Hey gals!
Anyone else trying for #2?
I've always thought that since #1 came as a surprise, I wouldn't have any problems with getting preg another time. It turned out I was wrong. The LO is 1 1/2 yrs old, and I got my period like in early April, second one end of May, which makes my cycle like 50 days long.
I kind of felt that I needed my homone levels getting checked, so I went to a fertiltiy treatment center. Got blood drawn a million times, and now the doc told me that I don't seem to ovulate. The LO obviously was a result of total luck....
Anyway, I just started clomid and for some reason I feel so weird, planning to get pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I went to that treatment center in the first place, I really wanted to get pregnant...
...but now, all the question come along, like: Will the LO be old enough to become a "big sister"? She'll start day care in August, and I seriously wonder if I will be able cope (it's probably harder for the mommy than it is for the LO... yes, I admit that!). But will I be able to cope when pregnant as well? People told me starting day care would be very hard for the moms, emotionally seen.
Then I graduate at the end of the year. Not easy to explain, I basically have to take exams. Can you do that when you are pregnant? All these questions go through my mind, all of a sudden - why didn't I think of these before I started trying actively for #2?
And at the same, I don't want to wait. I want my family complete, like mom, dad, 2 kids. Don't even care if boy or girl as I've always wanted a girl and already have one. I feel kind of bad, going for my dream of having a family, when rationally seen it would be better to wait until I'm done with the exams.... haaah... the confusion.
Anyone feeling similar?