PAL - February 2013 rainbow babies

[AllMacsNow]

Due dates are so hard I pray that you both get through yours.

Lulu, maybe it's just me, but I think that day would be so hard, I'd love to get some encouraging good news of a healthy strong growing baby to help me through it.

 

[rosebud111]

the would have been due dates are bittersweet aren't they? my due date would have been this week also. glad we are all here to support each other!

i have a doppler question for the doppler pros! i tried it last night and this morning and the only thing i have found are my arteries. i was so sad and now i'm full of worry again that something is wrong. any suggestions?? how did you find hb?

 

[AllMacsNow]

Rosebud, I wasn't able to find it on my own. Was starting to get worried, but my husband found it eventually... I had to lay completely flat on the ground, and he found it WAY lower on my body than I expected... off to the right slightly, and just SLIGHTLY above my pubic bone. Plus, he had to angle the actual wand down even farther (meaning that it wasn't quite perpendicular to my belly... it was at an angle. )

Good luck, honey.

 

[debzie]

due dates are so tough....hugs.


Doppler wise I found mine at first just abouvw my hair line again angled down. Mine was on the left but its more center now.

 

[Jessica28]

I am getting an early ultrasound! Have to call for the appointment on Monday!

 

[AllMacsNow]

YAY Jessica! Keep us updated!

 

[PerpetualMama]

Have been extemely sesitive and teary today. It was 4 years ago tonight that I started to miscarry. DH was saying last night that he doesn't WANT a girl (and I think LO is a girl) and all day all I could think of was a little girl trying so hard to please her daddy and never quite being accepted. Not that I think he'd necessarily do that, but what he said and how he said it really upset me last night. At dinner I asked him straight out if he was going to have a problem if it was a girl and he said no, and that he's a big softie and would probably melt the second he held her. After dinner we went to the store and I dragged him to the baby section (I needed something to pick me up) and he was picking out tutus and pink stuff, half grumbling that it probably really is a girl (we outnumber the boys in our house...4 menstrauting women in one house ). Then DH surprised the heck out of me and starts checking out strollers (hot pink ones) and picking his favorite. We aren't buying anything, not for a long while yet.

AFM, I "celebrate" my angel's would have been birthday every year. "she" gets a special birthday status on my Facebook page without fail. I also recall her heartbeat day, and the end day of her loss. All these days are generally a little down for me. She would be four March 11. (actually it probably would have been later because I'm never on time!)

Doppler-wise, sometimes it takes me a while to find the h/b and it's always faint but super quick. I think the baby has its back to my spine, and I have to angle the wand often.

 

[PerpetualMama]

woohoo i'm so happy to see all the scans and so many of you getting to or crossing that 12 week milestone! this is so exciting and makes it all seem so much more real!

i am hoping my doppler arrives today! can't wait to try it. i am a little bummed. my 12 week appt is scheduled for august 10 and DH can not take off work that day. there is just no way. my options are to change my appt but that isn't likely since my dr. is always booked and the NT scan has to be done that week or i am thinking of taking my mother w/me. only thing is that she will cry the whole time! she is already so emotional and happy.

morning sickness is so much better now too. i still feel it a little when i'm hungry but it is has gotten so much better. how are you ladies feeling today? are any of you showing yet?

I'm showing...lots of bloat and fatty-cakes there's no denying the pregnancy

how cute you are showing! are you wearing maternity pants/shorts yet? i am still not sure if i am showing or if it's bloat. my boss asked my coworker if i was pregnant so i guess maybe people are starting to suspect that i'm not just getting fat ha! will probably come clean w/my boss next week.

I am wearing maternity shorts becasue recently lost over 10 lbs and bought all new shorts, and I only had a few pairs that I kept of the old ones. The new shorts got packed away in early July, and the old shorts lasted me until just over a week ago. Mornings I look "slimmer" than evenings. Weighed myself this AM and put on 4-5 lbs in 2 weeks! I'm stunned. My problem is the constant need to eat, and everything I usually eat makes my stomach turn, so I have been eating stuff I ordinarily wouldn't. Now that I'm feeling slightly better I need to start walking again.

this morning's 11 week picture ( I take one each Friday morning)

 

[AllMacsNow]

Oh, Perpetual, I'm sorry. I hope you get through today ok.

I am sure that your DH will be over the moon with whatever you end up having. The fact that he was looking at all of that pink stuff just SHOWS what a softie he will be.

I LOVE going to the baby section... but am so scared to buy anything but little socks and onesies, lol.

