PLEASE help me!!!!!!!!

[IzzyAnt88]

I went off birth control in November BUT MY CYCLES WERE ALWAYS IRREGULAR. My last AF was April 20th and June 1st and August 3rd. So last cycle was 64 DAYS and the one before that was 40 DAYS. Before that I was not counting but still irregular. I think I get about 3-4 eggs a year.

I have had testing done but they said it was "normal" and just to wait and keep trying. I'm young, it will work out, etc. But I KNOW in my HEART there is a problem here that needs fixing. My cycles have never been normal. Ever since I was a little girl I had the fear and the feeling that I could not have children or that it may be very hard for me.

When I asked my doctor if my blood test results were accurate even though they weren't done on CD3 they said that since my levels of everything were normal, that it didn't matter what day they were done. They told me that if something had been ABNORMAL then it would have mattered because they would have asked the question "ok is this abnormal because it's abnormal or is this just abnormal because it's not CD3" and THEN they would be sure to do a test on CD3.

I ask because tomorrow is CD3 for me apparently (seem to have a light AF right now I am guessing because my last cycle of 64 DAYS was annovulatory) and I don't know if I should call and INSIST on a CD3 test.

I have an appointment on August 24th to go see a specialist but by then I will need to wait for my next CD3 and who knows how long that will take.

I feel a sense of urgency because right now I am devastated. My husband's cousin and his GF JUST found out they were pregnant. Like an hour ago. They are living with us. I can not begin to describe how difficult this is for me. I feel like I can't breathe. When we bought our house we imagined our second bedroom as a nursery. I dreamed about it and was so happy. Well I NEVER would have thought it would be THEIR nursery. Worse still, they are naming their baby the same name as ours if it's a girl. And they are living out our dream of moving back to Mexico. It's like someone literally stole my dream piece by piece. AND they have only been together 6 months AND can not support themselves AND they were barely trying. I really like them and want to be happy for them but it's so hard. It's cruel but I just can't be happy. Hubby and I have been together 10 years and waited and waited and waited to try. We waited until his immigration status was complete (this couple's status is not), we waited until I had a good job, we waited until we bought a house. It's soo unfair I feel like it's a cruel twisted joke. We did everything right. They just barely got together and decided to not take precautions and boom! And it's in my face: Here's the baby, here's the nursery, but it's not yours!!!!! While they're over there all excited and happy - Meanwhile I'll just be over here dealing with infertility testing & clomid, etc. !!! I don't know what to even think or feel. I feel numb. I think I have to go home from work. I can't function.

I hope someone here understands.. nobody else really does. Hubby is upset too but I think mainly because he knows I am upset. I can't keep talking to him about it or I know I'll start to make him mad at how bitter I am

 

[Merry]

I feel for you, having similar feelings myself as lots of people around me are announcing their pregnancies. Just have faith one day it will be your turn and let them know it's hard for you so they can try to be more sensitive around you. My prayers are with us all ttc

 

[Cookie dough]

Aw hun, it really does sound like you've got it bad.

If it was me I'd have to ask them to leave. Really don't know what to say

Hope things start picking up for you soon. With regards to the test, can you get one done tomorrow privately? I know the whole system where you are is completely different to the UK. It's not something you should need to do but it may make you feel better about things.

Sending you big

 

[MissMonty]

Hi Izzy sending you big hugs I understand how you feel, DH and I waited to TTC, first we waited till we were married, then we waited a little longer till be had the house of our dreams and we worked hard to pay off a large amount of the mortgage like you say we too are in the most perfect position to have a child but it is not happening. We have friends who have had children and who only met each other after we started TTC, I feel very sad at times and I know its very difficult, I try hard to focus on the positives I have with my lovely DH, we have the most wonderful relationship and this whole process has made us stronger. I must be very difficult for you living in the same house together, try and spend some quality time with your hubby, it will be our time soon

 

[cheerios]

Hey Izzy

I do have to agree with your doctor though! My tests were ALL done on some random day, because I have irregular AFs like you. And ALL the tests showed that I have PCOS. So it is true that it doesn't matter when the tests are done, because if there's smth wrong, it would show in the blood regardless of the CD.

It really sucks to have a pregnant couple living with you guys. Are you all renting out a room to them??? Hmmm... have you considered asking them to get another place??? Can come up with some excuse like "baby crying at night would wake you up??"" Sounds sooo mean right? But I'm thinking of this as a long-term solution....cos it isn't a small thing to have a crying baby in the same house.

 

[kairzh7]

Just have to tell you I understand how you feel. I just found out a friend is prego with her 2nd and we were trying before she even met her husband and their little girl is almost 1. I would not be able to have them in the same house.

Regarding the testing, if they do need a CD3 test they have drugs that can bring on menstruation so you don't have to wait for it to happen naturally, so I wouldn't worry
too much about it.

Just wanted to let you know you are not alone.

 

[hopefulchick]

You are not alone. Many of us on here know the pain of close friends and family members getting pregnant easily. It is even worse because they are living with you and you can not escape. The farther along the pregnancy goes, the more it will be in your face. I have to agree with the ladies that the best thing may be to ask them to leave or maybe DH can speak to them about being sensitive. But you know if you were pregnant, you would be shouting it from the rooftops so you can't really blame them. I know how it feels to be happy for them and to be so envious that it is not you. Your day will be here. Seeing a specialist is a step in the right direction! They will definitely get the ball rolling for you! Good luck, I do hope things get better for you