Pg again after m/c in Oct could use a friend

[dairymomma]

This is my 11th pregnancy in 6 years. I have 2 kids. If you do the math, I've had 8 prior miscarriages and being as I'm somewhere between 4-5 weeks pg this time and I've typically m/c between 7-9.5 weeks, I still have a LONG way to go. So I could use a friend (or two) (or even more!) to commiserate with, compare symptoms (or bemoan the lack thereof), and basically hold my hand (I'll do my best to hold yours too though) as I try to make it to 9 months this time.

A little back history (read my . 3 early miscarriages before a doctor diagnosed me with low progesterone levels. Went on progesterone and baby aspirin with DS and made is successfully to term. 8 months later I had a m/c (a blighted ovum) before having DD a year after that. Since DD, I've had a 2nd tri loss at 15 weeks (no hb detected at 14), a m/c at 9+4, and 2 blighted ovums-the most recent of which was last month.

So I'm understandably scared and second-guessing every suspected ache, pain, and twinge, fearing symptom loss at five minute intervals, and just trying to stay sane as I count the minutes til today is over so tomorrow can start and I'm one more day pregnant.

Oh and I'm due July 14/15/16. Not sure exact dates as I didn't get AF after my last miscarriage and opks put me around 4+5 weeks today.

 

[ferozi12]

Hi dairymomma,
I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. I've had two miscarriages in the past year and I know how nerve wracking it can be! I'm 6+3 today and having an early ultrasound in the afternoon because of brown spotting and I'm freaking out! But just think about the little bundle of happiness you could very well have inside you right now-you have two kids so that's a great sign that things can go well. Feel free to PM me if you want a buddy. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you-and hope I'm still on this board with good news to report after my scan.

 

[dairymomma]

FX your ultrasound goes well! I just got word that I'll have an early ultrasound next week to date my pregnancy. Since I'll only be 6+1 according to ov, I'm terrified they won't be able to see anything. Hope I get thru the next week and a half without going nuts...Morning sickness is back and bbs aren't sore but feeling larger than normal and pretty dense so something's going on.

 

[ferozi12]

My ultrasound DID go well! They did it internally. I also measured 6+1 and we were able to see a tiny baby and heartbeat of 122bpm! I'm sure once you've had the scan you will be much more reassured, so I'm happy they offered you one

 

[dairymomma]

Yay! Lovely that you got to see bubs and a nice hb too! I hope my ultrasound goes as well as yours did! I'm fully expecting to have a transvaginal scan due to my dates but I'm hoping they can see something other than an empty sac.

 

[elleff]

Hey you! Congratulations!! I'm so pleased to see you're pregnant again
Looks like you had another mc after the one a few months ago? I'm so sorry. I just want to say good luck to you, I'll be thinking about you xx

 

[dairymomma]

Thanks elleff. Yeah, I had a blighted ovum that I miscarried at 7 weeks in early October. This bfp came without an AF inbetween it and the miscarriage so I'm highly nervous to say the least. I'm spotting and aching/cramping already but trying not to go crazy with worry. It's hard but I'll have some answers tomorrow. I have an ultrasound scheduled and hopefully there will be good news (a bubs and hb) but I'm half prepared for bad news too. Whatever happens with this, I just want it over with. I'm SO tired of being in limbo and wondering Am I or Aren't I?

 

[swampmaiden]

Hows things going so far dairymomma?
I recognize you from another thread, Pregnancy after Loss. I just started spotting today but as my doctors office is jammed packed, they said I just have to wait until my regularly scheduled appt on Monday.. 6 more days away.

 

[dairymomma]

Swampmaiden-not so good actually. I'm spotting more and jumping at every little twinge and cramp, most of which are probably imagined. And I guess I can't really even call it spotting per se. It's pink-tinged cm and pink pee when I wipe. My urine isn't stained pink and because it's in my cervical mucus, I'm guessing it's coming from my cervix/uterus. Being as it's Thanksgiving on Thursday, it's unlikely I'd get in for another ultrasound at this point so I'm going to try and hold out til my appt next week. So I'm stuck waiting too. I feel for you. Being in limbo is NOT fun...

 

[swampmaiden]

No, it isnt. Things have a way of having the most unperfect timing too, Im going to be so upset if I wind up miscarrying on Thanksgiving, as this year Im hosting. But even more so just the thought of another mc is depressing... I thought maybe I was going to be fine as this morning there was no more brown, but after going shopping today and running around a bit, when I got home there was slightly pink tinged brown goo when i wiped. Not good.

Have your symptoms disappeared? Mine are starting to fade, hoping its just in my head, as my boobs are still sore but no more nausea nor heartburn nor extreme tiredness... if anything physically I feel great. It sucks

 

[dairymomma]

U/s confirmed bubs is still okay. Measuring right on at 7+3 (I know my ticker is still off but it's only by a day so I'm leaving it...) and the hb was 152. My symptoms faded slightly but I've never been one to get super strong pg symptoms anyway so it doesn't worry me. I'm nauseated every morning, have heartburn alot, and my bbs are seriously MASSIVE. I'm falling out of a DD! I feel like I have two basketballs attached to my chest...And spotting stopped. Whew!

Swamp-I hope this is just a scare for you. I'm hoping/praying/wishing/etc. that that's all it is.