 

[AllMacsNow]

Great pic! We take one every night with my hubs kissing my belly, and then once a week, we take one of me and the bump holding up a sign about what week we're on and what's currently developing. It'll be fun to go back and see them develop. Oh yeah, and once a week with DS (12) kissing my belly.

 

[PerpetualMama]

great idea AllMAcsNow...real sweet memories to have

I so wanted to buy the little pink newborn beanies, but a hunch on gender is not a reason to go pink/blue. I will not buy anything until after I know the gender. Then I'll be 20 weeks along and feel safer. I was thinking of waitiing to find out gender, but I figure 20 weeks is a good amount of time to get used to the idea of a girl if it's a girl!

 

[hope88]

Heya. I had my 12 week scan and NT baby was just perfect measuring on time baby wasnt hardly moving which got me worried the ladie got me to cough and wiggle my bum and baby moved alittle then went back to sleep but had a lovely strong heartbeat and she said everythings looking great and she wasnt worried. I googled about 12 week acans where baby doesnt move much and read that some womens babys were like that and they had a very active little one at there 20 week scan that made me feel alittle better

 

[PerpetualMama]

Heya. I had my 12 week scan and NT baby was just perfect measuring on time baby wasnt hardly moving which got me worried the ladie got me to cough and wiggle my bum and baby moved alittle then went back to sleep but had a lovely strong heartbeat and she said everythings looking great and she wasnt worried. I googled about 12 week acans where baby doesnt move much and read that some womens babys were like that and they had a very active little one at there 20 week scan that made me feel alittle better

glad your scan went well and baby has to sleep sometime, Mum

 

[hope88]

Lol and he/she chooses right at scan time defo takes after daddy lol

 

[debzie]

Hope I am sooo happy for you hun. Have you still got the same EDD.

 

[hope88]

Yes still got the same edd 7th feb two days after my birthday going to be best birthday pressie ever

 

[dreamofabump]

Hey ladies wondered if i could join this thread had a mmc 6 years ago and tried for this lil bean for over three years... basiclly i got my scan on monday and im soo scared. im that scared ive been trying to think of reasons not to go. i cant help but fear the worst. i just dont want my world to end xxx

 

[PerpetualMama]

Hey ladies wondered if i could join this thread had a mmc 6 years ago and tried for this lil bean for over three years... basiclly i got my scan on monday and im soo scared. im that scared ive been trying to think of reasons not to go. i cant help but fear the worst. i just dont want my world to end xxx

First: I'm so sorry for your loss. It is a life changing horrible thing to go through, and we never really do move past it completely.
Second:The first scan is always a "breath holder". We have all been nervous for our first scans after losing a baby, all afraid history will repeat itself. You've come to the right place welcome!
How far along were you with your loss? Was it a missed mc where you thought everything was ok and then found out it wasn't?

Don't make up excuses not to go, as scared as you are it is better to know and see--AND, you'll feel infinitely better once you've had the scan and have seen for yourself that your little one is bee-bopping around in there, arms and legs gesturing, and heartbeat pounding away! I know it is a scarey thing, especially since you have been trying for so long, and you're filled with dread (most of us have been) when you really want to be feeling the excitement you think you should be feeling. my new friend, know that you're in my thoughts and prayers, and we'll be rooting for everything to go splendidly on Monday! Feel free to come on here and vent your fears and frustrations. I have found the ladies to be the most awesome support during this scarey first trimester

 

[NT123]

Dreamingofabump I just wanted to welcome you and repeat exactly what perpetualmama said. I can't say it any better! I'm just over 11 weeks and despite having had one nhs scan and one private scan already that shows a heartbeat, I'm looking for reason that when I go to that scan that it's gone wrong, just like last time. Ive never been so scared in my whole life and i csnt connect whats on screen with any real excitement yet and even when i get the ok at 12 weeks im not sure how i will even feel then. You must go to your scan, I try to look at it as ripping of the band aid, it's better than not knowing and possibly stressing yourself out that something is wrong that isn't. It's an emotional risk to all of us and we are here if u need us, want a rant, or need to let out some fear. One or other of us can identify believe you me. Good luck hon and let us know how it goes. X

 

[dreamofabump]

You ladies are amazing so welcoming your both right and i know i need to kick the fear and just go. im glad its in the morning so i wont have to wait all day yeah my last lil bean i found out i lost at 7 weeks at my scan. its soo wierd how sonething came scare you for life i truely thought i had moved on from that thank you for replying and hope we all have our sticky lil beans xxxx