Hi, im new on this thread

I have a long standing history of depression, been suffering with it since i was 13 and am now 21.
3 weeks ago dr put me on 10mg of citralopram(sp?) and 2 weeks ago i got upped to 20mg.
Today im just feeling a bit useless. Everything i do seems to mess up.
I started weaning LO as the amount of milk she was drinking was just bouncing straight back up and have now been told of by HV.
Im still not eating properly or sleeping properly and i keep messing my money up.
No matter how hard i try i just want to buy things to make myself feel better and i cant really afford to, now i have £300 of bank charges coming out next week and only 270 going in for the fortnight.
I just dont know what to do anymore, i thought i was getting better