MizzPodd
1 girl,1 angel,1 rainbow
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Hello lovely ladies,
I have one living daughter, one angel daughter, and now one baby on the way. I am posting my story from what happened during my 2nd pregnancy delivery from another post. I can't bear to write out what happened again. Bare with me please....
"Hi ladies,
I am actually shocked I can even write about this, I have been struggling ever since. On July 4th I went to use the bathroom and then felt something coming out, it was like a sac so I immediately just held it in and screamed and went to lay down. My husband didn't know what was going on and called 911. Got to the hospital and the ER doctor said I was miscariaging and sent to delivery.... HOWEVER, when I got there, they did an ultrasound and the baby was fine, and healthy with a strong heartbeat... 18 weeks + 5 days along (which was actually almost a week ahead)... They told me as long as i didn;t have an infection that I could be sent to a high risk facility and they would sew up my cervix... Unfortunately, I begin getting a high fever, and they discovered I had an infection... They assumed it was baby, which is why I was in premature labor. I still can't go into more details because it is just too hard to deal with. I still can't believe it. The fluid they got showed it WAS NOT my beautiful angel, they do not know where it was coming from. But my water broke and there was nothing else they could. Within less than 24 hours, I went from having a great normal pregnancy, to going into labor and delivering a baby boy. It happened so fast, and we were sent home the next day. To have your baby one minute, and then to suddenly lose him with no explanation is heartbreaking.
My strong prince lived on his own for 2 hours after he was born. We did not want to know the sex, so my husband was the one to tell me the sex. My daughter was able to see her little brother and say hi (she is almost two). We were together as a family, and I will cherish this moment for the rest of my life.
I am still grieving, it has not even been a month yet, and I just can't believe it. I see him everyday and every night. He looked beautiful, just like his daddy. I know he sleeping peacefully, and never suffered. He is our guardian angel and protecting his family now.
I am here because I just need someone to talk to. I don't know anyone who has gone through this, and it is hard for them to understand...
A parent is not supposed to outlive their child.... Especially like this...
I just started getting out o the house, and it hurts to see all of these pregnant woman. I was at the dentist and a pregnant chose to sit right next to me when there were empty seats everywhere... and the dentist assistant working on my tooth was pregnant... I mean it feels like I keep getting slapped over and over. My post appt is August 10th and we want to start trying again when the doctor clears us.
There may be some type of blood disorder I have that may make me prone to infections more when pregnant, and they said if it the case, I will take baby asprin during my pregnancy from now on. I pray that is the case, and this never happens again... My cervix was normal, and was not incompetent or anything....
Ladies please stay strong, and know our angels are with us always, in our hearts. for everyone. We are strong beautiful women to go through this, and still keep pushing on...
In loving memory of my baby boy
Dejuan Jr.
7 ounces and 8 1/2 inches
Okay, and this was the 2nd post------
Hi,
I posted my story on here about a week ago... I just got back from my post partum check up and my doctor just told us that the pathologist confirmed our baby was actually a GIRL... Not a boy... It feels like I am grieving all over again.... This whole time we thought it was a boy, and now I just don't know what to do. We already have everything completed with the boy information, social security number.... everything... I just had necklace made and engraved with our boy information on it... I am so overwhelmed now. Our ern has Dejuan Jr. on it. We have been getting so much much better dealing with this, and now we find out our boy was a girl... I am at my wits end... Now we have to change everything as far as birth cert. death cert. funeral information, tell family. Ladies I am so heartbroken and it feels like two swords have gone right through my heart. I have grieved for the loss of a boy, and now I have lost a girl... This is so hard to handle. It's bad enough they said the autopsy was fine, meaning our baby was perfectly fine. But to say oh it was really a girl. Oh my goodness I just lost a baby girl
I just can't believe it..."
OKAY-----
So, the pathologists told me a couple months after that, that the baby had NO problems, and listed it as a very extreme premature delivery. They are still unsure why I just went into preterm labor... My first oregnancy was full term at 39 weeks. I had not planned on getting pregnant so soon after my precious Chrisna's passing, but I was blessed with a rainbow baby a month after.
As of today:
With this pregnancy, I have been doing my best to stay optimistic, and I recently passed my 18 weeks 5 days milestone.
I am currently 20 + 4 days as of now. Just had my scan last week, and everything looked great with baby. But, my cervix is short again... It went from 4 cm to 2.5 cm in a couple of weeks. Even though 2cm and above is considered okay, due to my history, the doc is concerned. I've been getting checked every two weeks, and now they put me on complete bedrest to try to avoid dilation until my next appointment this Tuesday. BTW my cervix is not incompetent, and that is why the docs were concerned as well. I think I am going to have to get seen by the specialist there, but for now I just want my baby to keep cooking! I am praying that I make it to 24 weeks at least. My ultimate goal is to make it to 32 weeks, but with how my pregnancy is going I am scared that it may be sooner. Ladies can someone please help me deal with this or just share your experiences because my experience with a premature baby was tragic. The doc said it was very unusual for a baby to be born alive at 18 weeks and live for 2 hrs, so I know in my heart that my babies are very strong.
Thank you to anyone who responds to this; I know it is a long post. I just need to know how to cope with the possibility, and how to overcome the stress of thinking I will go into labor before 24 weeks again
And of course, how to prepare for a premie baby born at 24 weeks or later.
