dear kaysha...feelin for you babe...but if it helps I am mama to wee fella born 30 +6 very suddenly with no warnings...he was severely underweight for his length and gestation..born at 2lb 6oz. but 2 months in NICU with tender loving care from all the team and we go home. wee guy is packing 8lb 6 now at 15weeks since birth and full of spirit. s/he just needs you and if you can stand the endless boredom and hassle express milk for him/her then do it... its horrendously knackering but makes a HUGE difference to the long term health of a prem, preventing all sorts of illness pre due date. I've been through it so my heart goes out to you...be strong lass and when little one appears try and just take one hour or day at a time. hopefully you will have friends and family around to help you through that bit...that said my greatest allies were other parents in the unit, no-one else understands really. x