Little Logan is simply scrumptious!
I'm doing OK, thanks. Finding the wait until next Wednesday to see if we have a heartbeat so difficult.
Had quite a comical situation this morning (well, it was still the night) - I really wanted to do a last test today, wanting to see the progression to 3+ ... well, I woke in the night bursting for the loo (as usual) and ... couldn't really see what I was doing in the dark, but thought I had aimed well. The test didn't work at all *lol* didn't do any measuring, just stayed blank. I know many of you had said to stay away from the digi - but I really wanted to have that progression for my (already started *lool*) photo album.
Well - I guess fate just decided for me
So that's it, no more testing *looool*
Other news (I know it's super early) - on Wednesday we went to an open house at midwife-led centre, I have already known even before this success (in fact, for years), that at the thought of going into the hospital, I get all panicky ... terrified of interventions etc. So this would be a good compromise solution for me. Really loved the centre, the rooms, the birthing bath and the midwives are soooo lovely. (They do have - if necessary - excellent clinics just around the corner, both for birthing as well as for babies)...
I basically felt, if that is where I would like to have my baby, then I would have my check-ups there as well. So that the relationship with the midwives is close. Basically, once you go in to deliver, you have one midwife there observing you the whole time (from a distance / giving help if you need it) and because there is not constantly changing personnel and pretty much constant observation of the progress, they can tell if things aren't going to plan early enough. There are also doctors.. So if you go there for the checks and really get to know each other as well as the location, it feels "homely". The clinic atmosphere in hospitals just starts me panicking - probably making things even more painful.
Of course, if in the course of the pregnancy, something becomes risky, then I would never put the child's (and my) safety on the line and would naturally go to the hospital - but this is my first line of choice.
We made an appointment for a first meeting - March 27th (funnily enough, that was my parent's wedding date back in 1965). I showed the midwife the picture of Pünktchen and she said that it looked really good and that Pünktchen had chosen a very good spot to nestle in (comforting to hear that) and she said that it was good coming early - a spot in November would be guaranteed!
Other than that ... feeling fine - just really tired. And weeing like a world champion... Wish I knew that everything is going OK! That Pünktchen is well and that its heart will be flickering away on Wednesday... My bloating seems to have got better ... still feeling the ovaries, but nothing too dramatic... I feel like pressure in the abdomen region, but that's it. I so pray that everything is OK. I feel at peace and I feel so positive about everything ... I guess the fear never really goes away, does it
How are you doing Stinas?