PAL - February 2013 rainbow babies

[PerpetualMama]

Congrats Rosebud, Hope88, and flutterbaby on the wonderful scans, so happy everything is going well and little ones are right on track! Woot!

One more week til my first OB appt, almost in reach! Ebay notice says my Sonoline fetal doppler was shipped today...I wonder if it will come before my appt, or even before my scan?
Yes there was a link to the FDA on the ebay auction page, but it was not valid. I have to assume I am eligible to buy it because it says it shipped

So, it is official...I have completely fallen in love with my little one despite all efforts to be cautious, despite my fears, despite the fact that I haven't seen him/her yet, despite the fact that I could possibly end up hurt again. I knew I was a gonner the minute I caught my self talking to my little puffy belly and warm fuzzies spread through me

As for food aversions I start with the dry heaves every time I open the refrigerator. I hate the smell of cooking red meat, but chicken is wonderful. Carrots, and spinach, and cashews make me want to hurl even though I ate them every day before my BFP. Cashews now smell like rotting vegetables
It is such a major challenge to find food that doesn't turn my stomach

 

[AllMacsNow]

I'm with you, Perpetual. I don't even understand where some of my aversions came from... they used to be some of my favorites.

I'm just praying I can hold on to chicken... otherwise, I'm in serious protein trouble, lol.

Is anyone else having trouble doing the grocery shopping? I've had trouble the last 3 or 4 times I went, but today was particularly bad. My fault, because I hadn't eaten much before we went, but still. I don't know if it's all of the walking around with no chance for rest, or the combinations of all of the food smells, or what, but oh boy, I spent the whole time we were there (and the whole way home) just gagging. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. Just thinking about it's got my stomach roiling again. Blech.

 

[PerpetualMama]

I'm with you, Perpetual. I don't even understand where some of my aversions came from... they used to be some of my favorites.

I'm just praying I can hold on to chicken... otherwise, I'm in serious protein trouble, lol.

Is anyone else having trouble doing the grocery shopping? I've had trouble the last 3 or 4 times I went, but today was particularly bad. My fault, because I hadn't eaten much before we went, but still. I don't know if it's all of the walking around with no chance for rest, or the combinations of all of the food smells, or what, but oh boy, I spent the whole time we were there (and the whole way home) just gagging. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. Just thinking about it's got my stomach roiling again. Blech.

Dear God yes...the smells, the crowds, the mere fact that I have to look at food makes my stomach twist every time I walk in. Unfortunately I'm shopping for 7 (and 1/5 haha) so there are no quick trips for me blech!

 

[Blue eyes 81]

I am feeling a bit uneasy today!
I will be 8 weeks tomorrow and have an us on Tuesday at 8w 2d.
My uneasiness is stemming from our loss in October, with that pregnancy
our first us was at 8w 5d and that apt was devastating the babies hb was only
50 bpm and a week later they could not find a heart beat. I ended up mc naturally at
11w 5d Everyone keeps telling me not to worry because I have been being monitored
and this pregnancy is moving along so much better then the last (Hb 6w 1d 109, 6w 4d 119, 6w 6d 139 and 7w 1d 150) They all keep saying "this one will stick" .
To prove her point my mom even bought a crib to keep at her house for the baby .
Even with knowing all this I am petrified. This week and next are going to be difficult
for me because of all the what ifs. With all the great scans I have had am I crazy for having the fear that history is going to repeat itself?

 

[AllMacsNow]

Blue, you're not crazy... this is what PAL does to us. Everything you're feeling is totally justified, even though it's going to turn out that your baby is fine. It's so natural to be afraid. Especially coming up on the time you lost your last baby... it's a mental milestone we all have to cross... I feel lucky that mine was so early on. I'm still terrified, but at least know that I've gotten farther along. I'll bet you'll start to feel better once you pass those dates too.

 

[Blue eyes 81]

Blue, you're not crazy... this is what PAL does to us. Everything you're feeling is totally justified, even though it's going to turn out that your baby is fine. It's so natural to be afraid. Especially coming up on the time you lost your last baby... it's a mental milestone we all have to cross... I feel lucky that mine was so early on. I'm still terrified, but at least know that I've gotten farther along. I'll bet you'll start to feel better once you pass those dates too.

