PAL after Recurrent Losses - come join us!

[confuzion]

Hi ladies :wave:

Popping in much later than the last time around as I'm finally starting to believe this little one may actually be our rainbow. Couldn't find the courage to join you all until now!

Seems like mostly everyone's pregnancies are thriving .

Big hugs to my lovely friend squig and to you dairymomma for your losses.

I've been stalking this thread fairly frequently so I already feel familiar with all of you. Hope I'm welcome!

 

[ginny83]

Hope - such bull about the weekly scans being harmful. My RMC offers weekly scans from 6 weeks until 12 weeks as there are studies out there that show women have improved chances of a successful pregnancy if they feel supported etc and so that's why they offer the scans. I guess maybe it helps reduce stress? Who knows. They call it the TLC approach. So say there is some microscopic risk of having weekly scans - I think in probably all our cases here the benefits of them would definitely be worth it.

 

[hopeful23456]

Welcome confuzion n congrats !!!

 

[DSemcho]

DSemcho, that's so exciting baby is moving so much!! When did you first feel it? Your husband getting jalapeno on his penis cracks me up!!

Oh man the first time I felt it was exactly 13 weeks but it was just one time. Then a week later I felt it again. Then I didn't feel it until 16 weeks exactly. Occasionally I get this weird feeling - feels like when your stomach muscle twitches but lower. And omg I was dying from laughter the whole time.

My scan went brilliant. Picked up the sac straight away, in the correct place. I have never had a clear external before so that was good! They wanted to see if they could get a better view internally, and they could see everything including a heartbeat. I'm actually measuring ahead at 6+3, my lmp was 10th Jan and my cycles are 31-33 days so I thought I was under 6 weeks. I have always measured behind and my scan pic is really clear. Actually got two pics which is nice.

Go back two weeks today. I'm really nervous as it was at the second scan (after heartbeat) that #2 had died. But for now I'm pleased that it is in the right place and there is a heartbeat!

Yay loeylo!!! I'm so happy everything is going great!

D- glad your feeling the lo wiggling around in there

It's crazy!! My sister said it was like butterfly flutters but it's different for me.

Hi ladies :wave:

Popping in much later than the last time around as I'm finally starting to believe this little one may actually be our rainbow. Couldn't find the courage to join you all until now!

Seems like mostly everyone's pregnancies are thriving .

Big hugs to my lovely friend squig and to you dairymomma for your losses.

I've been stalking this thread fairly frequently so I already feel familiar with all of you. Hope I'm welcome!

Welcome!!!! And congrats on a little girl!! I'm about 4 weeks ahead of you

 

[Tasha]

A bit of both Mrs R. I first went on clexane when it was discovered that I had factor v after Honey was stillborn, her placenta was over 50% clots but it wasn't until I was 11 weeks pregnant that they discovered I had factor v Leiden and put me on the blood thinners. She was a rainbow. Then I started having early miscarriages so was put on them in early pregnancy after my sixth miscarriage, my seventh was another early miscarriage, then the next pregnancy was Riley Rae, they took me off them at sixteen weeks (citing new research) and she basically stopped growing immediately, born sleeping at 24+3 the size of a 19 weeker. I've continued to miscarry (a further nine times) despite being on clexane and this time I'm on four times the normal amount in the UK, seems to be working so far.

I think many doctors class two miscarriages as normal and/or unlucky (I'm not saying I agree btw) and therefore may be reluctant to try meds whereas even one stillbirth at 36+6 is classed as a medical thing and so the stillbirth and the factor v together means that they need to try stuff.

On a complete different note, I feel sick with nerves and wish this baby would kick before the scan!

 

[Tasha]

Welcome confuzion x

 

[DSemcho]

I swear, I'm going to kick DH in the scrotum before this pregnancy is over. He just told me he doesn't want to "waste" two hours of his day off *PAID DAY OFF!!* going off base to the ultrasound. UGH. If it wasn't the gender ultrasound I wouldn't care as much - I'd still care regardless, but not as much. But instead I told him it was his choice and that I'd get a video anyways. And he went, so you're going to make me watch the video? I said nope.

 

[Hope39]

Tasha - isaac gave me a little kick just before I went into my 20w scan.

Hopefully rudi just having a little snooze

Hugs hun xx

 

[Ummi2boyz]

Congrats Hope and Loeylo on your scans!
Hope: sorry they are being so horrible! I hope you finally get the treatment and care you and baby deserve.

Florida: congrats on those great numbers!

Confuzion: congrats on your bfp! I did the same and waiting for the 12 weeks mark before joining, though I was dying to do it before.

Good luck everyone who's got a scan coming up. I'll be stalking for good news!

Sorry if Iforgot anyone. Thinking of you all. xx

 

[LeeC]

Congrats on all the positive scans.

