Petrified of losing again..

[Khadijah-x]

Petrified of another loss I am trying to enjoy this pregnancy as much as possible and not to stress myself out as that isn't good for either of us!

But after 2 losses 3 months apart in 2010/2011 at 8 and a half weeks, I am fully on edge until we get past that stage

Every twinge, I am checking in the toilet, I feel discharge down there and I am running to check it's not blood (even though my first loss was a MMC so even no blood isn't a good sign for me).

I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism after my losses and told that it may have been the reason. Now I am medicated and my levels are settled, I am also under a consultant being kept an eye on, everything should be fine.

But what if my losses weren't because of that? What about if there is something else wrong with me? But maybe my losses weren't even due to my thyroid and were just due to bad timing (which it sure as hell was) and that God wanted better for me and my angels. I do try and tell myself that and that now I am married, settled and happy that its my time to be a mummy.

I just can't seem to shake the feeling of dread..

We have an early scan next week at 7 weeks but my previous losses were at 8 and a half weeks so will this scan even reassure me?

 

[Nanaki]

I am with you but it was my 1st loss and scared if it happens again all I can say is don't worry too much and think something positive sorry I couldn't say much...

 

[Khadijah-x]

I am with you but it was my 1st loss and scared if it happens again all I can say is don't worry too much and think something positive sorry I couldn't say much...

Thank you! I am sorry for your loss. I hope everything goes great for us this time ♡

 

[Baby.Love12]

Hi. I am newly pregnant after a blighted ovum a year ago. Sometimes I am afraid and other times I am feeling really positive. My hcg levels have been doubling normally for the last week so we shall see. Cant wait for the first scan but also really apprehensive.

 

[lol2811]

I completely understand how you are feeling.

I had a MC at 6 1/2 weeks in September, and also one before my Little boy (who is now 2).

I want to be excited and enjoy this time, but I am so scared that it will happen again. I am 6w3d (based on LMP but cycle usually around 30 days) My doctor has done bloods:

4w6d = 1046
5w4d = 8445

Thinking they are ok levels but still so scared.

I also have a private scan booked for Friday, but time seems to be dragging so much this week. Just want to know if everything is ok.

Good luck xx

 

[Khadijah-x]

Thank you and sorry for your losses. Your pregnancies sound promising and sounds like you are being kept a close eye on

All should progress normally God willing! I feel more positive about this pregnancy have done from the beginning, but today I had an appt with a consultant and knowing your looked after makes all the difference!

 

[flou]

I am so sorry for your losses. I have my fxd for all of you and I hope you all get your rainbows this time. This is my third pregnancy but with what will hopefully be my first child. Me and my DH started this journey nearly 4 years ago and we had 2 early losses at 6 weeks which took us awhile to conceive. But I became pregnant with my little one a month before my second angel was due and all is well so far. And I will be due next month. The anxiety never truly goes but it does get easier. Take each day as it comes and I would say to myself, especially in the early days, today I am pregnant and for that I am truly grateful. I still have to say it now but it really has helped me to relax and enjoy my pregnancy. I just can't wait to hold my little boy in my arms.

 

[Khadijah-x]

I am so sorry for your losses. I have my fxd for allof you and I hope you all get your rainbows this time. This is my third pregnancy but with what will hopefully be my first child. Me and my DH started this journey nearly 4 years ago and we had 2 early losses at 6 weeks which took us awhile to conceive. But I became pregnant with my little one a month before my second angel was due and all is well so far. And I will be due next month. The anxiety never truly goes but it does get easier. Take each day as it comes and I would say to myself, especially in the early days, today I am pregnant and for that I am truly grateful. I still have to say it now but it really has helped me to relax and enjoy my pregnancy. I just can't wait to hold my little boy in my arms.

Amazing!! What a journey I am so super happy for you and that you are so close to having your little boy here after such a long journey. Light at the end of the tunnel for us all. Thank you ♡♡♡♡

 

[Septie]

I also had two losses last year. After the first one, I was diagnosed with thyroid problems (and I am quite sure that loss was due to my thyroid, as I was suffering *major* heart palpitations towards the end of that pregnancy - one of the possible symptoms of an off thyroid). I am now 14 weeks, and have been suffering from major anxiety problems. Have been having some spotting, including around 13 weeks; some other strange issues...And I am of advanced maternal age, with a low AMH - basically this is my last shot. I am so terrified as well, always checking for spotting, fearing the next ultrasound... I think I won't be able to relax until the baby is here (if it comes).

 

[Khadijah-x]

I also had two losses last year. After the first one, I was diagnosed with thyroid problems (and I am quite sure that loss was due to my thyroid, as I was suffering *major* heart palpitations towards the end of that pregnancy - one of the possible symptoms of an off thyroid). I am now 14 weeks, and have been suffering from major anxiety problems. Have been having some spotting, including around 13 weeks; some other strange issues...And I am of advanced maternal age, with a low AMH - basically this is my last shot. I am so terrified as well, always checking for spotting, fearing the next ultrasound... I think I won't be able to relax until the baby is here (if it comes).

Bless you. How awful. Isn't pregnancy the most exciting yet scary thing we will ever do! Have you got past your previous loss gestation? I think that's where I need to be to relaxed somewhat although will never fully relax! Even when our little ones are here, we will constantly worry about them then too. It's never ending ♡ will will get our rainbows. This is a different pregnancy and a different time xx

 

[StarAngel]

Flou thats really inspirational and was exactly what I needed, I am pregnant with my second, having lost my first 4months ago I am so scared that I am aftaid to get my hopes up in case it happens again, I have my app with my doctor this week, I lost my angel at 13weeks and am 5weeks gone this time and I feel like until I get over the 13wks I cant be excited. something I really dont want. I want to be excited now . I have to remind myself that this pregnancy is not the same as the last. My bro and his gf announced they were expecting their first and I was thrilled firstly with their news and secondly that they decided to tell the family as I felt the attention was off me. I feel so awful for feeling this way. I am meditating now to keep myself relaxed. Please God hopefully all well go smoothly.

 

[flou]

I have my fx for you star. I hope this is a sticky bean and I wish you a h&h 9 months!

 

[Andypanda6570]

Just wanted to wish you all the best of luck .. After I lost Ava at 40 yrs old, I just didn't have it in me to try agian. Now at almost 45 I wont. I admire you all and love to come to this forum and read about everyone, it makes me feel good.. All the best to you all XOXOOX

 

[monkeysmommy]

Sorry for your loss.
I am 10 weeks 3 days (2/21/2015) and am petrified as my first pregnancy ended in a loss, a natural miscarriage.
I didn't know I was pregnant so I am petrified of losing this one as well, so I definitely know your pain. I've got an appointment on Feb 23rd and hoping for an ultrasound.
Have heard the heartbeat a couple times on the home Doppler, but still not the same until I hear it on the ultrasound.
Praying this is your miracle.