Thanks.
Sometimes I feel like the people around me do not understand because they thankfully have never dealt with infertility or a loss it is truly a blessing to be able to talk to others who understand all the milestones and nerves.

 

[AllMacsNow]

You're right... there aren't many people who really understand. And if they don't understand, there's really NOTHING anyone can say.

It's so nice to have people to talk to who DO understand.

 

[shocker]

So, it is official...I have completely fallen in love with my little one despite all efforts to be cautious, despite my fears, despite the fact that I haven't seen him/her yet, despite the fact that I could possibly end up hurt again. I knew I was a gonner the minute I caught my self talking to my little puffy belly and warm fuzzies spread through me

This made me smile so much! I'm putting my hand up too, absoloutly head over heals for my little rainbow bump and if i get hurt again? at least I will know that while this little baby was with me they were more loved than some people are in their whole lives! I still have to get to 14 weeks 5 days til I'm further than last time, but I just have a good feeling today and thats good enough for me

Blue your not crazy, your PAL! Its the scariest thing ever and every slight thing is over analaysed because we're human and its impossible not to think the worst when you've experienced something as heartbreaking as a loss, just think, you have gotten this far, everything is going so great and all these signs are pointing to you bringing home a rainbow baby in a few months time! Just spend the next few days til the u/s being kind to yourself, if you feel a little upset/scared let it out, sit around watching rubbish comedy films if it takes your mind of worrying! Tuesday that bean will be perfect xx

 

[Lulu]

So much good news just now, this is fantastic It's giving me a little more faith that I need just now.

Blue Eyes, Shocker, AllMacs - I totally agree it's so difficult to talk to anyone else sometimes, even my DH. Try as he might, at times he just doesn't get how scary this all is just now. I've barely any symptoms at all and I know that as I'm just passed 6 weeks it's still a little early for strong symptoms but it's still freaking me out a bit.

PerpetualMama - your comment made me smile I'm feeling like this too, trying to be cautious with my emotions 'just in case' but at the same time wanting to enjoy being pregnant and not worry too much.

I go through period of hating 1st tri and then trying to be more rational and calm myself down. I have my first appointment with my midwife on 23rd so just over 2 weeks and then possibly 3/4 weeks after than I'll get a scan. The next 2 weeks are going to drag!!!!!

Great news everyone, I'm really happy for everyone

 

[Wiggler]

Sorry I have been a bit quiet ladies. I had some spotting earlier its stopped now thankfully and my symptoms are stronger than ever so trying not to worry too much as hard as that is.

x x x

 

[Blue eyes 81]

Sorry I have been a bit quiet ladies. I had some spotting earlier its stopped now thankfully and my symptoms are stronger than ever so trying not to worry too much as hard as that is.

x x x

So glad you are feeling better.

 

[flutterbaby]

Sorry I have been a bit quiet ladies. I had some spotting earlier its stopped now thankfully and my symptoms are stronger than ever so trying not to worry too much as hard as that is.

x x x

bless you hun

 

[PerpetualMama]

Sorry I have been a bit quiet ladies. I had some spotting earlier its stopped now thankfully and my symptoms are stronger than ever so trying not to worry too much as hard as that is.

x x x

Hang in there wiggler you're in my prayers this morning

 

[PerpetualMama]

I am feeling a bit uneasy today!
I will be 8 weeks tomorrow and have an us on Tuesday at 8w 2d.
My uneasiness is stemming from our loss in October, with that pregnancy
our first us was at 8w 5d and that apt was devastating the babies hb was only
50 bpm and a week later they could not find a heart beat. I ended up mc naturally at
11w 5d Everyone keeps telling me not to worry because I have been being monitored
and this pregnancy is moving along so much better then the last (Hb 6w 1d 109, 6w 4d 119, 6w 6d 139 and 7w 1d 150) They all keep saying "this one will stick" .
To prove her point my mom even bought a crib to keep at her house for the baby .
Even with knowing all this I am petrified. This week and next are going to be difficult
for me because of all the what ifs. With all the great scans I have had am I crazy for having the fear that history is going to repeat itself?

