PND Support Thread

[elm]

I find it difficult feeding too sometimes Shifter - don't know if it's the same as you but sometimes I just want some time to myself and want my body to my self for a bit (!), I do express at night so that the last feed is expressed milk which means that I can go to bed before Elliot if I need to, DP likes it because he gets to do one feed a day.

How did you get on at the drs Aly?

My therapy session got cancelled and rearranged for 14th June which really got me down, felt like I wasn't being taken seriously and didn't need the support that much. Spoke to my hv who was really really lovely and came and spoke to me for an hour and said she'll ring them tomorrow and try and sort something out.

xxx

 

[ALY]

Well iv been to the docs this afternoon and he as increased my tabs from 15 to 20 mg a day so hopefully soon il be able to see a diff in myself
He also said putting my hand thro a window was stupid (as if i didnt no )

Elm im sooo sorry your appointment as been moved its so good of your hcv to do that mine would just tell me to wait

 

[elm]

That's great news Aly, hope it makes a difference really soon. It was lovely of her - she was loads more understanding than the nurse at the parent and baby unit.

x

 

[Shifter]

Hope the pills start working better now Aly.

Glad your HV was helpful elm, hopefully she'll kick them into shape for you!

I'm feeling fed up again tonight. Jack was grizzling all evening and hubby was out with work peeps. My mum came over to help me out, which was brilliant, but I'm still shattered. I made the mistake of responding to a request for example birth plans from one of the hypno-mums still expecting and reading through my birth plan has made me really upset. I put a bit at the end for in case of hospital transfer and said about wanting to avoid a c-section, especially for FTP. But that was what I got, despite being armed with stacks of knowledge and awareness, in the end I didn't avoid what was possibly an unnecessary C/S

 

[elm]

x

My hv suggested writing a letter to the hospital about my birth experience, she said it didn't have to be a letter of complaint and I didn't have to send it but it was worth considering. I'm hoping to talk it through in therapy first to come to terms with what happened so I can move on and hopefully enjoy another pregnancy at some point. I'm sure it's part of the reason I've got PND.

Is Jack asleep now? That's a lovely photo - he's gorgeous! Hope things have quietened down and you've got a bit of time to yourself x

 

[Shifter]

I was advised by the homebirth ladies to get my notes and go over them with an IMW. I've written to the hospital to request my notes, so once they arrive I'll be doing that. I think it will help to get an impartial opinion on how things developed. In a way I want to hear that the C/S was unnecessary as I can then better trust that my body would have done it on its own and therefore is capable of doing it in the future. Right now I just don't trust that my body can do it and really don't want to risk a repeat experience.

What happened at your birth elm hun? Would it help you to talk it over with a MW?

And yes, Jack went to sleep about 9.30 and slept through his dream feed at 11.30 right through until 4.45! The photo in my avatar is my favourite

 

[Rach276]

HV told me to book an app with dr to see about getting treatment. Can someone explain the 'treatment' please?

 

[Shifter]

HV told me to book an app with dr to see about getting treatment. Can someone explain the 'treatment' please?

It depends on you and your doctor. Some people find counselling very valuable in getting through depression, others find cognitive behavioural therapy the best option and some take anti-depressant medication. Unfortunately some doctors will prescribe drugs without really taking the time to find out what might be best for the individual. I suggest making sure you talk through all the options with your doctor.

 

[ALY]

Rach
IM sorry you may have PND too
on the very 1st page ther is a list of treatments tht you culd look up on the internet this will be easier for you as some of the treatments may be a bit hard to explain without confusing you

Im taking tabs to help me plus im going for some one to one conciling

 

[Always&4ever]

Why so I hate my life so much?

 

[ALY]

Why so I hate my life so much?

Hun are you ok am here if you want to talk or someone to just listen

 

[elm]

Don't know if it will help you or not Jazzy but I tell myself when I have horrible thoughts that it's because I'm ill and if I wasn't I wouldn't be thinking them or feeling like that. It works for me sometimes xxx

 

[elm]

Rach - make sure your dr knows you're breast feeding if you do decide to go down the medication route, mine at the time was half way through writing out a prescription when I bought it up and had to change the drugs she was prescribing me . I've got a much better dr now. Don't be pushed into anything you don't want to do, if you don't feel something is right for you at the moment you can always change your mind later x

That sounds like a really good idea regarding your notes Shifter. I think that's something I'll consider doing, I have big patches of labour that I can't remember anything about.

My birth plan consisted of a water birth with gas & air, I ended up having pethadine then I was taken down for an epidural but didn't have one because there was no one to give me one and had a ventous delivery as my baby was in distress. I definitely need to talk through it all and get sorted what happened in my own head so I feel I can have another baby and not live in fear for the whole pregnancy and then have an even worse birth experience because I'm so scared of what's going to happen.

I'm seeing a new therapy person next week so hopefully I'll be able to work through things.

Are you ok Aly?

xxx

 

[Always&4ever]

I wish I was ok, I'm just sick of everything and I can't keep going over things in my head

 

[ALY]

Yeah im feeling ok i wouldnt say i was happy but im better than i was yesterday but that might just be because iv been really busy today and ant ad time to sit down and think about stuff
but i do no that wen i go to bed il not be able to get to sleep cos its wen things go round in my head more so i no that 2morro il be in a bad mood if that makes sence

How you feeling today hun

 

[ALY]

I wish I was ok, I'm just sick of everything and I can't keep going over things in my head

Awww hun i wish i could help u
Is there anyone you can talk to like a friend or a doc
How about changing your meds or something
Ohhh i wish i could give you a big

 

[Always&4ever]

I'm not on anything and there isn't anyone I can talk to, I'm gonna log off now as I have a headache x

 

[ALY]

Awww hun can you go to your docs he may be able to give you somethin to help
I went to the docs yesterday and he told me that tabs help as it replaces the chemicle in your brain that is missing and if that chemicle is missing then you will feel as if you have no control over any thing
Dont no how much or this is true tho

 

[Rach276]

Have drs app monday, will update then. Feel like im just whinging tho.

 

[Rach276]

Been drs. He was so patronising. Made me feel like shit. Hes put me on tablets (Citalopram) and said it shouldnt effect my milk but it might make Jack sleepy. Dont no if I should takee them. im in tears.