Tasha as I said on FB will be thinking of you today.

So, I'm so fed up, looks like I may be having my 13th loss, not counting my possible chemical pregnancy last month.

I've been having faint lines for a week now on IC, they got a little darker but haven't progressed like they usually do. I've been on all Meds steroids, clexane etc etc...
I did a digi and SD test yesterday, SD line was darker and digi said 1-2 weeks.

This morning I noticed brown discharge and fmu test seemed fainter, I was convinced this was over until I just took another IC and its now darker again.

I'm now worried that this could be yet another ectopic (I've had 2 in the past both resulting in surgery).
I guess I have to book in for bloods now, I've been putting this off as my anxiety rockets at the thought of another ectopic and rupture, in my last ectopic I was taken by ambulance for emergency surgery and I can't even describe the pain, no amount of morphine helped, it was one of the scariest experiences of my life.

I guess I just need to rant, I'm just seriously pissed off and fed up, also my 9 week loss last year was very similar from the onset to this pregnancy. I hate PARL.

Thankfully my little rainbow is keeping me occupied today and I'm getting lots of cuddles.

 

[floridamomma]

Hi ladies :wave:

Popping in much later than the last time around as I'm finally starting to believe this little one may actually be our rainbow. Couldn't find the courage to join you all until now!

Seems like mostly everyone's pregnancies are thriving .

Big hugs to my lovely friend squig and to you dairymomma for your losses.

I've been stalking this thread fairly frequently so I already feel familiar with all of you. Hope I'm welcome!

Welcome and congratsxxx

A bit of both Mrs R. I first went on clexane when it was discovered that I had factor v after Honey was stillborn, her placenta was over 50% clots but it wasn't until I was 11 weeks pregnant that they discovered I had factor v Leiden and put me on the blood thinners. She was a rainbow. Then I started having early miscarriages so was put on them in early pregnancy after my sixth miscarriage, my seventh was another early miscarriage, then the next pregnancy was Riley Rae, they took me off them at sixteen weeks (citing new research) and she basically stopped growing immediately, born sleeping at 24+3 the size of a 19 weeker. I've continued to miscarry (a further nine times) despite being on clexane and this time I'm on four times the normal amount in the UK, seems to be working so far.

I think many doctors class two miscarriages as normal and/or unlucky (I'm not saying I agree btw) and therefore may be reluctant to try meds whereas even one stillbirth at 36+6 is classed as a medical thing and so the stillbirth and the factor v together means that they need to try stuff.

On a complete different note, I feel sick with nerves and wish this baby would kick before the scan!

Good luck with the scan Tasha! When is it?

I swear, I'm going to kick DH in the scrotum before this pregnancy is over. He just told me he doesn't want to "waste" two hours of his day off *PAID DAY OFF!!* going off base to the ultrasound. UGH. If it wasn't the gender ultrasound I wouldn't care as much - I'd still care regardless, but not as much. But instead I told him it was his choice and that I'd get a video anyways. And he went, so you're going to make me watch the video? I said nope.

Maybe he's really scared? But he is being a pain. Xx

Congrats on all the positive scans.

Tasha as I said on FB will be thinking of you today.

So, I'm so fed up, looks like I may be having my 13th loss, not counting my possible chemical pregnancy last month.

I've been having faint lines for a week now on IC, they got a little darker but haven't progressed like they usually do. I've been on all Meds steroids, clexane etc etc...
I did a digi and SD test yesterday, SD line was darker and digi said 1-2 weeks.

This morning I noticed brown discharge and fmu test seemed fainter, I was convinced this was over until I just took another IC and its now darker again.

I'm now worried that this could be yet another ectopic (I've had 2 in the past both resulting in surgery).
I guess I have to book in for bloods now, I've been putting this off as my anxiety rockets at the thought of another ectopic and rupture, in my last ectopic I was taken by ambulance for emergency surgery and I can't even describe the pain, no amount of morphine helped, it was one of the scariest experiences of my life.

I guess I just need to rant, I'm just seriously pissed off and fed up, also my 9 week loss last year was very similar from the onset to this pregnancy. I hate PARL.

Thankfully my little rainbow is keeping me occupied today and I'm getting lots of cuddles.

Thinking of you Lee. Hugs and prayersxxx

 

[wookie130]

Awww, Lee...I hope it isn't another ectopic. PARL does suck, I agree with you. That's one of many reasons why we're done having babies, now that I have two rainbow babies. I can't take the anxiety and the fear of something going wrong constantly...it's horrible stress, really. Praying for you, dear.

Tasha, good luck on your scan today? Forgive me if I missed it, but are you finding out the gender today?

 

[DSemcho]

Congrats on all the positive scans.