I understand too...I just passed the age/time frame where I lost my last baby, and I was a moody nervous wreck. I don't think I will be completely at ease until I hold this little one, and seeing the baby on a scan will also help. I'm expecting delivery of my doppler early this week .
DH doesn't get it. He's been bugging me for and I know it's crazy to fear spotting etc, and I know it doesn't cause a m/c, but I think if I saw spotting at this point in the pg I would completely lose it. DH figured out my problem the other day and said it was stupid because doesn't cause m/c. So, I brought up a hang up he has that is the result of a "scarey" event he experinced over 40 years ago, something that will NEVER in any lifetime happen again, and said "if you can still have this fear after over 40 years, why should my tragic event not still cause me trepidation after only 4?" And trust me, losing a baby is way worse than the little fright he got as a kid. He kind of understood my point, but wants to know "when you gonna put out?" (Supposed to be this weekend since I'm just past the point I'd be expecting AF, and I'm past the date of loss. Thus far I have been too exhausted and nauseous. Still terrified )

 

[hope88]

Me and dp havent had sex since i found out and im 9w3d im so scared of spotting a mc after having sex as well im lucky as dp hasnt bugged me for it as he knows im worried i think as soon as ive had my 12 week scan i give it a try i dont even feel like it i think i cud quite happily go the whole 9 months without having sex lol

 

[Diamonddust]

Lovely news on all the scans ladies I'm so pleased for you all

Blue eyes, Tuesday is going to be here soon and everything is going to be perfect, I am sure of it, everything that's gone on this pregnancy has been great and I'm sure that the next scan will show baby growing allot more and everything as it should be xxx

I love that comment Perpetual Mama I'm so happy for you! Sending you ginormous hugs! Xxx

Afm I have been tucked up in bed for most of the weekend with my lovely sickness OH has been amazing and has looked after me really well, I am craving for sour cream it's beyond yummy!

I'm a little "backed up" and it's driving me nuts I need to try and eat lots of fiber as I seriously need to get back "on track"

I got my booking appointment, 25th July at 12.30 looking forward to meeting the midwife she was lovely on the phone, should also get my scan date, but I think we are going to book one this week coming just to check up on things!

 

[debzie]

Hello ladies been awol trying to take my mind off all things baby. I unlike many of you are trying my best not to form any attachment. After three losses I have found that its just easier. I have had somebody terrible cramps since Thursday and been dog tired. Scan 08.40 in the morning if all is work then I will be over the point where I lost no.2 and my final twin. I will alliw myself to get excited tomorrow. If all.is well then I have my booking in on tuesday.

 

[PerpetualMama]

Hello ladies been awol trying to take my mind off all things baby. I unlike many of you are trying my best not to form any attachment. After three losses I have found that its just easier. I have had somebody terrible cramps since Thursday and been dog tired. Scan 08.40 in the morning if all is work then I will be over the point where I lost no.2 and my final twin. I will alliw myself to get excited tomorrow. If all.is well then I have my booking in on tuesday.

Debzie! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for a perfect scan tomorrow. Hope you feel better soon...Good luck sweets!

 

[Blue eyes 81]

Hello ladies been awol trying to take my mind off all things baby. I unlike many of you are trying my best not to form any attachment. After three losses I have found that its just easier. I have had somebody terrible cramps since Thursday and been dog tired. Scan 08.40 in the morning if all is work then I will be over the point where I lost no.2 and my final twin. I will alliw myself to get excited tomorrow. If all.is well then I have my booking in on tuesday.

I wish you the best of luck at your scan!

 

[NT123]

I can understand that debzie, I'm trying not to get attached to this pregnancy either, I see no point in falling in love, despite having a clear scan as its not until I pass 9+6 and I see all is well beyond that that I will start to relax. I just can't allow an attachment to something I view so much as a maybe...