Pointless?

[genkigemini]

Hi Ladies -

Tonight I am flying out to Fairbanks and I will be offline for a week but I have something on my mind and I just can't shake it. (Sorry if I come off as whining.)

Is posting here pointless for me? Honestly... I joined the board in January and I still have yet to even ovulate. I mean, I have a bit of time to get hopeful on my meds but then I have an ultrasound and no folicle big enough for O. Then I have to wait till cd34, take a preggo test with doctor and then take Progesterone to jump start the cycle again.

When it is all said and done, I have about 12-14 days of hopefulness every 50 days or so. It is frustrating. It is so hard to see people having two cycles to my one. It is hard to see people getting s when I can not even O.

Stupid people who mean well always tell me, "I will carry your baby for you." It takes everything in me not to say, "Look Bitch, it is pretty hard when I am not even able to make a proper egg!" Just makes me want to kick some ass, you know?

I am not really sure why I am even posting this but I just wonder if people even care that I am here. I do not feel like a useful resource and these days I have very few questions about what I am going through. I don't know...

I love you guys and that is why I am here. I guess I am just a bit frustrated these days. 9+ years is way too long of TTC.

 

[noddysgirl84]

Oh hun, I am so sorry for your struggle. I cannot even imagine what you are going through.
I understand the stupid comments I get them all the time - these people think they mean well but actually make us feel worse.
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and hoping you get your sticky bean V SOON.

Love and

Lorna xx

 

[chefamy1122]

It is NOT pointless for you to post on here. Everyone needs an outlet for their feelings when having such difficulty trying to conceive.

 

[akcher]

Hopefully being able to vent here will help you feel better. Keep in mind that ovulation problems can be fixed! There is still technology out there that can help you. Try and keep your spirits up for your trip and don't loose hope. Extra for you and I hope you feel better.

 

[maybebaby]

I don't think it is pointless, but if it is too hard on you I totally understand. I wish you all the in the world...

 

[CurlySue]

The title of this thread is Long Term TTC and Assisted Conception.

You are currently embarking upon assisted conception, ergo this is the board for you.

Worry not. It's all good.

 

[Arcanegirl]

I care that youre here. you understand me like alot of other rl people dont

 

[genkigemini]

Sorry, Ladies. I did not want to sound like I was leaving BnB or anything because I am not. I love his place. It is my internet home. LOL

I was just kind of just venting my feelings. I am not even all about it. I am just , you know?

I love you ladies and thanks for the support.

 

[genkigemini]

I care that youre here. you understand me like alot of other rl people dont

That was so sweet. It really meant a lot to me. (I wish we did not live half a world away from each other!)

 

[chefamy1122]

We love you too!

 

[pixielou]

Not pointless at all! Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[wannabmum]

Huni sorry u having such a difficult time , it can b so frustrating going month after month then year after year and still feeling like u getting nowhere while others round u seem to b getting on its so unfair , just want to let u know we are all here for u, u very much valued and lvd member here

xxxxxxxx

 

[Sinead]

It is definitely NOT pointless for you to post on here. You need a place to rant, as we all do, and I suppose its easier here as people understand. And selfishly because you made me feel so welcome on this part of the board when I was nervous about what the future holds, I definitely don't think your post are pointless