Teeny
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right so, I love my dd more then I could ever explain, she is the love of my life and I cannot wait to have that amount of love again! twice as much! it's exciting!
but.....
there is part of me that feels really sad too. I found the newborn phase really hard and made worse by a colicky reflux baby. I breastfed too, still do, and I know that it's what I want to do again, but it's so tethering. even after it gets easy, any time away involves pumping, storing, making sure lo will take bottles, etc.
so now my lo is playing more independently, sleeping well, we go to the gym which means socializing in the crèche and some me time for me! I've just started to feel like the old me, an altered version, but me all the same!
I'm just scared of getting sucked back into the new baby stuff, and this time with a toddler and all that goes with it! I'm sad about going back to a sleep deprived state where I feel buried in the needs of others in my family.
does anyone else feel like this or understand this?
but.....
there is part of me that feels really sad too. I found the newborn phase really hard and made worse by a colicky reflux baby. I breastfed too, still do, and I know that it's what I want to do again, but it's so tethering. even after it gets easy, any time away involves pumping, storing, making sure lo will take bottles, etc.
so now my lo is playing more independently, sleeping well, we go to the gym which means socializing in the crèche and some me time for me! I've just started to feel like the old me, an altered version, but me all the same!
I'm just scared of getting sucked back into the new baby stuff, and this time with a toddler and all that goes with it! I'm sad about going back to a sleep deprived state where I feel buried in the needs of others in my family.
does anyone else feel like this or understand this?