I'd say you did 110% the right thing by stopping the Neosure and I wish I would have been that insightful because I'd probably still be breastfeeding if I had
I understand they want these little preemies to gain weight but we're DRILLED over and over and over how PERFECT breastmilk is and then you have a preemie and all of a sudden our milk isn't good enough.
I could cry right now at the loss of breastfeeding. They sent lo home with instructions to breastfeed for 15 minutes then give a 2 oz. bottle of bm fortified with Enfacare. Lo had explosive poops after EVERY feeding, terrible gas and the worst diaper rash. I honestly thought it was from my milk!! The pediatrician recommended trying just the Enfacare made with water just as a formula. Well the rash went away and the poops got more normal. Sooo, on top of having to breastfeed THEN bottle feed THEN pump every 3 hours round the clock and the exhastion from it combined with it
seeming like she actually did better on just the formula I stopped bfing and pumping
Now we're two different formulas later because the gas came back with a vengence and she developed moderate silent reflux. She's now on Gerber Good Start (I put her on it because I'm tired of these doctors' advice) and she does ok but I'm soooo sad that we're not breastfeeding. I should have just did what you did and stopped the damn formula in my breastmilk and just kept straight breastfeeding. I 110% blame the loss of breastfeeding on them
insisting I fortify my milk the the preemie formula and feed her with a bottle.
Oh I'm sorry, hon. What would happen if you tried BFing now? Do you still have *any* milk supply left? If so you could bust that pump out and work it back up to higher volumes...
And I agree with you. I was so pissed that I was told (repeatedly) that breastmilk is the perfect food, perfectly designed for whatever gestation your baby is born (whether preemie or termie!) And then they send us home with vitamins, iron, and formula. Our daughter had an awful NEC scare that resulted in abdominal X-rays, suppositories, all kinds of stress. It turns out the stupid breastmilk fortifier they were giving her was causing awful constipation and distention. Grrr. I understand the need for vitamins and iron, but geez, leave nature alone when it comes to calories! If the breastmilk caloric content is too low, tell Mom to eat a bucket of ice cream a day! I am so frustrated with formulas!
But really... there is nothing wrong with formula if that's all you can do. Please don't let it get you down. It exists for precisely these extreme circumstances, and it does its job well when it's not causing all sorts of upset. You are doing everything in your power to provide for your LO, and we can only do our best! I know it's disappointing to have to give up on BFing (my girl will NOT latch or suck, so I've given up too), but in the end what matters is that you gave it your best shot. Totally understand your frustration, but you are still your little girl's hero!
xoxo