Tasha as I said on FB will be thinking of you today.

So, I'm so fed up, looks like I may be having my 13th loss, not counting my possible chemical pregnancy last month.

I've been having faint lines for a week now on IC, they got a little darker but haven't progressed like they usually do. I've been on all Meds steroids, clexane etc etc...
I did a digi and SD test yesterday, SD line was darker and digi said 1-2 weeks.

This morning I noticed brown discharge and fmu test seemed fainter, I was convinced this was over until I just took another IC and its now darker again.

I'm now worried that this could be yet another ectopic (I've had 2 in the past both resulting in surgery).
I guess I have to book in for bloods now, I've been putting this off as my anxiety rockets at the thought of another ectopic and rupture, in my last ectopic I was taken by ambulance for emergency surgery and I can't even describe the pain, no amount of morphine helped, it was one of the scariest experiences of my life.

I guess I just need to rant, I'm just seriously pissed off and fed up, also my 9 week loss last year was very similar from the onset to this pregnancy. I hate PARL.

Thankfully my little rainbow is keeping me occupied today and I'm getting lots of cuddles.

Just curious - are you testing at different times through out the day?? Or the same time everyday?

 

[loeylo]

Good luck lee, hope it isn't another ectopic. My lines were always fairly faint with my ectopic on cheap tests (b&m bargains ones) despite my blood hcg being in the 3000s so I get your worries and I know how horrible your last ectopic was but hopefully if it is ectopic (which it probably isn't) you will be early enough to have methotrexate (which obviously still sucks!)

Hopefully it is just some dodgy tests!

 

[Tasha]

Lee, I knew the rest up until the brown spotting but not the darker IC. Hope had bleeding/spotting early on with this pregnancy and it was just some freak thing. Hopefully same for you. Get those bloods done x

Afm - scan went well, no growth restriction baby was kicking, punching, yawning and smelling it's feet. It was fab. Cisterna Magna (fluid in the brain/spinal cord I think) is 95% which is big but not sure what it means for our baby if anything. I will ask at the consultant appointment tomorrow. For now though I'm just relieved.

Sonographer made me feel a pain because my fortnightly growth scans start now but hey ho.

 

[Hope39]

Tasha - you know how I chiuffed I am for you x

Lee - hugs hun, with your last few bfp's have you started meds from bfp and not ovulation, I'm sure I thought that when you messaged me. Xx

 

[LeeC]

Dsem. I've been testing same time and different times, fmu and afternoon so I don't think it's anything to do with urine concentration or anything like that if only.

Hope, Yes, I started meds about 7dpo which is a few days later than I started with Morgan but jumped on full dose this time with Morgan I started on 5mg and increased to 25mg over about 5 days, I took soy iso's to conceive with him.

Tasha, I used my other SD which was darker, I'll
Post a pic when I work it out in here it's been a while since I did it. I am
Thinking more ectopic now than anything.

Thanks Wookie, so true I am so sick of it all already.

Loeylo, I just spoke to English Louise at Wishaw, I'm about to complain about her, the woman winds me up no end. I refuse to see her, waiting for one of the girls I know to call back as when I asked if I could book in for blood she said 'probably not'
I've told her one way or the other I'll be getting them
Done and won't be waiting 6 weeks as I ruptured before 6 weeks last time.
I'm writing to her dept manager. Thankfully the rest of the staff there are wonderful.

 

[LeeC]

Bottom one is today's SD. I think I'm anywhere from 14 - 16 dpo.

 

[dairymomma]

Dsemcho-My DH refuses to come to any of my appts with me, even the one time where I was thisclose to having a full-blown panic attack and literally BEGGED him (tears and everything) to come hold my hand during the scan because I was almost peeing myself from fear that my dr would tell me for the second time in a row that there was no hb at 14 weeks. His response? "You'll be fine." followed by an eye roll that he didn't think I saw. (He got the silent treatment the rest of the day.) I think it's a 'guy thing' and some dudes just don't want anything to do with dr appts, scans, pretty much anything related to pregnancy until it's time to go to the hospital. Sorry your DH is being insensitive though and hope he manages to come around by the time you have your scan. Oh and when I start feeling baby move, it feels like rubber bands snapping.

Tasha-glad your scan went well and you got to see baby rockin' and rollin' in there!

Lee-hang in there. We all know line progression can be a crock and spotting could be nothing but PARL nerves almost demand we do SOMETHING to monitor things and if peeing on sticks is all that's available, we'll probably do it. Hopefully your bloods show things are going okay and you'll be able to get a scan in a few weeks that'll show bubs is where he/she belongs.

 

[dairymomma]

Just had to post one more time because I noticed my last one was #30999. Amazing how we're at 31,000 posts on this thread now...