sorry i haven't been around in here much girlies
still the same just on different meds AGAIN
i will find ones that work
im on 50mg amitriptyline fun fun fun
they've not given me so many side affects but
its only been 2 weeks ...
i gave up on the other ones as they made me
so angry i didn't feel in control i was either angry
or crying so i gave up on them quick before i did
something serious
emily's doing really well though, she's alot more
cuddly recently as well which is quite nice
and you know how everyone goes on about how
they cry with joy when they look at their babies
well i got that the other day so i think maybe somewhere
inside me it's getting a bit better

i still wouldn't say i LOVE her but i think im
beginning to warm to her iykwim so im hoping it
carrys on and the older she gets the more loving
i get ... im hoping anyways
hugs to those who need them
xx