and opinions didn't matter to DH and I was being ingnored and ignoring my feelings on the porn was just the last straw. Of course DH had no idea I felt this way and was really sorry that he'd been taking me for granted and has promised to start including me and my opionions in his life...which is when he agreed to see an RE if necessary (good thing too) These past couple of days were great, DH has been spending more time with me and Olivia and he's making a real effort, even agreeing to use his money he's had saved up for testing!
Thank you ladies so much for all the advice and support.