I have one living daughter, one angel daughter, and now one baby on the way. I am posting my story from what happened during my 2nd pregnancy delivery from another post. I can't bear to write out what happened again. Bare with me please....
"Hi ladies,
I am actually shocked I can even write about this, I have been struggling ever since. On July 4th I went to use the bathroom and then felt something coming out, it was like a sac so I immediately just held it in and screamed and went to lay down. My husband didn't know what was going on and called 911. Got to the hospital and the ER doctor said I was miscariaging and sent to delivery.... HOWEVER, when I got there, they did an ultrasound and the baby was fine, and healthy with a strong heartbeat... 18 weeks + 5 days along (which was actually almost a week ahead)... They told me as long as i didn;t have an infection that I could be sent to a high risk facility and they would sew up my cervix... Unfortunately, I begin getting a high fever, and they discovered I had an infection... They assumed it was baby, which is why I was in premature labor. I still can't go into more details because it is just too hard to deal with. I still can't believe it. The fluid they got showed it WAS NOT my beautiful angel, they do not know where it was coming from. But my water broke and there was nothing else they could. Within less than 24 hours, I went from having a great normal pregnancy, to going into labor and delivering a baby boy. It happened so fast, and we were sent home the next day. To have your baby one minute, and then to suddenly lose him with no explanation is heartbreaking.
My strong prince lived on his own for 2 hours after he was born. We did not want to know the sex, so my husband was the one to tell me the sex. My daughter was able to see her little brother and say hi (she is almost two). We were together as a family, and I will cherish this moment for the rest of my life.
I am still grieving, it has not even been a month yet, and I just can't believe it. I see him everyday and every night. He looked beautiful, just like his daddy. I know he sleeping peacefully, and never suffered. He is our guardian angel and protecting his family now.
I am here because I just need someone to talk to. I don't know anyone who has gone through this, and it is hard for them to understand...
A parent is not supposed to outlive their child.... Especially like this...
I just started getting out o the house, and it hurts to see all of these pregnant woman. I was at the dentist and a pregnant chose to sit right next to me when there were empty seats everywhere... and the dentist assistant working on my tooth was pregnant... I mean it feels like I keep getting slapped over and over. My post appt is August 10th and we want to start trying again when the doctor clears us.
There may be some type of blood disorder I have that may make me prone to infections more when pregnant, and they said if it the case, I will take baby asprin during my pregnancy from now on. I pray that is the case, and this never happens again... My cervix was normal, and was not incompetent or anything....
Ladies please stay strong, and know our angels are with us always, in our hearts. for everyone. We are strong beautiful women to go through this, and still keep pushing on...
In loving memory of my baby boy
Dejuan Jr.
7 ounces and 8 1/2 inches
Okay, and this was the 2nd post------
Hi,
I posted my story on here about a week ago... I just got back from my post partum check up and my doctor just told us that the pathologist confirmed our baby was actually a GIRL... Not a boy... It feels like I am grieving all over again.... This whole time we thought it was a boy, and now I just don't know what to do. We already have everything completed with the boy information, social security number.... everything... I just had necklace made and engraved with our boy information on it... I am so overwhelmed now. Our ern has Dejuan Jr. on it. We have been getting so much much better dealing with this, and now we find out our boy was a girl... I am at my wits end... Now we have to change everything as far as birth cert. death cert. funeral information, tell family. Ladies I am so heartbroken and it feels like two swords have gone right through my heart. I have grieved for the loss of a boy, and now I have lost a girl... This is so hard to handle. It's bad enough they said the autopsy was fine, meaning our baby was perfectly fine. But to say oh it was really a girl. Oh my goodness I just lost a baby girl
I just can't believe it..."OKAY-----
So, the pathologists told me a couple months after that, that the baby had NO problems, and listed it as a very extreme premature delivery. They are still unsure why I just went into preterm labor... My first oregnancy was full term at 39 weeks. I had not planned on getting pregnant so soon after my precious Chrisna's passing, but I was blessed with a rainbow baby a month after.
As of today:
With this pregnancy, I have been doing my best to stay optimistic, and I recently passed my 18 weeks 5 days milestone.
I am currently 20 + 4 days as of now. Just had my scan last week, and everything looked great with baby. But, my cervix is short again... It went from 4 cm to 2.5 cm in a couple of weeks. Even though 2cm and above is considered okay, due to my history, the doc is concerned. I've been getting checked every two weeks, and now they put me on complete bedrest to try to avoid dilation until my next appointment this Tuesday. BTW my cervix is not incompetent, and that is why the docs were concerned as well. I think I am going to have to get seen by the specialist there, but for now I just want my baby to keep cooking! I am praying that I make it to 24 weeks at least. My ultimate goal is to make it to 32 weeks, but with how my pregnancy is going I am scared that it may be sooner. Ladies can someone please help me deal with this or just share your experiences because my experience with a premature baby was tragic. The doc said it was very unusual for a baby to be born alive at 18 weeks and live for 2 hrs, so I know in my heart that my babies are very strong. Thank you to anyone who responds to this; I know it is a long post. I just need to know how to cope with the possibility, and how to overcome the stress of thinking I will go into labor before 24 weeks again
And of course, how to prepare for a premie baby born at 24 weeks or later.
your girls are so beautiful! I remember you because of the cool screen name 
